Unrequited Love
12
The words cut him into pieces. He ruffled his hair, looking to his side and then a tear scrolled down his cheeks. His eyes began to stiffen up, his hands began to start trembling and without a look at him, he looked at Niall.
“You did something”
“Shut the fuck up! Don’t you know how much you’ve hurt her? Do you know how she felt when you embraced Isabelle in your arms with her watching? Do you even know what she went through?”
Niall spoke with his teeth gritted wanting to hit Harry. He held my hand and directly looked in my eyes. I looked back with a pleasurable smile.
“I see the way you look at him, I know because you looked at me the same way” his eyes form tears but it didn’t land. Here come the feelings I thought I’ve forgotten, here comes the pain that once left my heart broken.
There it goes again. That heavy feeling in my chest when I don’t feel any desire to speak or move. All I want to do is close my eyes and sleep, because of hurting him is incredibly exhausting. I attempt my best not to let my eyes fulfilling, but no matter how hard I try, I can’t connect to him or anything. He gave up on me before, and I gave up on myself too.
“Do you love him?” Harry looked at us, while we looked back.
“Do you love him?” he repeated and I urged to scream.
“Yes! I love Niall, and nothing’s going to change my mind!” I screeched, looking at Harry. I know I didn’t love Niall I love Harry but I couldn’t, Niall is right, he hurt me a lot. No matter how many times Harry has let me down, I always go back to him, secretly. I have to get my revenge. I want Harry to know how it feels, being used.
Niall was surprised yet really shocked on my confession. He didn’t say a single word, but just stood there looking at me like a ghost. He started to form a huge smile on his lips and began to stutter.
“R-Really?”
“Yes Niall, I love you, only you” I confessed, eyeing Harry from the corner of my left eye. He turned around walking, hopelessly.
“WHY?!” I could feel the hurt in Harry’s voice. He scream while walking slowing and I could feel his hands on his face.
Once there was no sight on Harry, I urged to anyone near me, and there was Niall. I pressed my chest into his and started sobbing. I couldn’t just feel anything. I don’t know what to do, what to feel, I don’t know what to think and I don’t know what I want anymore..
“I love you too” He broke off the hug and whispered my ear. What the fuck did I just do? Why did I tell him I love him when I don’t? I didn’t even know what I just said. No, no. I’m going to tell him that I mistakenly said it to make Harry feel like shit. Oh my god, what’s going to happen to his feelings even though he confessed to me back that he loves me? Oh fuck.
A smile plastered on Niall’s face as he spoke,
“I just want to make you smile, is that okay?”
“You did something”
“Shut the fuck up! Don’t you know how much you’ve hurt her? Do you know how she felt when you embraced Isabelle in your arms with her watching? Do you even know what she went through?”
Niall spoke with his teeth gritted wanting to hit Harry. He held my hand and directly looked in my eyes. I looked back with a pleasurable smile.
“I see the way you look at him, I know because you looked at me the same way” his eyes form tears but it didn’t land. Here come the feelings I thought I’ve forgotten, here comes the pain that once left my heart broken.
There it goes again. That heavy feeling in my chest when I don’t feel any desire to speak or move. All I want to do is close my eyes and sleep, because of hurting him is incredibly exhausting. I attempt my best not to let my eyes fulfilling, but no matter how hard I try, I can’t connect to him or anything. He gave up on me before, and I gave up on myself too.
“Do you love him?” Harry looked at us, while we looked back.
“Do you love him?” he repeated and I urged to scream.
“Yes! I love Niall, and nothing’s going to change my mind!” I screeched, looking at Harry. I know I didn’t love Niall I love Harry but I couldn’t, Niall is right, he hurt me a lot. No matter how many times Harry has let me down, I always go back to him, secretly. I have to get my revenge. I want Harry to know how it feels, being used.
Niall was surprised yet really shocked on my confession. He didn’t say a single word, but just stood there looking at me like a ghost. He started to form a huge smile on his lips and began to stutter.
“R-Really?”
“Yes Niall, I love you, only you” I confessed, eyeing Harry from the corner of my left eye. He turned around walking, hopelessly.
“WHY?!” I could feel the hurt in Harry’s voice. He scream while walking slowing and I could feel his hands on his face.
Once there was no sight on Harry, I urged to anyone near me, and there was Niall. I pressed my chest into his and started sobbing. I couldn’t just feel anything. I don’t know what to do, what to feel, I don’t know what to think and I don’t know what I want anymore..
“I love you too” He broke off the hug and whispered my ear. What the fuck did I just do? Why did I tell him I love him when I don’t? I didn’t even know what I just said. No, no. I’m going to tell him that I mistakenly said it to make Harry feel like shit. Oh my god, what’s going to happen to his feelings even though he confessed to me back that he loves me? Oh fuck.
A smile plastered on Niall’s face as he spoke,
“I just want to make you smile, is that okay?”
Notes
song; Let her go - Passengerugh shittest chapter i've ever wrote, sorry! short chapter, bleh ! anyways, comment, subscribe and vote please ! thank you so much!
- Zaheda
10/9/13