Just Friends
Chapter 31 - I'm broken, do you hear me?
Lucy's P.O.V
The last two months I've been in my own bubble. After I had thrown out Harry of my flat he had gone back to tour with Tess. Leaving me alone to die. At least it felt like I did. Tyler has been here for me, every single day. And I couldn't be more grateful, but he wasn't Harry. In the weekdays I'd drown myself in work and on the weekends I would go out clubbing with Cara. I know I said I was going to stop, but I just don't care anymore. At least I'm not getting wasted every time I go out, I actually haven't been drunk since I got robbed. I usually drink red bull when I'm out, and I haven't touched the drugs since that one time that caused Harry to make his choice about us. I know why he dumped me, I'm not stupid, but I couldn't help but still being completely in love with him. I know how selfish that sounds. But I guess that's just who I am these days, selfish and a liar. How do you survive a heart break? You don't. At least I don't. I wish I could change everything that happened, if I only could make a deal with god. But I can't. I've lost my boyfriend. I've lost my best friend. And I don't know how to keep...breathing. Every breath hurts. I'm broken. How can you miss someone that much it physically hurts?
I was laying in bed when my phone rang, without looking who it was I answered ''hello?'' ''hey, it's Cara. Shit I don't know how to tell you this but uhm, have you seen TMZ today?'' what is she talking about ''no?'' I heard her take a deep breath ''so, someone hacked in to Harry's phone and literally his whole iCloud account is available for anyone to download'' ''oh, what does that mean?'' and what has that to do me ''Lucy the pictures you sent to Harry is out on the internet'' no, no, no this is not happening, I sat up i my bed as I felt my heart start raising ''are you saying private pictures of me is...out there?'' I could barely breathe ''yes, Harry has called to a press conference about it in an hour''. I hung up the phone, this can't be happening.
''Thank you all for being here today'' Harry started the press conference, the other boys were sitting next to him for support. Like he needed any, it wasn't his fucking 'nudes' that was out in the open. ''I know all of you know that my iCloud account has today been hacked in to. The hacker unfortunately decided to spread the content for the world to see. There was some private pictures of my uhm..Lucy. It's obviously a violation of privacy to have your private life out in the open like this. All I'm asking is for you not to look at or spread these pictures, out of respect. Legal precautions will be made. That's all, I will answer a few questions'' everyone in the room raised their hands and Harry pointed at a woman, ''how is Lucy in a time like this? It must be devastating?'' like he knows, he hasn't bothered to call me. ''Obviously this is a tough time for everyone involved'' Harry said as it were something someone else had told him to say, ''Harry, you said quoting 'my uhm Lucy', what do you mean by that? Are you no longer in a relationship?'' all the boys looked surprised by the question and Harry looked to his side, probably where the management were standing. ''Uh no, we are no longer together. That's all, thank you for coming out here today'' all the boys stood up and left the room. I didn't even notice I was crying until a tear dripped on my hand. I need to get out of here. I quickly grabbed my keys and went out to my car. I was driving in circles through London, I didn't know where I was going. My private pictures is on the internet. I have never felt this ashamed in my life. My career is probably over too. Who would want to represent a slut like me? My view got blurry from all the tears and I tried to focus on the road. Suddenly a bright light showed up beside me and I turned my head. Then everything went black.
Tess' P.O.V
I had just brought back some coffee to a couple from the team when I sat down backstage on a couch next to Harry. The boys had just finished tonight's concert and we were soon going back to the hotel, Harry was probably exhausted after both the press conference and the concert tonight. I glanced at Harry, the boy I've known since kindergarten and I couldn't for life recognize his behavior these last few months. Since he broke up with Lucy he had put on a facade that he had on stage, on interviews and so on. I figured they ended things on a bad note since non of them ever wanted to talk about it. Lucy had even forbidden me to say his name. I had so many times tried to comfort Harry as he had walked away from everyone to shed a tear or two. But I never got anything out of him. I had probably only spoken to Lucy three times since we went to her flat, and she sounded okay. I felt bad I hadn't spoken to her about the pictures yet, but I was going to. I just didn't know what to say.
