Samanthas POV
We made our way down the winding path which led to a small park next to a lake. It was sunny today. The light becoming reflected off of the surfacing water which stretched across the lake. A few small ducks were quacking as they waddled out of the water and towards the park. Suddenly Bell’s blonde curls ran passed me towards them.
“Look Dom look! Ducks!” She exclaimed excitedly and rushed to try and pat them. I found myself slightly nervous with how to act around her. We’d barely interacted at all in our lives. And it was all my fault. I would probably say something wrong or do something which would upset her. I didn’t know how to look after a child or even be with them for that matter. But I was willing to try. For her.
For our family.
Donny must have seen my sad expression because his hand lightly brushed my arm. Dom was now running with Bell as they made their way to the silver slide positioned between two climbing frames.
I smiled to myself and Donny pulled me down on a bench at the side. He didn’t say anything to me, was he finding our situation as awkward as I did? Bell started to run towards me and her hands held up a load of daisies. My heart sunk and I remembered how I carefully placed them into Harry’s hair whilst he slept on the grass by his parent’s gravestone. Harry. Harry. He constantly fell in my thoughts. How desperately I wanted to run my fingers through his hair again. But he was at band practice and would be home soon. I should stop worrying. I’m sure he is fine. Donny’s worried look from earlier in the kitchen crossed my mind. He was fine wasn’t he?
“Wow they are beautiful Bella.” Donny said next to me as though he was helping me out with what to say.
“Mhmm” Was all I managed to speak and I cursed mentally to myself from this. I was so nervous.
“Maybe you should go and help Bella get some more Dom?” He called over to the 8 year old boy who was pretending to be using a sword in a ferocious battle across a sea saw. He looked over and showed a face of annoyance before jumping down to run to us. Bell turned and smiled at him as they walked into the direction of the flowers.
“Only if she plays pirates with me when we are done!” His cute voice rang over to us and he charged with his invisible sword to a swarm of daisies. Donny laughed at this and I couldn’t stop myself from looking towards him. His eyes met mine and before I could look away his hands cupped my cheeks.
“Donny what are you doing?” I said through my lips as he held my face gently.
“You keep looking at me.” His hands dropped and found my cheeks blushing. What was I doing? Tanya. I needed to make sure Donny would be there for her and the possible baby.
“Sorry I’m just trying to figure you out I guess…”
I noticed his eyes deepen on me.
“Figure me out?” He said questioningly. I nodded and stared back at him. “And what do you mean by that?”
He leaned back against the bench and draped his arm along it. Even though we weren’t sitting I close I couldn’t stop myself from feeling like this was an intimate gesture and I fidgeted a little. I knew it wasn’t. But I was becoming so paranoid.
“Well…” I found myself replying before I could stop myself. “If you really did love me, why would you still do those things to me?” My voice wobbled slightly at the end and he looked away from me.
“If I could take everything I did to you back Sammi I wou-“
“But why would you take it all back? You still did them didn’t you?” I found myself saying this quietly so he could barely hear me but I knew he could.
“I’m a dick. There is no denying I have done things that would be high up on the list of all dick things a dick could do.”
“You said dick a lot in the sentence.” He laughed and my shoulder brushed his fingers from the arm lying on the bench. I froze but he then carried on speaking.
“I don’t have any excuses for them Samantha.” He said Samantha. Not Sammi. Not Sam. But my name. I couldn’t stop myself from feeling even more nervous from this.
“Apart from the fact that two people I loved would be killed. You and…” His eyes averted to Dom who was now ripping flowers in half as Bell carefully tried to make a neckless. “Dom.” He croaked out as though he was about to break down.
Quickly I distracted him from his hurt. “How-how could you love me though Donny? We didn’t really even know each other.” My eyes searched his for any answer when he looked at me for a few seconds before turning away again.
