The Original Heartbreak Girl
Tidal Wave
Luke's POV
It’s like watching a car crash in slow motion. I can feel myself falling apart. I watch as she leaves the room, adding more distance between us. I’d move mountains to save the shambles of our relationship, but she's already gone. It feels like I'm clinging onto the edge of a cliff and she's holding my hand and I'm holding onto her for dear life.Then all of the sudden she's letting go. And then I'm falling, my heart already hitting the ground and shattering.
I feel empty. There is a deep sense of numbness in the pit of my stomach, at the same time a despair for which I had no explanation. I feel like a thousand daggers are being thrust into my chest and twisted. My breath comes in short, painful gasps that leave me dizzy and nauseated.
My chest tightens up and it feels like it has dropped down to my knees. It feels like my whole body has shut down.
I don't know how long I've been on the ground curled up into a ball before Ash walks in. I don't even bother to try and muffle my sobs, it probably wouldn't help anyway. I don't bother to look up at Ash but I can feel him staring at me. He kneels down next to me and sets his hand on my arm. As he speaks, his voice sounds panicked.
"Luke, what's wrong? Do you need a doctor? I can call an ambulance if you want?" He shoots off question after question but I'm not ready to answer all of them. I moan, in hope that he'll leave me alone. It doesn't work though. I better answer or we might stay like this forever.
"She's gone." It wasn't an exact answer to his question, but it was the best I could do at the moment. He looked at me with his eyebrows raised in confusion.
"Who's gone?"
"Rosie. She left." He was still looking at me confused. I couldn't blame him. I wasn't being very helpful.
"What do you mean she left? We're leaving to go home now, where else would she go?"
"She said she couldn't do this anymore and that she was staying here with a friend."
"What? Who does she know in London?" The confusion on his face was now replaced with worry. I shrugged my shoulders, not having anymore answers. He pulled out his phone and dialed a number, probably Rose's. "I'll be right back." He stepped back out into the hallway, putting the phone to his ear. I picked up my own phone to see if she had replied to me. She didn't.
"Did she answer?" I asked as Ash stepped back into the room. He shook his head and all hope I had, immediately fallen away.
"I know this is hard right now, but we have to head to the airport or we'll miss our plane."
"I don't wanna go without her."
"Luke you can't stay here. It's time for us to go home. Your mom wants you home and I'm not leaving without you." I nodded and followed him out the door. He was right, I had to go home. My mom was so excited for me to come home and so was the rest of my family.
We walked down the hallway in silence, Ashton shooting me worried glances every couple steps. I just ignored him, hoping he wouldn't ask anymore questions. Michael and Calum were waiting in the car for us, both of them looking excited. We got in the car and Ash told the driver we could go. Calum looked panicked as we started pulling away.
"Where's Rose?" My heart dropped at just the sound of her name. Ash looked at me right away, making sure I wasn't going to breakdown again. I sucked in a deep breathe and tried to steady myself.
"She's not coming with us." Ashton answered and I'm sure he shot Calum a look so he wouldn't ask anymore questions. The rest of the car ride was silent, only the sound of someone's phone every once and a while. I pulled my phone out and my heart dropped to my stomach again as I saw that Rose hadn't texted me back. I scrolled through the past messages, already missing how things were. I couldn't understand what had happened between this morning and after the show.
"We have to hurry. Our flight leaves in ten minutes." I'm sure Calum wanted to complain about me making us late but he held it in. Him and Mikey were probably confused about what was going on, but I wasn't ready to explain yet.
The car stopped and we all got out, heading towards our gate. Thankfully there weren't any fans waiting for us since it was so late. Normally I liked to see the fans, but I wasn't in the right mind set to deal with them right now. We got to the gate and flew through security. When you spend so much time in airports, you basically become a pro at getting through security fast. We boarded the plane, and waited for our departure.
"Are you okay?" I looked over to see Ashton still looking at me worried. I know he was just acting like this because he cared about me, but it was going to get annoying fast. Especially when he asked me stupid questions like that.
"No, I'm not okay." I said through gritted teeth, trying not to snap at him. He nodded and just stared down at his chest. I felt bad for yelling at him, I know he was just trying to help. "I just wish I knew where she was and why she left. I just want to know she's okay." I whispered quietly as he scrolled through his phone. He stopped scrolling and looked panicked and disgusted all at once.
"What if I could tell you where she was?" He looked at me with worry in his eyes as he asked.