My phone rang, getting me away from my thinking. I grabbed my phone to see who it was 'Lucy' the screen showed. I pressed answer. ''Hey'' I said, purposely not mentioning her name in front of Harry. ''Tess?'' I sat up straight when I heard her voice, something was wrong. ''Yeah?'' I felt a lump in my throat. She started to cry loud in the phone. ''There's been an accident, I crashed the car'' I could tell she was struggling to breathe and I didn't know if it was because of her crying or something else, ''what? Are you okay?'' I stood up and my loud voice got the boys to turn to me. My heart was beating so fast and I put my free hand on my pounding chest. ''No. I don't think so, the ambulance is on its way'' she spoke quiet. Tears started to stream down my face and both Harry and Niall stood up. ''I'm tired, Tess'' no, no what if she hit her head? She can't fall asleep. She needs to stay awake. ''Lucy, no, stay awake'' I cried loud and looked at Harry, whos face changed when I mentioned her name. ''What's going on?'' he asked but I couldn't speak. ''Tess, I love you, and my parents. Tell Niall hes the best, and Harry...tell him I'm sorry and that I love him'' my heart almost stopped ''no, stop it. Why are you telling me those things?'' the other end suddenly sounded quiet. ''Lucy? Lucy come on, hello? Answer me, you need to stay awake? Lucy'' I was screaming at this point. Niall had grabbed me when I had started to scream. ''Give me another phone'' I said but the boys froze ''I need a phone'' I screamed and Harry gave me his, ''keep talking to her'' I gave Harry my phone. I grabbed my purse on the floor and dialed the airports number. ''Tess?'' Niall grabbed my face ''what is going on?'' I was breathing irregularly ''Lucy's been in a car accident. I need to fly home'' I was just staring in front of me as I waited for someone to pick up the phone. ''Hi, I need a plain ticket to London, first available flight'' I told the woman on the other end ''I'm coming with you'' Harry stated and the other boys protested, ''It's Lucy'' he gave them a stare that shut them up. ''Yeah, I need two tickets. No?'' I got annoyed ''I don't give a shit if we have to stand on the fucking plane, we need to fly to London tonight'' I screamed at the woman when she told me there wasn't any available tickets. Harry grabbed the phone from me and when he hung up he had got out tickets. ''We need to leave right now, the plan leaves in 45 minutes'' he said clearly stressed. He informed some of the boys' bodyguards who were fixing a car that would take us to the airport and then to the hospital. I was extremely thankful we were in Europe, god knows how long it would take if we still had been in Australia.
It was cold in the waiting room at the emergency room. Harry hadn't made a sound since we left the other boys three hours ago. The flight here had felt like ten years. I was listed as Lucy's 'emergency contact' so right after we had landed a doctor had called to inform me what had happened. I already knew, but it was nice to hear from a doctor. I can't even imagine what Lucy must have been feeling when she was alone in that car. She must have thought she was going to die since she wanted everyone know she loved them. ''Do you need anything, some tea maybe?'' a nurse asked me, I shook my head and looked over at Harry who was probably sleeping. He was sitting bent over with his hands covering his face. I leaned back in the chair I was sitting in, deciding to get some sleep. ''Excuse me?'' a male voice said. I sat up straight and pushed Harry to wake him up. He sat up, ''are you relatives to Lucy Wellington?'' the doctor asked us. Well kind of, I nodded ''she hasn't woken up yet, you can see her, but only a short visit. She needs to rest'' I stood up ''one more thing, she is pretty roughed up in her face. Other then that, she's fine. She really had god looking out for her tonight'' bullshit, no god had done this. He walked away and I was just about to follow him when I saw Harry was just sitting there, ''are you coming?'' ''I can't'' he whispered ''please'' I begged, I did not want to go in there by myself. I reached out for his hand, doubting he took it and stood up. We followed the doctor through the long halls of the hospital and finally stopped at a door. She carefully opened the door ''if you have any questions I'm just down the hall'' and just like that she was gone. I walked in the room first. A gasp sounded from my lips as I saw her. She looked like someone had beat her up and her face was swollen. It scared the crap out of me to see her like this. I don't want to be here. I can't be here. I turned around to Harry who was still standing in the doorway, ''They...they cut off her clothes before. She needs clothes when she wakes up, I need to go and get them'' I said and pushed him away so I could walk out.
Harry's P.O.V
Surprised I watched Tess disappear down the hall and then I walked in and closed the door behind me. There was a chair right next to the door and I dragged it across the room and sat down next to her bed. I sat down my tired body on the chair and leaned on the bed. I grabbed her cold hand and held it hard, ''I'm sorry'' I whispered ''I'm sorry I haven't been there for you, even after we broke up. I'm sorry I didn't give you a chance to change. I love you so, so much Luce'' tears started to stream down my face. I was relieved she was okay but the fright hadn't left my body. When Tess got that call and I understood it was about Lucy I was sure my heart stopped beating for a second. I realized I wouldn't want to live in a world without her.
The sun was shining through the curtains in the little room at the hospital. I must have fallen asleep. I sat up in the chair and looked down at my hand that was still holding hers when I felt a light squeeze from her hand. I looked up just to meet her beautiful clear blue eyes. ''Hi'' she whispered.