“I didn’t need to know about you. But I wanted to. And that’s how I knew I loved you. When you see someone and you know nothing about them it doesn’t draw you to them. The thing that does is the desire to want to know everything about them. To want to sit with them as they talk and blush about their past. Sammi I wanted that with you and I fucked your life up completely. I will never forgive myself for that until the day I die.”
“Don’t say that.” This words passed my lips as soon as the word ‘die’ fell from his. He wasn’t going to die. He wasn’t. He couldn’t Not after everything.
“I kissed you because I wanted to. Not because I was dying Sammi. Because I wanted to.”
“You wanted to because you were dying.” I corrected him and smiled but his face showed no sign of happiness from I just said.
“I would kiss you so hard right now if you weren’t with Harry. And I wasn’t falling in love with Tanya.” He’s falling in love with Tanya. Finally my nervous state was leaving and I was feeling happier.
“The other night at the party, you and Tanya on Harry’s bed.” I looked towards him and he ran his hand through his hair with frustration normally like Harry does. But my heart didn’t flutter when he did it. Harry. Harry. His name crossed my mind for another time. Then again did it ever stop? “You said I was next. Donny that-“
“Was so fucking disgusting and rude. No wonder Harry want’s to kill me for saying that about you. It just came out Sammi.” Suddenly he hunched himself over so I couldn’t even glimpse at him as his elbows rested on his knees. His hands pressed against his face from despair. “I’m sorry.” When he looked at me his eyes were glistening but he stepped away and ran to pick Dom up. He threw him over his shoulder and then started tickling him like crazy.
A giggle escaped my lips and I suddenly found myself thinking obscurely. Donny was like me in some ways.
No family but one. The one making us finding a reason to live. It had been such a shock to find out the Donny self harmed because of being forced to do the things he did to me. You would never expect someone who held themselves so strong to be completely shattered on the inside. You really can’t just look at someone and think you know them. Because even when I look at myself, I barely know what I still have left to show.
Dom had surrendered under the attack of pirate brother Donny and was now lying on the floor under the slide, whispering commands to his invisible crew. It was mostly just Bella. She ran up and down the play ground shouting “Ey Ey capin” over and over again. They were so beautiful. How I wish I was 7 again like Bella. Maybe everything would be easy again. But was it ever easy?
Donny slumped down next to me again and smiled.
“Kids are amazing.” He said and I found myself bringing up Tanya.
“Do you think you will ever want one?” I said curiously and his fingers brushed through his hair again. His eyes fixing upon me.
“If I ever have a child, if someone stays with me long enough for something like that. I would make sure that child has the best life that there can be. I don’t know if I would be a good parent. But I damn would try for them. No one deserves to go through what we have both gone through.”
“I-I think you would be an amazing dad Donny…” I looked towards him and he brushed his thumb lightly over my cheek. The one which Chris had sliced a knife along. I looked away and pushed his hand away from my face lightly. “If you love Tanya you need to promise me you won’t try anything with me Donny. She needs you. You don’t need me.”
“I need you Sammi. Don’t say that. I need you to get through everything. See the thing is-“ He stopped suddenly and hitched his breath up. “I don’t know if I will ever be able to stop loving you. Even if it’s a little I won’t be able to. I can’t.”
“Donny stop-“
“I’ve tried Sammi. I’ve tried to only like you. When I saw you with Harry this morning I tried to be happy but I couldn’t I just couldn’t-“ He moved in close to my and pressed his lips hard against mine. Quickly I moved away and stared at him with horror.
“You have Tanya. Don’t do that again Donny. Don’t hurt her.” Getting up I didn’t look at Donny again as I made my way over to Bella. She was sat on the swing trying to push it with her feet. I walked around behind her and wrapped my only hand around the metal chains holding it up.
“Would you like me push you Bell?”
She turned around smiling at me and then sat straight ready for the pushing to begin.
I pushed her on the swings until my arm started to ache but I carried on. Then Dom ran over and I had to push both of them at the same time. Increasing the ache in my arms.