"Where? How do you now? " My mind was racing. She had texted Ashton but she wouldn't text me? He handed me his phone and I looked down at the screen. As soon as I looked, I felt like I was going to be sick. I tried to push the bile back down and stay calm. I began to read it out loud to myself.
"Rosalina Miller, rumored girlfriend of Luke Hemmings, was spotted getting to a car with One Direction superstar Harry Styles. The two were later seen entering his house a little later, while Luke was busy boarding a plane back home to Australia Is it safe to assume that Luke and Rosalina's relationship is over? Or did we just uncover a new cheating scandal? Stay tuned with StarNews to find out more." Below the story were two pictures of Harry and Rose. In the first one, they were both getting into the car, her eyes puffy and red. She looked upset and scared. In the second picture, she was holding his hand while he led her into his home but her facial expression was much the same. She didn't look happy, but it still hurt to see her with him. I rested my elbows on my knees and put my head in my hands. Ash put his hand on my back, trying to settle me.
"I'm so sorry Luke. I texted her and asked what was going on but she didn't answer. I just wish I knew what was going on." That's when I thought of the letter she had given me. I wasn't ready to read mine but Ashton deserved to have his. I dug into my bag and found them. I handed Ashton his and he looked at me confused.
"She gave this to me right before she left. This one is for you." He looked down and hesitated before he opened it. Finally he opened it, his eyes scanning down the page. I sat back with a sigh, knowing it could be a while before he was done. I closed my eyes, trying to forget everything that had happened today.
I dug through my bag again and found my headphones. I slipped them in my ears and put my phone on shuffle, hoping the music would take me away. As Blink-182's Please Take Me Home filled my ears, I thought of how much I missed my own home. It wouldn't be the same without her though. She was always right next door and now she was gone. I closed my eyes and willed the thoughts away and let myself drift into sleep. The last thing I remembered hearing was a flight attendant announce that we were lifting off.
"Luke, we're home." I opened my eyes and rubbed them, trying to get the sleep out of them. I looked over at Ash and noticed that everyone else had left. I looked around trying to find Rose before I remembered that she wasn't with us. My heart fell again for probably the hundredth time within the last 24 hours. I grabbed my bag and followed Ashton off the plane.
"There's probably going to be fans waiting for us." Ash mumbled as we walked further into the airport. I groaned at this, still no in the mood for dealing with people.
"What time is it here?" He looked down a this phone and then slid it back into his pocket.
"It's almost 1." I nodded, still trying to remember that we're on a different time zone.
We walked the rest of the way in silence until screams could be heard from down the hall. Once we rounded the corner, I saw that there were at least 50 girls waiting for us. Cal and Mikey were already surrounded by at least a dozen girls. As soon as they saw us coming, we were instantly bombarded by girls. I began to sign autographs and smiled for some pictures. I loved our fans, but I just wasn't in the mood. It was going fine until a girl started asking me questions.
"Where's Rose? Why was she spotted with Harry?" My eyes instantly became wet at just the sound of her name. Ashton was pulling me away immediately, some fans complaining as we passed them. I kept my head down and pulled my beanie tighter over my head. Ashton pushed me along until we were finally in a car.
"I know you hate this question, but are you okay?" I nodded my head but the tears streaming down my face said otherwise. I hated this feeling and I just wish that it would go away.
"I'm fine for a little until I think of her or someone mentions her name, it's like a tidal wave of sadness."
"I know this is going to be hard but you can make it through this. You just have to stay strong. That's what she would've wanted." He was right but it was hard to be positive right now.
"What was in your letter?"
"Probably the same thing that was in yours." He was staring down at his hands in his lap like they were the most interesting thing he had ever seen.
"I haven't read mine yet." I mumbled out, hoping he would ignore it.
"Why not?"
"I'm not ready to. If I read it, it's like I'm accepting that it's really over between. I'm not ready to let her go yet." He gave my a sympathetic look and nodded. We sat there in silence until Mikey and Calum finally showed up.
"Where am I going first?"
"Luke's house, he's the closest." I sat back as Ashton gave the driver my address and we started moving. I pulled out my phone and went through my messages. My mom had texted me a couple times and my brother had asked me when I wanted to hangout. There was still no reply from Rose though. I began to go through my pictures and looked at all the ones of us. We looked so happy and in love, how had this happened? As I scrolled through the pictures, the car finally came to a stop.