The last two months I've been in my own bubble. After I had thrown out Harry of my flat he had gone back to tour with Tess. Leaving me alone to die. At least it felt like I did. Tyler has been here for me, every single day. And I couldn't be more grateful, but he wasn't Harry. In the weekdays I'd drown myself in work and on the weekends I would go out clubbing with Cara. I know I said I was going to stop, but I just don't care anymore. At least I'm not getting wasted every time I go out, I actually haven't been drunk since I got robbed. I usually drink red bull when I'm out, and I haven't touched the drugs since that one time that caused Harry to make his choice about us. I know why he dumped me, I'm not stupid, but I couldn't help but still being completely in love with him. I know how selfish that sounds. But I guess that's just who I am these days, selfish and a liar. How do you survive a heart break? You don't. At least I don't. I wish I could change everything that happened, if I only could make a deal with god. But I can't. I've lost my boyfriend. I've lost my best friend. And I don't know how to keep...breathing. Every breath hurts. I'm broken. How can you miss someone that much it physically hurts?
I was laying in bed when my phone rang, without looking who it was I answered ''hello?'' ''hey, it's Cara. Shit I don't know how to tell you this but uhm, have you seen TMZ today?'' what is she talking about ''no?'' I heard her take a deep breath ''so, someone hacked in to Harry's phone and literally his whole iCloud account is available for anyone to download'' ''oh, what does that mean?'' and what has that to do me ''Lucy the pictures you sent to Harry is out on the internet'' no, no, no this is not happening, I sat up i my bed as I felt my heart start raising ''are you saying private pictures of me is...out there?'' I could barely breathe ''yes, Harry has called to a press conference about it in an hour''. I hung up the phone, this can't be happening.
''Thank you all for being here today'' Harry started the press conference, the other boys were sitting next to him for support. Like he needed any, it wasn't his fucking 'nudes' that was out in the open. ''I know all of you know that my iCloud account has today been hacked in to. The hacker unfortunately decided to spread the content for the world to see. There was some private pictures of my uhm..Lucy. It's obviously a violation of privacy to have your private life out in the open like this. All I'm asking is for you not to look at or spread these pictures, out of respect. Legal precautions will be made. That's all, I will answer a few questions'' everyone in the room raised their hands and Harry pointed at a woman, ''how is Lucy in a time like this? It must be devastating?'' like he knows, he hasn't bothered to call me. ''Obviously this is a tough time for everyone involved'' Harry said as it were something someone else had told him to say, ''Harry, you said quoting 'my uhm Lucy', what do you mean by that? Are you no longer in a relationship?'' all the boys looked surprised by the question and Harry looked to his side, probably where the management were standing. ''Uh no, we are no longer together. That's all, thank you for coming out here today'' all the boys stood up and left the room. I didn't even notice I was crying until a tear dripped on my hand. I need to get out of here. I quickly grabbed my keys and went out to my car. I was driving in circles through London, I didn't know where I was going. My private pictures is on the internet. I have never felt this ashamed in my life. My career is probably over too. Who would want to represent a slut like me? My view got blurry from all the tears and I tried to focus on the road. Suddenly a bright light showed up beside me and I turned my head. Then everything went black.
Tess' P.O.V
I had just brought back some coffee to a couple from the team when I sat down backstage on a couch next to Harry. The boys had just finished tonight's concert and we were soon going back to the hotel, Harry was probably exhausted after both the press conference and the concert tonight. I glanced at Harry, the boy I've known since kindergarten and I couldn't for life recognize his behavior these last few months. Since he broke up with Lucy he had put on a facade that he had on stage, on interviews and so on. I figured they ended things on a bad note since non of them ever wanted to talk about it. Lucy had even forbidden me to say his name. I had so many times tried to comfort Harry as he had walked away from everyone to shed a tear or two. But I never got anything out of him. I had probably only spoken to Lucy three times since we went to her flat, and she sounded okay. I felt bad I hadn't spoken to her about the pictures yet, but I was going to. I just didn't know what to say.
