"Thanks Ashley."

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So ten minutes later I'm in my car again. I drive to Ashton's house. When I get out of the car, I feel nervous again. I don't know why, it just happens.
I knock and wait until someone opens.
Lauren stands in the door and looks at me. I hold my breath. She's so pretty.
"Hey Lauren." I say while I wave a little.
"Sierra, what are you doing here?"
"I'm here to help Ashton with.. You know.."
"Oh yeah, well, he's pretty busy at the moment..." She says awkwardly.
I'm confused until I hear Hunter moan his name. I open my mouth and close it after a few seconds. I nod my head.
"I hear." I almost laugh out loud.
"Yeah..."
"Does that... happen a lot?" I ask pointing upstairs.
She nods her head exhausted.
"I feel sorry for ya. Poor you." I giggle.
"I know right. Come in. I'll get ya something to drink."
I smile and we walk to the kitchen.
When we have our drinks we walk back to the living room and jump on the couch.
"So, how are you doing?" I ask.
"Oh, I'm fine. Nothing special happened through the years. You?"
"I'm doing fine. I have a business, dog, house. So, I'm happy."


We talk for a while until we hear someone come downstairs.
We hear it go to the kitchen and are immediately quiet. We're having our guesses who it could be. We're both giggling when Ashton walks in with only his boxers on.
We begin to laugh out loud when he sees me. He's amazed, shocked maybe. Anyway, his expression is priceless.
"Did you have fun?" I laugh.
"H- Hunter." Lauren imitates his moan.
We both begin to laugh all over again.
"I'm screwing up my makeup." She says between the laughs.
"Same." I reply.
Ashton still doesn't do anything but looking at me. I can see regret in his eyes.
"Have you ever tried soundproof walls?" I giggle.
"Or a house on top of the Mount Everest." Lauren joins me.
He sighs and shakes his head. We're both still giggling when he leaves.
"Hey, wait! You can't just leave. I'm here for you and you're letting your sister keeping me company!" I yell after him. He ignores me and I begin to giggle again.


"He's in a good mood." I say.
"I know."
"So, until your brother decides that I'm good enough to help, what are we gonna do?"
"Not much, I gotta work."
"Oh yeah, I totally forgot about that."
"Don't mind, but I gotta go if I don't wanna be late, so I'll see ya."
"Bye Lauren."


After she left I decide to check up on Ashton.
"Ashton! Is it save to come in?!" I yell when I knock on his door. I almost burst out in a laugh again, but I hold it in.
"Yeah!" I hear him yell.
I walk in and see that Ashton's still I his boxers and Hunter in her underwear.


I wait until she left and smirk.
"So, you were busy." I smirk.
"Don't start, I didn't know that you were coming." He points a finger at me.
"I feel sorry for Lauren and Harry tho. I mean, they need to live with that.." I go on.
"Sierra.." He warns.
"How do you do that? You know, when you've done it so loud. How could you face others?"
"Sierra, stop."
"And has Hunter no shame at all? I would be embarrassed."
He grabs my arms and I giggle.
"Stop."
"Or else what? What are you gonna do?" I laugh.
"You were louder." He whispers in my ear.
"No way." I push him back.
He nods his head.
"No way, I can't moan that loud, even if I wanted to."
He smirks and shrugs.
"Than you don't believe me."
I sigh.
"Leave it. What are we gonna do? Do I need to bury your blades again?"
"I think you being here is good enough."
"Well, I still want them."
I hold out my hand and he sighs.
He walks away and comes back a few seconds later with a few blades.
"Are those all of them?"
He shrugs.
"I want all of them." I say lifting my eyebrows.
"But what if you leave again?"
"I won't."
"Promise."
"I- I promise."
He walks away and grabs the last 2 blades.
"Thank you." I say while I look at the blades in my hand.
He nods his head and smiles a little.
"Thanks for helping me."
I shrug.
"It's nothing."
"It means more to me than you can imagine."
I smile. I put the blades in the bag that I brought with me.
"What? No rituals this time?" He giggles.
"No.." I smile.


"So, what do you wanna do next?" I ask.
"Well, we still need to get that ice cream.."
"Oh yeah, totally forgot about that."
"Do you wanna get it now....?"
"Sure."
We walk out of the door and take the route through the park. When we're there we take our ice cream and sit in the chairs that stand outside.
"This is so bad. I didn't see you in 5 years and I have nothing to talk about." He complains.
"Well, what would you do if it is like 5 years ago?"
He looks at me before answering.
"Uhh, I would play with your fingers all the time,... I would make jokes about how sexy you look eating your ice cream, ... I would try to distract you, I would.. I would try to kiss you every three seconds so you could never finish you ice cream and we would sit here for a long time..."
"Yeah, that's not something we should do now.. What would you talk about?"
"You would brag about Madison." He laughs.
"No, I mean if we were still dating now."
"I would talk about how much I was going to miss you on tour or tell you stories about the tour."
I nod my head.
"Tell me."



So, the good thing is that we had something to talk about...
The bad thing is that I see how happy he is while I'm missing him more and more.


I sigh when we're back in his room.
"Are you alright?" He asks while he sits next to me on the bed.
"I'm fine." I smile.
"I don't think you are." He says softly.
"Than you're thinking wrong."
"No, I'm not. Tell me, what's wrong?"
"Nothing."
"We're friends right? Friends tell each other everything." He playfully pushes me softly with his shoulder.
I look his way and smile. He smiles too.
Again, my eyes flicker to his lips. It was only just a second, but he still notice.
He doesn't says anything but leans in slowly.
I do the same but stop at the last moment. We sitting still for a moment before I get up.
"I gotta go." I mumble.
I walk to my car and drive away.


I look at the time and see it's 18:00.
I sigh and go to the office.


When Ashley sees me she grabs my arm and leads me to her office. She pushes me down onto a chair and grabs tissues.


"Tell me." She says while she sits in the chair next to me.
I sigh and look at my hands in my lap.
"I don't know it anymore." I whisper while I turn my eyes to her and shake my head hopelessly.
"What do you don't know?"
"How I feel about him."
"Ashton?"
I nod my head.
"He has a girlfriend, I'm having a boyfriend. We can't, I can't..." I sigh.
"But you want to..?"
"I don't know! That's the whole problem. I don't know if I feel the same for him. What if I don't?"
"What if you do?" She asks softly.
"He has a girlfriend."
"And you have Bryan."
I nod my head.
"I don't know which one is friendship and which one is love." Tears are welling up.
"I was over him. I was done with him. I had build up a new life. I was happy and then he comes up again. Just when I'm finally happy again, he ruins it." I sigh again.
"With what does he ruin it Sierra? With what could he possibly ruin it?"
"With being himself..."

Notes

The next update will be after the weekend❤️