Unrequited Love

Thinking about prom and going with Niall couldn't be any better. I never felt so happy doing that to Harry, he has made me feel so sick, so insane and I had to have payback. All the nights that I've cried to sleep, all those months that I've felt a mess thinking it's all my fault, when I didn't even think once who's fault it actually was. He always made me believe that it was something I done. I need to move on. Harry did nothing, but to hurt me. Yes, I still love him but I just have to forget him and everything we've been through because it's only going to make things worse. I should never have cared, but I did care. I cared a lot, and I still fucking care.

The rain hits my window like a song him and I used to sing. His dark eyes are forever etched into the tender fiber that is in my memory. The drops of water remind me of the false 'i love yous' he humed to me. Yes I tried, but I never meant as much as he did to me.. Everything he ever said was lie and I was a stupid little shit believing in him and his words.

Niall makes me happy, whether in any condition i'm upto. He's always there for me. I don't know why I said I love him, when I clearly don't. I don't know why I still don't have feelings for him, after everything he's done for me, with through thick and thin. If I tell him that I don't, he's gonna hate me and I'll lose him just like everyone I lost.

Fuck, F'm so stupid. I can't play with his feelings, he's too innocent and worthful unlike me. I don't derserve his love.. It's like I'm doing the same thing to him like Harry has done to me. Niall has like the most adorable eyes I could ever fall for and the cutest smile that takes my breath away. He has the ability to make me laugh every time he speaks and whenever I look into his eyes, it's so hard to look away. I can't explain if i like him or not, that's the problem.

I didn't even realise i was in Science till Niall disturbed me from my thoughts.

"Hiiiiiii! Are you there?" He kept waving his left hand side to side so he could get my attention. I didn't say anything but just to look at him. He had a huge smile plastered in his face which made me smile. He was sitting next to me, facing my direction and being a idiot. He's so cute. I poked his cheek and replied,

"Yeah.." I didn't say anything but just laughed. He laughed at my respond, showing his teeth. Uhh. Where's his braces?

"Niall, uhhh your braces?"

"Didn't you know? I got them off" He pretended to be sad, looking away.

"No oh my god, i didn't even realise it till now" I grabbed his hand, forcing to look my way again.

"Oh no shit, sherlock. Ofcourse you wouldn't realise since you were dreaming the whole day" He looked away, but this time in serious way. Shit he's pissed. Of course, anyone would be pissed if their best friend don't know what's happening in their life. Just when I wanted to speak, the bell rang to he recces break.

Everyone rushed to the door, packing up crazily. Niall already had packed his stuff like what, 5 minutes ago? He made his way to the door while I was still packing up stuff in my bag. Just when i wanted to get up, Harry made his way to my seat. I completely forgot that he was in the class too. He stood there, wanting an access from me to look at him but i didn't. He lost his patience and took my hand.

"Alessa-"

"what do you want?" I snaped, releasing my hand away from his grip.

"Look, I want to talk" He came closer to me, but I took a step back. I realised everyone was out of the class enjoying their recess except Harry and I. He placed his hands on his eyes, then removing chair of its table and sitting down.

"I love you" Sudden tears escaped from his eyes and i just wanted to hug him. I don't know if he meant that but my mind kept repeating itself. "He doesn't love you. He's lying."

"Look Harry, just get the fuck away from me and leave. How many times do I have to tell you but yet you dont understand. We were fucking over a long time again and you should deal it with!"

I lost my head and screamed out, passionately. I wore my backpack and head to the door. I heard footsteps, like he Harry was running towards the door and I was right. He looked the door from inside and came closer to me. He embraced me into a hug and i pushed him away.

"What the fuck are you doing?" My eyes stinged as i looked at him with angre and hate.

"I love you Alessa"He placed his hands around my face, wanting to kiss me.

"Fuck off! Leave me alone!" i pushed him and dramatically slapped him across the face. He rubbed his face, looking down. His eyelashes are really long. He looked back up, with fearful eyes, feeling like he wanted to stab me. Shit, I should have not done that. I crossed over the line.

"Alessa, I fucking love you, why don't you get it!"

He grabbed my shoulders and pressed me hard against the hard brick wall. His eyes were filled with angre and hurt. His strong hands kept strengthing, squeezing my arms. I felt pain rushing against my body and scared. I've never seen him that angry.

"Stop.. Stop Harry, you're hurting me.."

His lips were like two centimetres away from mines. I started to break down as his dark eyes softened, letting me go. I looked down towards to floor, tears screaming to land on my face. Harry stood there helplessly and I could see him looking down at me. He squated down and holding up my chin with regretful eyes.

"I'm so sorry, i-"

"Please don't" I removed his hands from my chin and moved away from him. I hate him more than ever now. I'm utterly shocked and terrified that he just did such thing.

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