Donny saw I was struggling and walked over taking Dom’s chains in his hands, I thanked him breathlessly and I noticed he was now keeping his distance. Did it feel strange to be upset by this?
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After we had been in the park for a while Donny and me had decided to take Bell and Dom back to the foster home. They had protested and Bell managed to push tears out of her eyes when she realised I was leaving her.
“Hey shh I’ll come back soon I promise.” I knelt down in front of her small frame and she pushed her bottom lip out making a sad face. My thumb found it’s way under her eyes wiping the tiny tears and I pulled her into a hug gently. Her arm’s wrapped around me and suddenly care workers had to help pry her from my hold. She wouldn’t let go.
I laughed as she giggled when they finally managed to pull her off me.
“You better come back tomorrow so we can watch Repunzal sis!” She said excitedly and I beamed at her beautiful features.
“Of course Bell.”
Me and Donny said our final goodbyes and walked out of the house behind us. I saw the same rainbow painting sign and I felt my heart twinge at the edges with sadness. It hurt my knowing I was leaving Bell again. But she had to know it was best for her stay there. Making our way over to the car Donny’s phone suddenly started ringing. And I watched him slide it out of his pocket. His eyes widened with worry from the name on the front and he quickly answered the call.
“Tanya.” He mouthed to me as I stood there helplessly doing nothing. I could hear frantic shouts on the other end, becoming more and more muffled as my heart thudded against my chest badly. Donny’s knuckles were becoming whiter as his strong hold on the phone restricted the blood flow from that area.
“Tanya- Tanya calm down. What happened?”
My heart was becoming heavier. Was Tanya hurt? Was she telling Donny about the baby? I could hear more crying and sobs on the other end of the phone. She was barely able to talk from crying so much and I felt my legs shaking.
I heard her faint voice sobbing in to the phone as I moved closer to Donny. My shoulder brushing his. Not because I wanted to, but because I urged to find out what was happening.
Then Tanya’s voice spoke louder-
“H-h-arry, he- I didn’t know what to-to –do. I tho-ught he wa- at band practice.” Another voice was picked up in the background when my knees almost caused me to collapse. Donny wrapping his arm around my waist holding me up.
I would recognise that voice anywhere. It was Niall. He must have taken the phone from the sobbing Tanya because he voice was much clearer, but was still wobbly.
“You need to get back now. Harry’s really badly hurt. He must have been a fight or something. Louis found him bleeding to death in an ally. We think he might have been…stabbed.”
My legs gave away completely and I grabbed onto Donny desperately trying not to faint whilst Harry might be dying. I needed to get to him. Now.
“Get a doctor around now. An ambulance or something-“ Niall cut him off as Donny held me to him whilst opening the car door. I was being so un helpful I could tell. My legs were completely numb and my heart was going crazy. Harry was hurt. Harry. Harry. The harry that hours ago I was kissing. That hours ago he was running down the hallway with my on his shoulder protectively. The Harry that made me.
“Ambulance is here. He’s being looked at now. He keeps calling for her Donny. I heard him. Halfway through a shout of pain he screamed for her.” Tears stung my eyes and my mind called out his name for me.
“We are coming now.” Donny said quickly and ended the call as if he didn’t want to hear any more.
I pulled the door open and climbed over to the drivers seat quickly. Ignoring how heavy every movement had become and how much I strained just to do my seat belt up. I was shaking drastically. Donny was suddenly next to me and had started to drive the car as fast as he was possibly allowed down the road.
I looked down at my hands as a few tears stung the edges of my water line. Quickly I pushed my hands in-between my legs hoping to stop Donny from seeing them shaking so much. His eyes moved quickly along the road as he sped up. Something I was thankful for. He wasn’t noticing my vulnerability.
