The Test Subject

I went back to my cell with a black eye, and bruises and cuts all over my body. It hurt and all i can do is feel it. I didn't care about the excruciating pain i was in, i cared about the fact Miss Butts promised me she would find the person responsible for killing that girl.I knew all her promises were empty, completely meaningless. Deep down i know she wants to name me responsible. I still don't know why she doesn't. After Miss Butts found out the companionship Harry and I had she was enraged. Beyond the idea of revenge . I knew she would use it to her advantage. We were the epitome of disgusting, vile a abomination of a friendship. We were forbidden. Harry had worse than me though, Miss Butts will make sure Harry endures most pain, all because he is meant to be on their side. Harry is neither heartless or carefree to be on their 'side'. Its stupid. There is no good or evil, in the end its all about power and right now not one single test subject has any. "what happened to you?" Ashton asked immediately. I rolled my eyes while laying my head gently on the pillow. I had no intention to repeat the days events to anyone."Well answer me?" He spat. "was it that guard? because i swear if he put a hand on you" I didn't bother replying. "Fine what ever. I didn't care anyway" Ashton sighed. I glanced up and saw him walking to his cage door. His hair was messy and ragged, his body was tight, closed. This told me he didn't let people in easy. The piercing screams filled the hallway, and my stomach was filled with remorse and of course worry. "Fuck! Does this ever end" He harshly kicked the door, out of anger presumably. Ashtons anger soon turned into surprise as the door flew right open, no longer trapped like a rabid dog. I jumped out of my bed and put my hands on the metal bar. Ashton looked at me for support, or even a answer. By now i had forgotten the cries for help, i was just worried about the man in front of me. I noticed now that all i ever do is worry. The whole thing is quite hopeless, so it's no good worrying about tomorrow. It probably won't come.
A wicked smile took over his features, his face was more sweaty than before. The hunger in his eyes, the feeling to escape clouding his judgement. It was clear he just wanted out. "Ashton, please don't" i whispered. "you have no idea the punishments you will face" He stepped closer to the blessed freedom. I knew he would be killed almost immediately, it was near impossible. Guards on every turn, endless corridors, and of course the only way out is through the whole facility.I had thought on numerous nights about plotting my escape. "Ashton don't" I loudly whispered. Ashton turned to me, anger flashed across his distressed face. "why? so we can live today and die tomorrow?" he shook his head slowly, a sarcastic smile played on his lips. Taunting me about this whole situation. "I dont think so love" He scoffed and actually walked out. Something came over me. It blinded me, disarmed everything i knew. "Ashton!" I called out. I closed my eyes tight. "take me with you" i sighed loudly, my eyes opened and Ashtons mouth was open. "please" i gave a small smile. "Wheres the keys?" he urged. I tried to think back to the conversations ive had with Harry. He told me a lot about this place, the layout, new guards old guards and Miss Butts past victims. It was horrible of course but it gave me a good insight about what evil lies deep within her. "Quick Lily" Ashton pressured. "don't make me leave you" The pressure i was under made my hands shake nervously. I heard jingling of keys in the background. "In the cabinet over there"" i shouted.
"That was a close one " I said to Ashton. I had no idea if Ashton knew where he was going, i did. When you have lived here all your life you make sure you know every passage way of by heart. He walked forward, blanking me, avoiding me anyway he could. It baffled me. I done nothing to him. My sides ached a little less by now, my eyes slightly closed and my posture slanted. A cool shudder trickles down my spine. Glancing around nervously, i see somber portraits staring at Ashton and i from behind layers of dust, seemingly penetrating my very being. Cold, hesitant light streams in through a cracked window, casting eerie shadows on the walls. As i walk forward, i can't help but feel that someone is following me Whirling around, i see nothing but the empty hallway and the faces in the portraits staring at us 'Turn back' they seem to say, but i wallow a nervous whimper and continue into the dark bowels of the house. The walls were rotted away the further we got. This part of the facility was obvious unused as it screamed abandoned. I could hear it though. I could hear victims of the past, screaming, pleading, wishing for death to come. A fate that would inevitably come in the most painful way. "Ashton" I whispered. I had no idea why i had a need to be quiet. Walking down the corridor the stench of disinfectant and badly cooked food filled my nostrils. I placed a hand on the large wooden door and pushed it open. The room I walked into looked too clean, brilliant white walls with gleaming floors. The only thing darkening the rooms appearance was a figure huddled in the corner. I gasped silently and turned back to Ashton. He looked cautioned. the girl looked up. She had blonde hair which was slightly waved and her eyes were brilliant blue. I was shocked into silence. How would she survive down here? Ashton walked in front of me, giving me a sense of protection. She stood up to full height and turned slightly to look at us both. She seemed more scared of us then we were of her. We have no need to fear the girl.