"We'll text you later. Call me if you need anything." Ashton said, as I got out and pulled my luggage out of the trunk of the car. I turned and faced my house and smiled to myself. I was finally home. The smile didn't last long though as I looked at Rose's house. I sighed to myself and dragged my bags toward the house. I got to the door and took a deep breathe as I stepped inside.
"Mom?" I called out as I closed the door behind me. She came running down the hallway immediately, a huge smile on her face.
"Luke! You're finally home." She engulfed me in a hug immediately and I could feel myself smiling. No matter how sucky things were, my mom always cheered me up. She kissed me on the cheek then stepped back.
"I missed you."
"I missed you too honey." She tousled my hair and I frowned, I hated when she did that.
"I'm kind of tired though so I'm gonna go lay down if that's okay?"
"That's fine honey. I'll have dinner ready whenever you get up. Do you want to invite Rose over for dinner?" I couldn't breathe for a minute. Of course my mom didn't know Rose wasn't home.
"She's still in London mom." I called behind me as I headed up the stairs, hoping she would drop the subject. As I entered my room, a new tidal wave of sadness hit me. Of course everything in my room reminded of Rose, we had spent almost our whole lives in it.
I sat on my bed and just looked around the room. The tears began to pour down my face as I looked at everything in my room. I looked at the shelf full of snow globes and began to sob. For every birthday since I was 5, Rose had always given me a snow globe. I had 12 stupid snow globes sitting on my shelf now and looking at them was just painful.
I pulled my phone out of my pocket and dialed the familiar number. The phone rang three times before there was an answer. I'm sure I sounded awful, I was still crying but I was beginning to calm down.
"Hello?"
"I need you."
"What's wrong?"
"Can you come over please? It's just too much to handle right now."
"I'll be there in like 15 minutes. Hang in there."
"Thanks Ash." I hangup and flopped back down onto my bed. I set my phone on the ground, trying to stop myself from calling who I really wanted to. Hopefully Ash would be able to take my mind off of her.
Part of me wished that I could forget all about her and the pain that I was feeling right now. The other part of me didn't want to forget her. She was one of the best parts of my life. Yeah it sucked right now, but would it be worth losing all those memories to just forget all about her?
I wish I could forget all the stupid little things.
It’s like watching a car crash in slow motion. I can feel myself falling apart. I watch as she leaves the room, adding more distance between us. I’d move mountains to save the shambles of our relationship, but she's already gone. It feels like I'm clinging onto the edge of a cliff and she's holding my hand and I'm holding onto her for dear life.Then all of the sudden she's letting go. And then I'm falling, my heart already hitting the ground and shattering.
I feel empty. There is a deep sense of numbness in the pit of my stomach, at the same time a despair for which I had no explanation. I feel like a thousand daggers are being thrust into my chest and twisted. My breath comes in short, painful gasps that leave me dizzy and nauseated.
My chest tightens up and it feels like it has dropped down to my knees. It feels like my whole body has shut down.
I don't know how long I've been on the ground curled up into a ball before Ash walks in. I don't even bother to try and muffle my sobs, it probably wouldn't help anyway. I don't bother to look up at Ash but I can feel him staring at me. He kneels down next to me and sets his hand on my arm. As he speaks, his voice sounds panicked.
"Luke, what's wrong? Do you need a doctor? I can call an ambulance if you want?" He shoots off question after question but I'm not ready to answer all of them. I moan, in hope that he'll leave me alone. It doesn't work though. I better answer or we might stay like this forever.
"She's gone." It wasn't an exact answer to his question, but it was the best I could do at the moment. He looked at me with his eyebrows raised in confusion.
"Who's gone?"
"Rosie. She left." He was still looking at me confused. I couldn't blame him. I wasn't being very helpful.
"What do you mean she left? We're leaving to go home now, where else would she go?"
"She said she couldn't do this anymore and that she was staying here with a friend."
"What? Who does she know in London?" The confusion on his face was now replaced with worry. I shrugged my shoulders, not having anymore answers. He pulled out his phone and dialed a number, probably Rose's. "I'll be right back." He stepped back out into the hallway, putting the phone to his ear. I picked up my own phone to see if she had replied to me. She didn't.
"Did she answer?" I asked as Ash stepped back into the room. He shook his head and all hope I had, immediately fallen away.
"I know this is hard right now, but we have to head to the airport or we'll miss our plane."
"I don't wanna go without her."
