For Your Eyes Only

It was the day of Luke’s party after such a long week me and Jade were in desperate need of this party. Luke had recently changed it to his all-time favourite theme Pimp and Hoes. So as many times before the corsets were coming out and the knee-high boots were too. Me and Jade started a while a go to get ready curling our hair and finally done with our make-up it was time to get dress. Jade went for a blue corset with gold swirls over it, which had a skirt attached to the bottom with PVC boots. I had a black lace corset just coving everything just about with some black knee-high boots. We looked at each other and both shocked with how each other looked.
“Liam won’t be able to keep his hands off you”
“Thanks Niall and Harry will have a fight on their hands with you”
“We will see”
“Who are you favouring today?”
“To be honest the alcohol tonight I want to get laid but I want to have a great time with our mates we haven’t seen them for ages”
“True that”
“GIRLS COME ON YOU READY”
“YEAH”
We looked at each other and then left my room I knew they were all waiting by the door but I was too busy concentrating on the stairs and not falling over than to look at their expressions.
“Fuck you girls look hot”
“Thanks Louis so you all ready to go?”
They all just nodded Liam was fixed on Jade and wouldn’t even look at anyone else, Niall and Harry I felt them come up either side of me taking in the way I looked. No words were said they just bit their lip and shook their heads. Tonight was definitely going to be interesting. Liam, Jade, Louis were in one taxi and me, Harry, Niall and Zayn were in the other it’s not every day you find yourself in a taxi with three guys you slept with thankfully they didn’t make it awkward.
“Olivia you truly look amazing”
“Thanks Niall just wait though the other girl will look better trust me”
“Doubt it”
I blushed as all three of them said that at the same time, it didn’t take long until we were walking in to Luke’s house. The guys stayed near us for a long as they could before all the girls practically started hanging of them. Me and Jade didn’t mind this though as we knew it was going happen, to be fair this gave us time to actually hang out with our friends. Moving to the kitchen there was the birthday boy and our other best friend Mike.
“Jade Olivia fuck you look hot”
“Well you know we always pull out the stops when it’s a Pimp and Hoes party”
“True that”
We both hugged Luke and Mike instantly starting to down shots and play random stupid games. I managed to have a great catch up with them and we were partying hard. Jade was missing Liam so she went off to find him I tried to look for Niall and Harry but couldn’t see them anywhere Louis and Zayn were dancing but Niall and Harry gone. I shrugged it off and turned back to the shots and games; throughout the night I was offered drugs of all kind but kindly refused, it was too early for that. We went on out to the garden and I saw Liam an Jade sat on the bench we were playing around the pole and relay it was a hard game when you are wasted. Louis and Zayn joined In but there was still no sign of Niall and Harry, I shrugged it off once again and played the game swinging around the pole and running I fell a few times but got back up and won the race. My tits were hanging out but I managed to pop them back in before a picture could have been taken. I could feel sick rising up so I made my way through the house and up to the bathroom. I didn’t through up it was a false alarm I took a sip of water and then headed back down, as I reached the last step I looked down the dark corridor to my right and saw the two boys I have been looking for. It all made sense now though they were hiding they both had their tongues down these two birds throat. I felt like my heart had just been ripped out of my chest, before I could do anything I was pulled away by Zayn and Louis they both looked down at me with sorry faces. I took in a deep breath and plastered a smile on my face to show I wasn’t to bothered, walking away from them I needed something stronger than alcohol it was now drug time. I went up to Luke and he knew exactly what I wanted we were right by Jade and Liam as it was the quietest place to snort the white powder handed to me.
“Livy no don-“
It was too late I snorted it all up before Jade and Liam could knock it out of my way wiping my nose I looked at them and smiled.
“Now the party can really begin”
Walking back in to the house where the music was mainly playing I got in to the centre with Mike and Luke and party hard like the good old days. Bouncing up and down grinding slut dropping all the moves under the sun we were pulling out tonight. I had a number of guys grabbing me dancing with me but Luke and Mike always pulled me back to them. Suddenly I look around and I see Harry and Niall had appeared from the corridor and was standing next to each other with the girls draped over them. They didn’t catch my eye but I knew what was coming they wouldn’t be able to look away, Mike passed me some more powder for me to snort I did this and then he grabbed the microphone.
