"Rosie, wake up. We have to go soon." I rolled over and opened my eyes to find Luke sitting next me, with a smile spread across his face.

"What time is it?" I rubbed my eyes, trying to wake myself up.

"Almost noon. We have to be at the stadium in an hour. And then we get to go home tonight!" He look so excited when he said this, it practically broke my heart. I smiled back, trying to fake excitement. I got up and started walking across the room, when he suddenly grabbed my arm and pulled me back into him. He wrapped his arms tightly around me.

"I have to go shower." He pouted and gave me the puppy dog eyes, making me giggle.

"Can't you just stay with me?" A lump formed in my throat at the idea of having to leave him. I pushed it aside and smiled at him.

"Why don't you come with me?" He looked surprised at what I was suggesting. I was surprised at what I had just suggested.

"Really? Are you sure you're ready?" He stood up and grabbed onto my arms and looked me in the eyes. His blue eyes were boring into mine, trying to see if I really meant what I said.

"Yes, I'm ready." Before he could say anything else, I grabbed his arm and pulled him along behind me. We got to the bathroom and I reached into the shower and turned on the water.

I looked at him, knowing that this is exactly what I wanted. I lifted my shirt over my head and threw it on the floor, then I slipped my shorts off so that I was standing in front of him only in my underwear. He followed my lead and slid his pants and shirt off. He walked towards me and kissed me hard.

"Are you sure about this?" He pulled back and looked at me intensely.

"Yes. I'm 100% positive that I want to do this with you." He nodded then began to kiss me again. His arms wrapped around my body while I slid mine into his hair. He unhooked my bra easily and started playing with my boobs. I slid his underwear off and he did the same with mine.

We moved into the shower, where the water was now at a perfect temperature. He pushed me against the wall, but not in a rough way. I grabbed his dick in my head and started moving my hand up and down on it. He moved his hand down to my area and inserted a finger. After a while he removed his finger and placed his dick at my entrance. He looked at me, waiting for permission. I nodded and he slid into me. It hurt at first but as he thrusted faster, pleasure overpowered the pain. His thrust became faster and our moans became louder. He did one last thrust and we both came. He pulled out and leaned against the wall.

"I love you." He whispered while he leaned in to kiss me.

"I love you too." He smiled and began to wash his hair. After he was done, he began to shampoo mine. He began to sing as he stepped out of the shower, leaving me to finish washing myself. Once I was done, I stepped out of the shower and Luke wrapped a towel around me.

"We better hurry or we're gonna be late." He headed out of the bathroom and started to dig through his suitcase.

"I'm sorry." I yelled out to him as I dragged a brush through my hair. I began to apply makeup to face as look walked back into the bathroom, pulling a shirt over his head. He wrapped his arms around my waste and kissed me on my check.

"There's nothing to be sorry about. That was amazing. You're amazing." He kissed me on the forehead then went and searched for his comb. He combed his hair then grabbed my hairdryer and fixed his hair. I laughed as his carefully fixed his hair. I finished my makeup then went and picked out my clothes.

"Have you seen my gray beanie?" Luke walked out of the bathroom, his eyes scanning around the room searching for his hat. I held it up and he walked over to me to grab it. He slipped it on and quickly fixed it.

"You're the best. You look really good too." He pecked me on the lips and I smiled. I had thrown on a black dress and pair of black vans. I added a bulky necklace and earrings and was satisfied with how I looked.

"Thank you."

"I love that you pair vans with a dress. It's cute." I blushed at this, causing him to laugh.

"Are you ready to go?" He nodded, grabbing my hand and leading me out the door. We met the other boys down in the lobby, where it looked like they had been waiting for us.

"Took you long enough." Calum mumbled as we headed outside to the car. He hated when we were late, it always put him in a bad mood.

"They were a bit busy Cal. I could hear them from my room." I could feel the heat rising to my cheeks as Luke smacked Ash in the chest. I looked over to see that his face was as equally red. We got in the car Ashton still laughing about Luke and I.

"Guys not to sound ungrateful about this tour, but I'm so glad we get to go home tonight." I felt the same lump rise in my throat again at the mention of home. I felt the same wave of sadness when I thought about them going home without me.

"You okay?" Ashton was looking at me with a worried look.

"Yeah."

"Are you still freaking over Luke being safe?"

"No, nothing's going to happen to him."

"I'm glad you calmed down about it." I nodded, trying to keep my face serene. I hated that I had to lie to Ashton, but I couldn't tell him what I had done. We drove the rest of the way in silence, until we finally pulled up to the stadium. We all got out, Luke grabbed my hand as we headed into the stadium. One Direction was just finishing up their rehearsal, so we sat and waited. They finally finished and exited the stage leaving it open for the boys.

