Torn

CALUM'S POINT OF VIEW

I got hardly any sleep last night. I'm guessing like, an hour? Ugh. Instead of trying to sleep and just skipping school, I get up and lazily walk into the bathroom to take a shower. When I'm done, I just run a hand through my hair, and straighten it out a little in the front. I get dressed in my black skinny jeans (as usual) and nirvana shirt. I sulk into the living room, and my sister looks at me funny.

"What." I glare, opening the fridge to get out milk.

"You look like shit." She tries not to laugh. I huff.

"Thanks, Mali. Means a lot."

"Your welcome. But seriously, what's going on with you?" She takes a bite of her oatmeal. I pour cereal into a white bowl.

"Nothing."

"Calum, come on." She says seriously. I sigh, and turn to her, leaning on the counter.

"Things are... Changing."

"In a good way, or a bad way?" She asks. She probably thinks I got expelled again or something.

"I don't know." I shrug, and turn back to my cereal. I put a spoon in the bowl and pour the milk, but I don't bother sitting next to her. She'll just be more nosy.

It's silent for a little while, until she says the words I've been thinking all night: "Is this about Callie?"

I bite my lip.

"What about Sara?"

"I don't know."

"Well are you going to break up with her? You can't just go back and forth with those too, you have to make a decision."

"I know."

"So? What're you going to do?" She presses. I sigh, and walk back to my room. How am I supposed to answer those questions for her when I can't even answer them myself? I grab my binder and walk out to my car. I don't drive though.

Yesterday, I did want to kiss Callie. Really bad. What am I doing?! Am I self sabotaging or something?! Sara is literally amazing, why would I want to hurt her?

Why would you want to hurt CALLIE?

I don't.

Really? Because a little over a year ago, you seemed to have no problem doing so.

She said she's over it.

We both know that's a lie.

We? Who are you, anyway?

I'm your mind voice, idiot. Speaking of idiot, you have an algebra test in a few days.

I huff, and drive to school. Usually, I'd blast my music so loud everyone I drove by could hear it as if they were wearing their own headphones, but today I just drive in silence.

When I get to school, I'm immediately hit with the fact that, everything changed yesterday. Everything.

Luke and Callie tried having sex. Callie is probably not able to because of ME, apparently Morgan and Mike are going to try and actually date each other. Ugh.

I get out of my car, and Sara immediately runs over to me.

"Hi." She smiles sweetly at me, and then kisses me.

"Hey." I smile. I see Callie over with everyone else, looking at me, but when she realizes I can see her she looks away. We walk over to everyone else, but Ashton isn't there. "Uh, where's Ash?" I ask.

"He's sick." Jess is sitting on the concrete, sulking.

"Oh." I say. Michael has his arm around Morgan, who seems very happy about that. Luke also isn't there. "And Luke?"

"He's with Ashton." Callie says, but doesn't look at me.

"Oh. Okay." She glances at me like she knows I'm happy about it, and softly sighs.

"I'm gonna go to class now." She mutters, and walks into the school.

"Uh, yeah, and we have to go do.. Stuff." Morgan says, taking Michael's hand.

"We all know what you're going to do, no need to say it like it's a secret." Jess rolls her eyes, still sad on the floor. Michael grins, and walks away with Morgan. "I think I'm going to go check on Ashy." Jess says. Sara tries holding in her laugh, and I raise an eyebrow.

"Ashy?" I ask.

"Yeah." Jess says seriously and glares at me. She stands up, and walks off campus.

"Oookay." I laugh.

"Can I ask you something?" Sara asks, looking up at me. Uh oh.

"Er, yeah of course." Uh oh.

"Is something like... Going on with you and Callie?" She plays with her sleeve.

"Um... No." Oops.

"Okay. Just making sure." She smiles like she won something and kisses me.

JESS'S POINT OF VIEW

When Ashton falls asleep, I turn to Luke. "So.. Can we talk?"

"I guess." We walk into the hallway.

"I think Calum and Callie might've kissed." I cross my arms. Luke just stares at me. "Now I don't know for SURE, but Callie does have the winning streak of being the biggest player in the group.. I just thought you should know." He continues to stare at me, both anger and hurt written all over his face. He storms out of the house, and I walk back to Ashton.

"Did you do something bad?" He mumbles. I nod.

"Yeah, probably."

CALLIE'S POINT OF VIEW

I'm standing at my locker, when I see Calum get punched in the face. By Luke. You have got to be kidding me.

"Stay the fuck away from her!" I hear Luke yell. God this is one of those moments where I want to climb in my locker and never come out. Everyone in the hallway looks at me. Once Calum gets slammed against a wall, I know this isn't going to end well for Luke. Calum never feels intimidated, and if he does, he'll probably fuck up someone's face. Before he can actually do any real damage to Luke, I step in front of him.

"MOVE, Callie." Calum says, still staring at Luke.

"No." I cross my arms. "Don't punch him."

"He punched ME FIRST." He protests, looking at me with fire in his eyes.

"I know. But don't punch him."

"He deserves it." He glares. I don't confirm or deny that, I just stay standing there. "Callie, move." He says forcefully.

"If you do anything to Luke, I'll never speak to you again." I say. He looks from me to Luke. He huffs, jaw clenched, and walks away. I already know Luke is grinning like he accomplished something behind me. I turn around to face him, and push him, "And what the FUCK are you doing, punching Calum?!" I yell, not caring how many eyes are on me.

"Did he kiss you?!" He yells, pointing down the hallway.

I look at him, hesitantly, "No." I say strongly.

"Well did you kiss him?!" I can see Sara looking at me worried.

"No, Luke!" Jess must've told him something. Classic Jess. "Why the hell don't you trust me?"

"Because you still have feelings for him!" He yells. I freeze.

"What?"

"I'm not STUPID, Callie! I notice the little things he does for you, I notice how you look at him, I can see how painfully obvious it is that you want him back!" I bite my lip. Sara is looking at me for confirmation, but I try to pretend I can't see her.

"I don't- I don't want him back." I say.

"Well, I think you do. EVERYONE, thinks you do. And I'm not going to be with someone I can't even trust." He walks away. I bite my lip to stop tears. You do not cry. You are Callie, you do not cry.

I run outside, and side on a curb and cry, just so no one can see me.

Notes

Next chapter will just pick up on what is happening now.