"Luke you can't stay here. It's time for us to go home. Your mom wants you home and I'm not leaving without you." I nodded and followed him out the door. He was right, I had to go home. My mom was so excited for me to come home and so was the rest of my family.
We walked down the hallway in silence, Ashton shooting me worried glances every couple steps. I just ignored him, hoping he wouldn't ask anymore questions. Michael and Calum were waiting in the car for us, both of them looking excited. We got in the car and Ash told the driver we could go. Calum looked panicked as we started pulling away.
"Where's Rose?" My heart dropped at just the sound of her name. Ash looked at me right away, making sure I wasn't going to breakdown again. I sucked in a deep breathe and tried to steady myself.
"She's not coming with us." Ashton answered and I'm sure he shot Calum a look so he wouldn't ask anymore questions. The rest of the car ride was silent, only the sound of someone's phone every once and a while. I pulled my phone out and my heart dropped to my stomach again as I saw that Rose hadn't texted me back. I scrolled through the past messages, already missing how things were. I couldn't understand what had happened between this morning and after the show.
"We have to hurry. Our flight leaves in ten minutes." I'm sure Calum wanted to complain about me making us late but he held it in. Him and Mikey were probably confused about what was going on, but I wasn't ready to explain yet.
The car stopped and we all got out, heading towards our gate. Thankfully there weren't any fans waiting for us since it was so late. Normally I liked to see the fans, but I wasn't in the right mind set to deal with them right now. We got to the gate and flew through security. When you spend so much time in airports, you basically become a pro at getting through security fast. We boarded the plane, and waited for our departure.
"Are you okay?" I looked over to see Ashton still looking at me worried. I know he was just acting like this because he cared about me, but it was going to get annoying fast. Especially when he asked me stupid questions like that.
"No, I'm not okay." I said through gritted teeth, trying not to snap at him. He nodded and just stared down at his chest. I felt bad for yelling at him, I know he was just trying to help. "I just wish I knew where she was and why she left. I just want to know she's okay." I whispered quietly as he scrolled through his phone. He stopped scrolling and looked panicked and disgusted all at once.
"What if I could tell you where she was?" He looked at me with worry in his eyes as he asked.
"Where? How do you now? " My mind was racing. She had texted Ashton but she wouldn't text me? He handed me his phone and I looked down at the screen. As soon as I looked, I felt like I was going to be sick. I tried to push the bile back down and stay calm. I began to read it out loud to myself.
"Rosalina Miller, rumored girlfriend of Luke Hemmings, was spotted getting to a car with One Direction superstar Harry Styles. The two were later seen entering his house a little later, while Luke was busy boarding a plane back home to Australia Is it safe to assume that Luke and Rosalina's relationship is over? Or did we just uncover a new cheating scandal? Stay tuned with StarNews to find out more." Below the story were two pictures of Harry and Rose. In the first one, they were both getting into the car, her eyes puffy and red. She looked upset and scared. In the second picture, she was holding his hand while he led her into his home but her facial expression was much the same. She didn't look happy, but it still hurt to see her with him. I rested my elbows on my knees and put my head in my hands. Ash put his hand on my back, trying to settle me.
"I'm so sorry Luke. I texted her and asked what was going on but she didn't answer. I just wish I knew what was going on." That's when I thought of the letter she had given me. I wasn't ready to read mine but Ashton deserved to have his. I dug into my bag and found them. I handed Ashton his and he looked at me confused.
"She gave this to me right before she left. This one is for you." He looked down and hesitated before he opened it. Finally he opened it, his eyes scanning down the page. I sat back with a sigh, knowing it could be a while before he was done. I closed my eyes, trying to forget everything that had happened today.
I dug through my bag again and found my headphones. I slipped them in my ears and put my phone on shuffle, hoping the music would take me away. As Blink-182's Please Take Me Home filled my ears, I thought of how much I missed my own home. It wouldn't be the same without her though. She was always right next door and now she was gone. I closed my eyes and willed the thoughts away and let myself drift into sleep. The last thing I remembered hearing was a flight attendant announce that we were lifting off.
"Luke, we're home." I opened my eyes and rubbed them, trying to get the sleep out of them. I looked over at Ash and noticed that everyone else had left. I looked around trying to find Rose before I remembered that she wasn't with us. My heart fell again for probably the hundredth time within the last 24 hours. I grabbed my bag and followed Ashton off the plane.
"There's probably going to be fans waiting for us." Ash mumbled as we walked further into the airport. I groaned at this, still no in the mood for dealing with people.
