Harry's POV

I need to talk to her, I need to fix this thing. I just need to tell her how I feel and I hope everything would be good again. I'm hoping hopelessly.

I tap her shoulder wanting her to turn around, thinking she'll actually talk to me but it turns out to be the worst thing ever.

"No" She harshly spoke, I felt like I've been shattered into pieces.

"L-listen Alessa" i stuttered, taking a step towards her.

"No, fuck off" She sternly spoke.

How can she have so much hatred towards me? I thought, as tears suddenly streamed down my face.

"Look, j-just listen to me" I tried to talk to her, having my hands on her face to show her how much I want to talk to her.

"DON'T TOUCH ME!" She screamed, then removing my hands from her face.

"Alessa please!" I yelled, trying to grab her wrist but she was already out of my sight.

"What am i doing? I have a girlfriend and I love her! Whenever I see Alessa, why do I forget about Isabelle? I love Isabelle, not Alessa!" I tried to convince myself.

I really need to talk to Louis.

-

"Hey Louis!"

"Hey Harry!" Louis smiled.

"I need to talk to you"

"Yeah, go on?"

"Every time i see Alessa, I forget about Isabelle" I finally spitted it out.

"What?! then why are you with her?" He had a confused looked on his face.

"I- I don't know."

"Harry, to be honest, you'll never have a chance with Alessa again since Niall came. You see with Isabelle, she’s really funny. She makes you laugh. She has a golden smile. She laughs at your cocky jokes. You make her smile. You like seeing her smile. She’s sweet and cute. You can’t help but think about her all the time. You know she loves you so much and nothing can stop her to not to. You notice her and she stands out the most. She likes the same things as you. She has a great and similar personality to you. You like how she makes you feel. You like how she can be herself around you. You like how you can tell her anything. You like how she can tell you anything. You have something for her, but you just don't know what..

So what the fuck are you doing? She’s going to think there’s something wrong with her. She’s going to think something wrong. She’s going to think she’s not good enough. She’s going to slip away. She’s going to feel insecure. She’s going to cry herself to sleep thinking about what could have been. All because of you. What if she happens to find out about Alessa? do you think she's gonna remain quiet and act like everything's fine? No, i 100% guarantee something's bad going to happen if she finds out..

Listen, don't let go of her because of some bitch called Alessa. You're trying to ruin your perfect relationship with Isabelle. Just because you cant let go your ex? Harry, why don't you admit that Alessa doesn't like you anymore? If you keep this thing going on, soon or later, Isabelle is gonna find out and she's not gonna let this go easily. Harry, Isabelle loves you a lot. Thinking about Alessa is just ..... gonna ruin everything. Just let it go." Louis spoke, leaving me speechless.

"I need to go" I ran as fast as i could, not looking back.

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I just sit down on the cold silver bench and stare, so lost, so confused. Louis's words, these thoughts, they rattle in my head. They consume my thoughts, they make me immobile. They leave me paralyzed. They cause my chest to tighten up, they make everything hard, I can feel an panic attack coming on.

Isabelle makes me feel complete. We are so opposite, it’s repulsive but it makes us move as one in perfect harmony. I am not dependent on her like she claims, I know I could survive without her, I know I could carry on. But there would be a gaping hole in me, a dark void, because the place inside of me where she lived left, leaving me alone.

I love her, I fell completely in love with her. I didn’t even mean for this to happen. I just thought we would date for a while then it would be over. I just dated her to forget about Alessa but it turned out, something big.

But when I look into Isabelle's eyes I just see love and hope. Her lips electrify me. When she wrap her arms around me and pull me into her I melt, I get lost in her warm embrace and the smell of her sweat and axe.

I am hopelessly and down right in love with her. I would do anything for her.

I need to take down my guards and stop falling her Alessa. Because I am sick and tired of thinking about her when she doesn't give a shit about me.… I really am. I'm just the stupid one wishing Alessa would knock on my door and just hug me, and I know that's unrealistic as fuck. I just.... I just need to stop.

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