My phone rang, getting me away from my thinking. I grabbed my phone to see who it was 'Lucy' the screen showed. I pressed answer. ''Hey'' I said, purposely not mentioning her name in front of Harry. ''Tess?'' I sat up straight when I heard her voice, something was wrong. ''Yeah?'' I felt a lump in my throat. She started to cry loud in the phone. ''There's been an accident, I crashed the car'' I could tell she was struggling to breathe and I didn't know if it was because of her crying or something else, ''what? Are you okay?'' I stood up and my loud voice got the boys to turn to me. My heart was beating so fast and I put my free hand on my pounding chest. ''No. I don't think so, the ambulance is on its way'' she spoke quiet. Tears started to stream down my face and both Harry and Niall stood up. ''I'm tired, Tess'' no, no what if she hit her head? She can't fall asleep. She needs to stay awake. ''Lucy, no, stay awake'' I cried loud and looked at Harry, whos face changed when I mentioned her name. ''What's going on?'' he asked but I couldn't speak. ''Tess, I love you, and my parents. Tell Niall hes the best, and Harry...tell him I'm sorry and that I love him'' my heart almost stopped ''no, stop it. Why are you telling me those things?'' the other end suddenly sounded quiet. ''Lucy? Lucy come on, hello? Answer me, you need to stay awake? Lucy'' I was screaming at this point. Niall had grabbed me when I had started to scream. ''Give me another phone'' I said but the boys froze ''I need a phone'' I screamed and Harry gave me his, ''keep talking to her'' I gave Harry my phone. I grabbed my purse on the floor and dialed the airports number. ''Tess?'' Niall grabbed my face ''what is going on?'' I was breathing irregularly ''Lucy's been in a car accident. I need to fly home'' I was just staring in front of me as I waited for someone to pick up the phone. ''Hi, I need a plain ticket to London, first available flight'' I told the woman on the other end ''I'm coming with you'' Harry stated and the other boys protested, ''It's Lucy'' he gave them a stare that shut them up. ''Yeah, I need two tickets. No?'' I got annoyed ''I don't give a shit if we have to stand on the fucking plane, we need to fly to London tonight'' I screamed at the woman when she told me there wasn't any available tickets. Harry grabbed the phone from me and when he hung up he had got out tickets. ''We need to leave right now, the plan leaves in 45 minutes'' he said clearly stressed. He informed some of the boys' bodyguards who were fixing a car that would take us to the airport and then to the hospital. I was extremely thankful we were in Europe, god knows how long it would take if we still had been in Australia.
It was cold in the waiting room at the emergency room. Harry hadn't made a sound since we left the other boys three hours ago. The flight here had felt like ten years. I was listed as Lucy's 'emergency contact' so right after we had landed a doctor had called to inform me what had happened. I already knew, but it was nice to hear from a doctor. I can't even imagine what Lucy must have been feeling when she was alone in that car. She must have thought she was going to die since she wanted everyone know she loved them. ''Do you need anything, some tea maybe?'' a nurse asked me, I shook my head and looked over at Harry who was probably sleeping. He was sitting bent over with his hands covering his face. I leaned back in the chair I was sitting in, deciding to get some sleep. ''Excuse me?'' a male voice said. I sat up straight and pushed Harry to wake him up. He sat up, ''are you relatives to Lucy Wellington?'' the doctor asked us. Well kind of, I nodded ''she hasn't woken up yet, you can see her, but only a short visit. She needs to rest'' I stood up ''one more thing, she is pretty roughed up in her face. Other then that, she's fine. She really had god looking out for her tonight'' bullshit, no god had done this. He walked away and I was just about to follow him when I saw Harry was just sitting there, ''are you coming?'' ''I can't'' he whispered ''please'' I begged, I did not want to go in there by myself. I reached out for his hand, doubting he took it and stood up. We followed the doctor through the long halls of the hospital and finally stopped at a door. She carefully opened the door ''if you have any questions I'm just down the hall'' and just like that she was gone. I walked in the room first. A gasp sounded from my lips as I saw her. She looked like someone had beat her up and her face was swollen. It scared the crap out of me to see her like this. I don't want to be here. I can't be here. I turned around to Harry who was still standing in the doorway, ''They...they cut off her clothes before. She needs clothes when she wakes up, I need to go and get them'' I said and pushed him away so I could walk out.
Harry's P.O.V
Surprised I watched Tess disappear down the hall and then I walked in and closed the door behind me. There was a chair right next to the door and I dragged it across the room and sat down next to her bed. I sat down my tired body on the chair and leaned on the bed. I grabbed her cold hand and held it hard, ''I'm sorry'' I whispered ''I'm sorry I haven't been there for you, even after we broke up. I'm sorry I didn't give you a chance to change. I love you so, so much Luce'' tears started to stream down my face. I was relieved she was okay but the fright hadn't left my body. When Tess got that call and I understood it was about Lucy I was sure my heart stopped beating for a second. I realized I wouldn't want to live in a world without her.
The sun was shining through the curtains in the little room at the hospital. I must have fallen asleep. I sat up in the chair and looked down at my hand that was still holding hers when I felt a light squeeze from her hand. I looked up just to meet her beautiful clear blue eyes. ''Hi'' she whispered.
Notes
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