"What time is it here?" He looked down a this phone and then slid it back into his pocket.
"It's almost 1." I nodded, still trying to remember that we're on a different time zone.
We walked the rest of the way in silence until screams could be heard from down the hall. Once we rounded the corner, I saw that there were at least 50 girls waiting for us. Cal and Mikey were already surrounded by at least a dozen girls. As soon as they saw us coming, we were instantly bombarded by girls. I began to sign autographs and smiled for some pictures. I loved our fans, but I just wasn't in the mood. It was going fine until a girl started asking me questions.
"Where's Rose? Why was she spotted with Harry?" My eyes instantly became wet at just the sound of her name. Ashton was pulling me away immediately, some fans complaining as we passed them. I kept my head down and pulled my beanie tighter over my head. Ashton pushed me along until we were finally in a car.
"I know you hate this question, but are you okay?" I nodded my head but the tears streaming down my face said otherwise. I hated this feeling and I just wish that it would go away.
"I'm fine for a little until I think of her or someone mentions her name, it's like a tidal wave of sadness."
"I know this is going to be hard but you can make it through this. You just have to stay strong. That's what she would've wanted." He was right but it was hard to be positive right now.
"What was in your letter?"
"Probably the same thing that was in yours." He was staring down at his hands in his lap like they were the most interesting thing he had ever seen.
"I haven't read mine yet." I mumbled out, hoping he would ignore it.
"Why not?"
"I'm not ready to. If I read it, it's like I'm accepting that it's really over between. I'm not ready to let her go yet." He gave my a sympathetic look and nodded. We sat there in silence until Mikey and Calum finally showed up.
"Where am I going first?"
"Luke's house, he's the closest." I sat back as Ashton gave the driver my address and we started moving. I pulled out my phone and went through my messages. My mom had texted me a couple times and my brother had asked me when I wanted to hangout. There was still no reply from Rose though. I began to go through my pictures and looked at all the ones of us. We looked so happy and in love, how had this happened? As I scrolled through the pictures, the car finally came to a stop.
"We'll text you later. Call me if you need anything." Ashton said, as I got out and pulled my luggage out of the trunk of the car. I turned and faced my house and smiled to myself. I was finally home. The smile didn't last long though as I looked at Rose's house. I sighed to myself and dragged my bags toward the house. I got to the door and took a deep breathe as I stepped inside.
"Mom?" I called out as I closed the door behind me. She came running down the hallway immediately, a huge smile on her face.
"Luke! You're finally home." She engulfed me in a hug immediately and I could feel myself smiling. No matter how sucky things were, my mom always cheered me up. She kissed me on the cheek then stepped back.
"I missed you."
"I missed you too honey." She tousled my hair and I frowned, I hated when she did that.
"I'm kind of tired though so I'm gonna go lay down if that's okay?"
"That's fine honey. I'll have dinner ready whenever you get up. Do you want to invite Rose over for dinner?" I couldn't breathe for a minute. Of course my mom didn't know Rose wasn't home.
"She's still in London mom." I called behind me as I headed up the stairs, hoping she would drop the subject. As I entered my room, a new tidal wave of sadness hit me. Of course everything in my room reminded of Rose, we had spent almost our whole lives in it.
I sat on my bed and just looked around the room. The tears began to pour down my face as I looked at everything in my room. I looked at the shelf full of snow globes and began to sob. For every birthday since I was 5, Rose had always given me a snow globe. I had 12 stupid snow globes sitting on my shelf now and looking at them was just painful.
I pulled my phone out of my pocket and dialed the familiar number. The phone rang three times before there was an answer. I'm sure I sounded awful, I was still crying but I was beginning to calm down.
"Hello?"
"I need you."
"What's wrong?"
"Can you come over please? It's just too much to handle right now."
"I'll be there in like 15 minutes. Hang in there."
"Thanks Ash." I hangup and flopped back down onto my bed. I set my phone on the ground, trying to stop myself from calling who I really wanted to. Hopefully Ash would be able to take my mind off of her.
Part of me wished that I could forget all about her and the pain that I was feeling right now. The other part of me didn't want to forget her. She was one of the best parts of my life. Yeah it sucked right now, but would it be worth losing all those memories to just forget all about her?
I wish I could forget all the stupid little things.
@Minnie Mouse the sequels name is End Up Here and hopefully I'll have the first chapter done soon!
10/15/14