Her eyes were sapphire blue that you were effortlessly mesmerized by, with long skinny eyelashes in the color midnight that she flicked almost constantly. Her skin was slightly lighter than Ivory, with a metallic rose colored tint to her cheeks. Her faultless champagne blonde hair fell loosely over her shoulders into skinny, slack curls. Her lips were like a frozen rose, dangerous but beautiful.I sensed an air of desperation surround her, like a heavy cloak that she was tired of carrying. It was evident in her crystal eyes as they darted about looking for friendly territory; a friendly face with whom she could sit and feel safe and at ease with. It was evident in the way she struggled to breathe as her chest heaved up and down and she – she – trying so hard to keep it under control. But more than that, I sensed the palpable fear that people might notice that she was not at comfort; that she was edgy and nervous and perhaps distressed. Unlike Ashton and i she had a short white hospital dress, normally the ones you saw in a psychiatric hospital. Her hair was greasy at the roots, the ends of her chestnut hair was dead. Everything about her told me so was on the verge of death. Despite this i knew she was harmless. I stepped forward But Ashton pushed me back. "What are you doing?" he harshly whispered. I glared at him in confusion. Obviously she was no threat to us. "Ashton, we cant just leave her. Look at her... shes absolutely harmless" i explained softly. He looked at her once more and back at me. Ashton nodded. I let out a breath i didn't know i was holding in. I gave the mysterious girl a small smile. As i got closer she stepped back, eventually crashing against the wall.
"Theres no need to be afraid" i whispered. I put my hand up as if i was cautioning her. She still seemed weary of us, she whimpered as she realized she was backed up to the wall. In her eyes there was no way out. She was trapped. "My names Lily, whats you name?" i tried to communicate. She bent down, crawling into her knees, covering every inch of her face. I sighed and looked back at Ashton. He held a emotionless expression. I had a feeling he didn't care whether she lived or died. I took a risk and walked all the way to her lying body. I crouched down to her level and slowly put a hand on her skinny side. Her blonde hair was thrown in all directions. I noticed a few scratches and scars on her wrist. My mouth opened slightly at the horrible thoughts, and horrendous possibilities. "please talk to me" i sighed. "Lily, we cant stay here. The guards probably know were gone by now" Ashton said. I knew he was right, but it would be immoral to just leave her here. "we cant leave her, it isn't right" he scoffed and looked away from me. "i wouldn't leave you" i said. My eyes never left his. "we know nothing about her! she could be a psychopath for all we know" he snapped. i got angry at his constant need to presume and judge and eagerness to just leave this girl. "what Like you Ashton? i mean i know nothing about you! you could be a psychopath as well" i instantly felt bad as his eyes slowly was corrupted by anger. "but i still wouldn't leave you" i spoke honestly. " i would never leave you, Ashton" "we need to go Lily" I looked down at the girl below me. She seemed crazed, too far gone to save. Maybe that's why shes in the asylum part of the facility. She got lost and nobody wanted to find her. "I need you to talk to me? i don't want to leave you here but im going to have to if you don't talk to me" i advised. I saw her head slightly raise, i hoped she contemplated talking to me. I rubbed my forehead. I hesitantly stood up. "how many people have you killed?" a small fragile voice said behind me. I had to smile at my victorious attempt to talk to her, despite the horrible topic. "None" the girl sat up, allowing Ashton and i to look at her. She looked away in shame while Ashton just looked down. "what- what about you?" i questioned. "just me" she whimpered. Her eyes turned red as though she was about to cry. "what do you mean 'just me'?" i pressed on. "my sister, where is my sister. Did you take her?" she pointed towards Ashton. What the hell is happening? all of a sudden she ran towards a startled Ashton. "you took her didn't you? Didn't you?" she screeched . Ashton shook his head, his body went into a shell. The girl whimpered at his lack of reply. "I never took anyone" he whispered, voice slightly raspy. "your a killer, there's blood on your hands. I sense it" she backed away from Ashton. "you're a cold blooded killer. You have no remorse for your actions do you?" The horrific sound of the crazy girl hitting her own head made me feel sick. She was literally punishing herself in the worst kind of way. Each time her hand came in contact with her head made me shudder and make her cry harder.