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I found myself running up to Tanya’s house. An ambulance was in her huge driveway. The back doors looked to have been thrown open as things were grabbed in a hurry to save Harry. I pressed my hands to my eyes to stop the tears and I pushed the front door open. Everything was a blur. I could hear screaming, crying and serious voices as many people in green uniforms rushed around the room.
My legs felt weak beneath me and I almost crashed to the floor. Donny’s arms wrapped around my waist and he had to practically carry me into the living room. Tanya was slumped on the red sofa, her head in her hands as she sobbed loudly. Liam was next to her, his hand wrapped around her as she cried into him.
I had almost forgotten how close Tanya and Harry really were.
“Where is he?” My voice came out shaky and breathless. Everyone in the room looked towards me and all showed looks of sadness. As though they knew I would probably take what was to come the worst. Tanya looked up at me. She was wearing un ironed pyjamas which she probably threw on.
“Where is he?” This time I could barely manage to say it. My voice choked up and I felt a tear push it’s way out of my eye. Tanya stood up shakily wrapping her arm’s around me, she sobbed even harder this time and I held her to me tightly as tears leaked from my eyes.
I felt her gasp for air and Donny took her into his arms. I watched as he cradled her delicately, her crying slowing.
I looked around the huge room and Zayn was sat with his hands on his face. Not daring to look at anyone. I had to find Harry. I had to see him.
Without realising what I was doing I followed the trail of voices from outside the room and ran towards them. Niall called after me to stop but I didn’t. Harry.
Harry.
My legs moved hastily the sweater I was wearing too big and kept sliding down my free arm. I winced when I pulled the sling off of my other arm. I wasn’t weak. I was here for Harry. I said I would be. Throwing it to the floor I rounded a corner and saw a doctor emerging from a room. A room I had never been in before.
Stopping at the corner I looked to see him walking in a different direction and he stopped to talk to someone in green uniform. They both looked worried and horrified. Harry was alive. Harry was alive my mind kept saying over and over again. I could hear footsteps behind me and I seized my opportunity. Running passed the two people I pushed the door open and saw him lying on a some sort of white squishy table in the middle of the room. His eyes were closed. Black and purple bruises swirling around them and down his neck. Thick white plasters were on his shoulder, a small faint area of red trying to seep through the middle. I found myself gasping for air. A cut stuck out over his plump lips that I so desperately wished to kiss better. I could see his torso but his stomach was hidden by a white sheet. My heart screamed from the sight I was encountering.
His brown curls were more messier than normal and his dark eyelashes weren’t moving at all. I moved closer to him, I could see his hand resting open on its back next to him. Walking quickly I went to take it, to kiss him all over but my fingers only managed to brush his when I tried. Hands and arms reached to me, wrapping around me and pulling me out of the room.
I found myself screaming for him, kicking my legs. Tears ran down my cheeks and I recognised Donny’s voice in my ear trying to calm me. It wasn’t the same. I needed Harry’s.
“No! NO! Harry isn’t dead!”
“He’s not dead Sammi he’s alive. He is just sleeping.” I felt myself being dragged out of the room by more arms now as I kicked harder and tried to run to Harry again.
“She must get out of there now. He needs rest.” A stern voice sounded and my blurred vision caught it to be the doctor who had left the room before I had run in. The door was shut when my body was finally pulled out of the way and I sank onto the floor at Donny’s feet.
Only a small word could be heard from my lips as I realised I was saying it over and over again. A huge lump in my throat caused me to gasp now and again for air as the image of Harry lying there made me cry hysterically.
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Donny’s POV
Only one word could be heard from her lips. One that I doubt she even realised she was saying. Her body going into complete shock from what had happened.
A word which now her body knew as home.
Harry.

Notes

Thanks for reading! Pretty intense chapter at the end. But it's going to be a big part to the end of the story.
What happened to Harry?
Who tried to kill him?
Did he get into a fight?
Was he looking for someone...?

I'm so evil to you guys sorry ;)

Katie x

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