“SO LISTEN UP as It is Luke’s party I think it is only far he gets a very special lap dance and who better to give to him then the number one girl on his wish to fuck list. I can tell you now she is in this room…Olivia will you do the honour”
I couldn’t help but crack up and nod of course I was up for it, I always knew Luke had a thing for me but we were best friends it was never going to happen so a bit of teasing won’t do any harm. A chair was brought forward for him to sit on and this is when I saw all eyes were on me including Niall and Harrys. The music started and I was weightless I didn’t care I started dancing and teasing grinding all over him feeling him getting harder by the second. Wolf whistles were being made and guys were screaming for their very own lap dance. Jade was practically cracking up recording this apparently; Luke’s face was just priceless. I finished my dance and cheers erupted I walked through the crowd and went outside followed by mike who gave me another hit. I was on another planet I didn’t even know what was going on at this point.
“Livy you ok, look at me”
“Jadey how are you”
“How much have you had?”
“I have hardly drunk anything”
“No not drink how much have you snorted?”
“A fair bit”
“Why?”
“Alcohol wasn’t doing it for me anyway I must dance”
I moved from her grip and went to the dance floor being grabbed and tossed between everyone it wasn’t until a pair of hands grabbed me and pulled me away that brought me back to reality. I looked up to see it was Niall we were heading out of the front to wall that he forced me to sit on.
“Niall the party is in there babe”
“I know but you were being grabbed and tossed I needed to get you out of there”
“Really you noticed me”
“Of course why would you say that?”
“Because you seemed to be pretty occupied with a blonde earlier I was looking everywhere and you two were hiding”
“Oh you saw”
“Yes I fucking saw I know I shouldn’t get angry but I can’t fucking help it seeing you both happy with someone else fucked me over”
“I’m sorry Livy”
“Don’t call me that fuck I’m going back in”
“No were going home”
I looked around to see everyone including Harry standing there looking at me, I didn’t want to leave yet I was having a great time.
“You can go I’m staying”
Before anything Liam had picked me up over his shoulder and chucked me in the taxi, I tried to get out but it was too late we were heading home. It was only Liam and Jade in my taxi at the moment and they were just asking so many questions.
“Do you normally do drugs?”
“I used to bro I just missed it so many were going around just felt gooood”
“I thought you got over abusing drugs come on Livy”
We just pulled outside our house I jumped out of the car fuming with what Jade had just said.
“I’m not fucking abusing drugs who fucktard I was enjoying my night I had three hits I haven’t taken anything in over 3 years so as soon as I take it once I’m fucking abusing it fuck off”
“Livy I didn’t mean it like that”
“No you did I have done so well I just wanted something a bit more to help me through the night to actually enjoy myself”
“Let’s just get you to bed”
“Get the fuck of me Jade”
I walked away from her and pushed past everyone who was stunned to of seen me like this of course it was the drug making me this way. I went straight to the garden ripping my boots off I rested my feet in the pool. I knew someone had followed but I didn’t realise it would be both Harry and Niall they popped the feet in as well either side of me.
“Why did you need something to help you enjoy yourself?”
I couldn’t help but laugh what a stupid fucking question Harry, Niall knew and just kept his head down not saying anything.
“Because Harry I was looking everywhere for the both of you to come and have fun but instead I find you both with your tongues down other girls throats. Now I get it I shouldn’t be one to judge and say anything because I am seeing both of you but it felt like my heart was ripped out of chest seeing it”
Nothing was said it was complete silence, I wasn’t angry I was past that instead now I was in an emotional wreck stage. Standing up I started walking away but they both grabbed an arm stopping me from leaving.
“I’m sorry Olivia”
“Me to”
“No I am you shouldn’t have to say sorry I mean I get away with fucking both of you I never realised how much it must hurt you. Well only if you felt the way I did I guess it would hurt you the same”
“And how do you feel”
Niall asked but Harry was just as intrigued as he was neither of them knew how I felt but I knew now it was all about to come out I couldn’t hold it in no more. With the boost from the drug, it was actually easier to say even if I was crying and making no sense.
“I’ve fucking fallen for both of you Niall you make turn to jelly every time I see you look in to your eyes when we kiss I’m on top of the world and Harry every touch sends butterflies and tingles around my body when you walk kissing fireworks goes off you both helped me with my song Harry you got me to actually play and Niall you gave me the courage to start writing. I miss you both when you are not around, if either of you walks in to a room I feel instantly happy and relax my head is so completely fucked because I haven’t allowed myself to accept these feeling for 5 years and now I have exploded with emotions for two guys who are just as perfect as the other. How am I meant to pick out of too guys I have completely fallen for. But I now know you two are not interested Jade said alcohol speaks the truth I was the one chasing you two whilst you were chasing other birds I have fallen for you two way more than you have fallen for me”
With that I let my tears just fall and I started sobbing there expressions said it all they were speechless. I ran away as quickly I didn’t even realise but Jade, Liam, Louis and Zayn were all watching and listening in. Hopefully I will forget this ever happened in the morning, running up to my room I shut and locked the door and just cried myself to sleep feeling empty inside once again.

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