I looked At Ashton who looked lost, in total despair. The girl was crazy, i wouldn't let anything she said bother me. She ran back into the corner of the room, going into a sort of fetal position. Her whimpering, and quiet sobs could still be heard. I reached out to touch his large hand but he harshly removed it. "dont" he snapped. His eyes held no emotion, no sadness, no happiness just complete emptiness. It was actually so scary. "don't let what she said effect you, shes crazy" i advised. My whole body ached as i remembered the events of getting beaten up. I almost forgot that poor girl died, i almost forgot the bruising occurring all over my body and i almost forgot about Harry facing a much worser punishment than myself. This whole day has been insane. I looked outside and it was total blackness, not a ray of light any where. Most of the east side of the facility is abandoned, its rare the guards would patrol this area. If i remember correctly it was abandoned because of the huge experimenting on the mentally disable. Due to their disability most died on the operation table. I wondered how this girl before me survived going unnoticed. Especially in her condition. "we should stay here tonight" i suggested. I looked around the room, it had several beds with restraints on them. The doors we came through could easily be barricaded. The single window could be covered with a simple blanket. "I'm not saying we stay here forever, im just saying we could stay here for a night. Perhaps think of a plan. " Ashton looked like he was debating whether we should stay here or not. I realized we were quiet far from our building, our cell so listening to the screams wouldn't have to be a option. "it would be nice to not have to fall asleep listening as the screams as a lullaby..." Why was he so quiet. "Please?" i begged . He sighed. "Fine, one night only" he raised a eye brow. I hugged him quickly. I took in the smell of vanilla which was in some ways new to me. Ashtons body was stiff, not hugging me back. "thank you Ashton" i smiled. I struggled to block the doors but he helped me move a bed. " we should make a fire, you know to keep warm and stuff" i laughed.
The girl was sleeping, or pretending to but she fooled me any how. I wonder what could drive a person to the edge like that. Well i knew what but how could she let this place destroy her humanity? in a place like this, you have nothing. No possessions to call your own, no clothes to wear with pride and you don't even have a name. Your named numbers, the only thing you have which makes you a individual, what makes you completely different is your humanity. When you give them the power to turn it off, your left with nothing."We can burn this" Ashton threw several sheets of toilet paper in the middle of the room. "we don't have a lighter" i said as if it was obvious. "We're in a experimenting lab, we can just find explosive drugs or whatever there called" Ashton shrugged. I rolled my eyes at his horrible attitude. "that would mean going back out there... which would mean risking getting caught" I grabbed his wrist quickly. I didn't want Ashton getting hurt because of my stupid idea. I couldn't have that resting on my conscious. "we don't need a fire. The cold doesn't bother me anyway" His eyes scanned my hand, tightly wrapped around his arm."i don't want you to go" i pleaded with my eyes. "you could get hurt or worse" i finished. "i'll be fine, i'll erm be back before you even miss me" I looked down. Ashton was quick, and quiet so i don't really have nothing to worry about. i hesitantly nodded. "Just keep a eye on her, i don't trust her and neither should you"
"Okay" i shrugged
He moved the bed and just like that he was gone. This was going to be the longest night. I pulled the hem of my shirt down trying to keep warm but failing. This place made me shudder. In some ways i think i prefer the cell. It didn't feel right to be here, the place where they tested mental patients. The place where they took advantage on the defenseless disabled. I could almost envision the cruel things taken place here. I knew i couldn't sleep on the beds either. I don't care if i haven't been on a comfortable bed in years. I went over the restless girl on the floor. Her hair was covering her face but due to her whimpering i could tell she was awake. I softly removed the hair out of her face and looked deep into her blue eyes. i was beyond shocked when she smiled back at me. "when you said you only killed yourself, what did you mean?" i asked and she gulped. "i- was with my sister at the Atlanta Airport waiting for the connecting flight to Paris , it didn't connect" she started to cry. I wiped a tear from her face. "i swear i was normal before this. Before this my sister never done such terrible things just to keep me safe, neither of us did" Her chest was raising and falling at a rapid pace."we ate whatever we could find, ran when people need our help... she killed pe-people. i swear i was normal before this. Before this my sister never done such terrible things just to keep me safe" She repeated. "did you have to do things like that?" she asked. I was near tears myself. "no, i was born here. I have no idea what its like out in the real world" i contained tears. "we ran you see, i was slow ou-out of breath, constantly out of breath. She would yell and i would cry and she would yell and i would cry harder. Marie was so sick of my crying and so was i" i noticed now how well she was talking. Despite the whole situation not making any sense to me, i feel for her. "Its my fault we're in here she would remind me, if i hadn't been so damn slow. She still protected me, even though i was slow" A single tear fan down my face. "thats what sisters do" i stated from stories i heard. "do you think we -i can ever come back from it?" she asked with hopeful eyes. "i hope so"

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I wrote this while i needed the toilet lool
well im off to go get some food
bye