Good Intentions

WILL'S POV

I feel myself slowly coming to but I want to remain in this dream. I am once again with my friends, but were younger. The excitement I feel is almost unreal. I can tell we are on an airplane, were all beside ourselves with excitement. I don’t know where we are going. I look around and Zayn.
I sit up directly in the bed – a name!

“Zayn” I say it aloud before I even realize it has left my mouth. No sooner I say it my sister has left the room, door is left open.
I go to get out of bed and find my journal to write it down, I cant, my legs are not cooperating as fast as I would like them to.
I start crying. I cant help it. I feel helpless, trapped and suddenly scared. I am not supposed to be here. I just want to get up.
I decide not to force myself and lie back. I need to come up with a plan. My brain is still moving slowly so coming up with anything of any value will have to wait.

I turn to see “mom” come in the room.
“Another bad dream?”
She hands me a pill and I decline it.
“I think I’ll be fine. I just need to wake up and move around some. I think getting out will help. Could I join Dad after lunch?”
I say this knowing exercise will help dissipate the drugs in my system and help clear my mind so I can think. I need to be able to think clearly.

Little by little parts of my memory are coming back. Its mostly little things, but little things help fill in the blanks.
I get dressed and notice the hangers again. I have figured out the system. Each day has its own color hanger. So if its washed and put it the closet on a Monday, it gets a white hanger, so on and so forth. I see no use for this but someone must, I only comply.
Mom peeks her head in to tell me lunch will be ready soon and Dad will be home to eat. I get ready so I can join him afterwards.

If I was sure no one would interrupt, I would retrieve my journal and write in it.
I need a plan.
First on the list, act like I belong here. No more out bursts. Comply and do as she said, don’t fight it - but I will force myself to remember.

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