Lucy's P.O.V

It was hard to wrap my head around that it was really him sitting in the chair and leaned on my bed. A beam of light had found its way in to the room lighting up his brown locks. He looked so beautiful just by laying here. I noticed he had woken up and when he suddenly moved I felt his hand in mine. I lightly squeezed my hand against his as he sat up straight. He looked up at me and our eyes met for the first time in two months. His eyes showed fear, sadness and fright and when he gave me a weak smile my heart skipped a beat. How can you still be so in love. I whispered hi to him, and tears started to stream down his face. I sat up in the bed, only to start cry myself. I let out a loud sniffle and opened my arms inviting him in for a hug, he stood up and sat down next to me on the bed wrapping his arms around me. We held each other hard while crying. ''I'm sorry, I'm sorry for everything. I should have given you a chance to do better. I shouldn't have left you when you needed me the most'' he said in one breath, ''you're not the one who should apologize, I am. I wasn't the one you deserved anymore. I was selfish, and I'm sorry for that. You have no idea how much I hate myself'' I stroke away tears from his cheeks ''don't say that, Luce. Don't say that you hate yourself. Maybe we both messed up, but what's done is done, we can't change it now'' I leaned my head against his chest letting out my last tears. He was laying next to me on the hospital bed, gently stroking my arm. It was a comfortable silence and I just felt home laying in his arms. ''What happened?'' he was talking about the accident ''my vision went blurry from crying...a car showed up from nowhere...then my car flipped'' he squeezed my hand ''I really thought I was going to die'' I whispered ''when I called Tess I was upside down and I....just kept praying that I could tell you guys how much you mean to me'' I let out a weak laugh, making him frown a bit ''I don't even believe in a god, and there I was praying'' he let out a sigh and held me tighter. I didn't notice earlier but my body felt pretty sore. ''It kind of hurts here, can you look?'' I pointed at my thigh and he lifted up the blanket and gasped. ''What?'' he was making me freak out, ''sorry I didn't mean to scare you, it's just...you have a huge bruise here'' the tip of his finger stroke lightly over it making me frown in pain. ''Does it hurt?'' he whispered and let go of the blanket ''yeah''.

Harry's P.O.V

I really wanted to ask how she was doing since the pictures came out, but I didn't want to make her more upset. On the other hand I didn't want her to think that I didn't care about her feelings regarding this. I took a deep breath, ''maybe we should talk about the picture thing...I don't really know what to say though..'' I began but she cut me off ''honestly I rather not. It's out there and it sucks, but it's there and there's nothing we can do about it'' she talked in to my chest. ''I'm sorry'' I whispered ''it's not your fault, baby'' she became quiet. My heart skipped a beat when she had called me baby, but I saw on her face that she regretted it. ''I'm sorry..I...'' she began but I hushed her ''it's okay. Try get some rest''.

Lucy had been sleeping in my arms for a couple of hours when Tess walked in. The door opening made Lucy jump, ''hey it's okay'' I calmed her and she nodded as she faced Tess. Tess rushed over and wrapped her arms around Lucy who was now sitting up. ''Don't you dare..'' her voice cracked ''don't you dare scare me like that again'' she finished and wiped away a tear from her eye. This was the first time I had seen Tess cry, even when we were little she was the bad ass of the group. ''So I brought candy, magazines and clothes. Damn those nurses almost stopped me with the candy, I had to sneak it pass them'' Tess joked to bring up the mood in the room, making Lucy laugh. Tess sat down at the end of the bed moving my feet so she could fit. ''I wanna know what's going on in your life, I haven't seen you in a while'' Lucy said to Tess. It was a lot Lucy had missed, but I'm sure within the second Tess would fill her in. ''Okay so first of all, Liam got a new girlfriend - Sophia, she's super nice'' she began ''aw, I really liked Danielle though'' Lucy smiled ''Danielle is old news, anyways Zayn and Perrie got engaged, I know wooow'' Lucy gasped in shock ''Louis and Eleanor are the same, El says she misses you bt dubs, and Niall and I are finally dating'' she saved the best for last ''No way, are you kidding me?'' Lucy yelled clapping her hands. ''How long did it take until you got your crap together? A year?'' I teased and received a slap on my leg, from both of the girls.

Lucy's P.O.V


A week had gone by since the accident and I was back home. I had recovered, psychically. Mentally, not so much. My car though was wrecked. The doctors claimed I had guardian angels watching over me, but I don't really know if I believe that. Harry had to be back on tour so he had left but both Tess and Tyler were here with me. My parents had come and visit me but couldn't stay long because of work. And besides, I was fine. Kind of. I decided to quit my job as a model, I guess I'm too proud to be fired but I'm only human. Harry and I never spoke about us when he were here, and it hurt not to know where we stand. I was still completely head over heels in love with him, but can you just go back in to a relationship after that time apart? Maybe he didn't even want me back. Maybe he only wanted to be my friend, if even that. The worst thing is, just to have him back in my life I would have been 'okay' with being just friends.


''Hey'' I said to the pixelated version of Harry on the computer, when I saw he was online on Skype I decided to call him. ''Hey, how are you feeling?'' he smiled and his dimples showed, making my heart ache that he wasn't really mine anymore. I needed to know where we stand. ''To be honest, I don't know..'' I sighed ''why what's wrong?'' he frowned, ''uh...I don't really know how to say this but...shit this is hard. I guess I..I need to know where we stand. Like give it to me straight'' he lifted his eyebrows in surprise, he didn't expect that question. He let out a sigh ''I think you and me both really hurt each other -'' he began, my heart was beating so hard ''I don't know about you but...I think I need some time..to heal I guess'' I nodded giving him a weak smile. Even though it felt like he ripped out my heart and stepped on it.

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