Whiskey Lullaby UNDER EDITING!!

‘’Just do it.. it won’t be a burden.’’ I mumble to myself as I stare at Harry’s contact on my phone. C’mon, just press call and it will all be over soon. But what if he’s talking or eating or whatever. Oh well, just do it. Fine.. I guess I will.

I hit Call and I wait for what seems like forever, even though it wasn’t. I paced around in the kitchen, around and around the island, just bored to death. But finally, he answered with that sexy raspy voice I wished he knew I loved so much.

‘’Hello?’’ He says. ‘’Hey..’’ I mumble out. ‘’Hey. What’s up?’’ He asks casually. ‘’Um.. nothing.. I’m just in your kitchen. You don’t mind if I cook something, do you?’’ I ask curiously. ‘’Nah, its fine. As long as you make me a cake.’’ He laughs a little, I figure it was a joke.

‘’I will.. what kind?’’ I laugh back. ‘’You know my favorite. And I’m serious.. it better me on my kitchen table when I come home.’’ He says, I can tell there was a smile on his face. ‘’its been a while since I’ve had to make a triple fudge, three layer cake with chocolate icing and rainbow sprinkles.. but I guess I will.’’ I tell him.

“Oh my god.. you remembered? Even the rainbow sprinkles?’’ He laughs a little in shock. ‘’Of course I remembered.. you used to make me make it all the time.’’ I remind him. ‘’Hey, that’s the best damn cake ever. I’m not sure if I have any cake stuff in the cupboards.’’ He tells me.

‘’You don’t.. I looked.. for something to eat.’’ I laugh a little as I admit this part of my snoop session to him. ‘’Oh.. okay. Well, there’s a few hundreds in my nightstand drawer.. you can go to the store and pick some things up.’’ He insists. ‘’I have money Harry.’’ I tell him.

As long as I’ve known Harry, which has been for a long time, he’s never let me use my own money. Well, until we separated. But then he still bought all of Lily’s things and he got me a new car, a new phone, and he still sends money. I’m grateful for him, but I’d like to know that I can depend on myself at times.. and I do.

‘’Its my cake.. remember?’’ He says. ‘’Okay.. okay.’’ I say, knowing I won’t win if we start an argument about this. ‘’Alright. I have to go, Lily’s getting fussing with me. She’s probably a little hungry.’’ He tells me.

‘’Okay.. Call me when you’re on your way home.. I’ll go start on your cake soon.’’ I tell him. ‘’Alright, bye love.’’ ‘’Bye Harry..’’ I reply. ‘’I would say something.. but it’s a waste because you won’t say it back. But.. I love you.’’ He sighs gently. I gulp a little.

I want to say it back, I really do. But at times I find myself chickening out. And like usually, just after the loud gulp, my throat tightens, my heart stops for a few beats, my brain dies, my lungs give out, my stomach turns, I lose all breath and my face freezes.

And as always… I reply. But just not what he wants to hear. ‘’Bye.’’ And I hang up. I sigh to myself as I sit my phone on the counter, resting my elbows on the island. I felt stupid for even being here. But I knew I would be much safer here, and that’s what made me feel less stupid and a tad better than before.

But after a few minutes of grieving to myself, I walk back upstairs. Harry’s house wasn’t big, only two floors with the addition of the loft. He had a pool, but it wasn’t huge. He actually had a back yard, something I always wanted for Lily and she has it.

There’s a swing set back there, for when Lily gets a little older. And for when Niall and Louis come over, every one gets a little bored. There’s a back patio and he had a balcony that his room held the door to.

It wasn’t huge and spectacular. But it was nice and comfortable, that’s all he wants. He’s offered to get me a house of my own. But I think my apartment will do just fine for a while, at least until Lily gets a little older.

Besides, when she does I plan on having my job. I’m going to school to be a teacher. But I’m not technically going to school, I’m doing it online and watching the video Lessons and stuff they would normally do in a class room at a college or whatever.

Harry’s told me since Lily was born that I didn’t have to finish out school and then go to college. When I met Harry I was eight, and that was a long time ago, he’s always told me that he’d live out his dream, and he has.

But he stopped it for a while, letting the boys carry on out with out for a year or so. He still does the music, he records, he’s been in the albums that came out since Lily was born, which I think was only one, he’s just not touring. And thankfully, his fans understand why and don’t harass him about it, well most of them at least.

But when we found out about Lily, he promised that I’d never have to work a day in my life. But I wasn’t up for that. I was raised to make something out of my life, and I was going to get my diploma, I was a drop out in ninth grade, I know.. its bad. But I’m okay now.

I have exactly what I need. My schooling is going well, and I’m doing exactly what I want to do in life. Just.. with out the person I want to do it with.. and that’s on one other than Harry..

And he’ll always be the person I need..

No matter what happens to either of us.

Notes

I will update later, but no more back to backs! Sorry, I was on a roll and I needed to get some more of Katie's POV out there! So I'll update later, but you HAVE TO COMMENT THOSE WONDERFUL, AMAZING, LOVLEY thoughts my loves!!! xxx Love ya! ♥♥♥