"Come on lover boy, we have to go practice." Ashton was dragging Luke by his shirt collar up onto the stage. I sat there and laughed as I watched with from my seat. As I was sitting there, I had an idea for when I left tonight. I pulled out my phone and texted Niall. He had given me his number in case I needed anything. Within a couple minutes, he came waltzing down the aisle.

"Here's the notebook you asked for Rose." He handed me a leather bound notebook and a pen.

"Thank you." He nodded and headed back to behind the stage. I started writing in the notebook, trying to get everything I needed to say down on the paper. I had just finished when the boys came walking off the stage. I quickly closed the notebook so they couldn't see what I had written.

"What's with the notebook?" Luke came over and wrapped his arm around me.

"Just trying to start working on my songs." He nodded, dropping it at that. I smiled a him and he smiled back, his whole face lighting up.

"So you wanna go grab something to eat before the show? We have about an hour before the show starts." I looked at my phone to see that it was already 4. They were doing an early show tonight, so that the boys could go home after.

"Yeah, I'm starving." He grabbed my hand and I followed him outside. There were already screaming fans and he stopped and greeted a couple. We got a car and headed to nearby pizza place. The car stopped and Luke got out and opened my door for me. I led the way inside as I felt Luke's hand on the small of my back. The waiter came over quickly and took our order.

"You're beautiful." I felt the heat rising to my cheeks again as he spoke. God was I going to miss him.

"You're adorable." He laughed at this like I was joking, but I wasn't.

"I'm so lucky to have you." I felt the guilt settle in again at what I was going to do tonight. I was hoping I wouldn't completely break him tonight when I left him.

Before I could speak, the waiter came over with our pizza. We ate in silence, as I just watched him the whole time. I wanted to remember everything. The way he chewed, the way he smiled, the way he played with his lip ring, I didn't want to forget anything about him. Eventually he looked at the time and realized that we had to get back to the stadium.

"Let's go. Cal will freak if we're late again today." He threw a twenty on the table and we headed outside. The car was already waiting for us, so we didn't have to look for it. We got in and headed back to the stadium. Luke nestled his head into my neck, leaving soft kisses. We stopped and got out. Once we were in his dressing room, he turned and kissed me forcefully. I never wanted to let go but I knew he had to get ready.

"Go get ready." I pushed him towards his clothes and he headed that way with a pouty look on his face.

He put on a Rolling Stones t-shirt and took the beanie off. He combed his hair and retied his shoes, so he wouldn't trip over his laces again on stage. He grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge and sat next to me on the couch.

"I love you." He pecked me on the nose and I giggled. I thought it was so cute when he did that.

"I love you too." I leaned and kissed him before Ashton came rushing into the room.

"Woah, sorry I didn't mean to interrupt." Ash shielded his eyes as we pulled apart.

"What do you need Ash?" Luke looked at him with annoyance.

"You. We have to go on stage in like 5 minutes."We followed Ashton to the side of the stage where Cal and Mikey were already waiting. Luke picked up his guitar and kissed me one last time.

"I'll see you after." I gulped, thinking about what I'd have to do then. Music started playing and they all ran out onto the stage. The crowd went crazy once they saw them.

"I'll meet you in my dressing room after the show. Did you bring your suitcase?'" I nodded before I even turned around, already knowing who it was.

"Yes Harry, I'll meet you right after I say bye to Luke." He smiled at this and walked away. I just wanted to burst into tears but I had to stay strong.

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"Thank you LA! You're been amazing. We love you guys. Goodnight and drive home safely." Louis closed out the show and the lights went off. I felt my heart drop to my stomach as I realized it was time. I was sitting on Luke's lap backstage and he was playing with my hair. The other boys got up and headed to their own dressing rooms and Luke followed suit. Once we entered his dressing room, I knew this was it.

"Luke, we need to talk." I was looking at my feet as I said this. I was ready to look at him just yet.

"About what?" He looked up at me curiously.

"I.. um I don't know how to say this so I'm just gonna throw it out there. We... uh..we should.. break up." Tears were already threatening to escape from my eyes as I said this.

"What? Why?" His voice sounded panicked all the of the sudden.

"We just have to and I'm sorry."

"Please don't do this Rose. Whatever it is, I can fix it." He was now begging me. He was standing right in front of me now, trying to get me to look at him.

"No, you can't. I'm sorry about this. Hopefully one day you'll understand. I have to go now though." I tried to turn but he grabbed onto my arm.

"Go? Go where?"

"I'm staying here in London with a friend. I'm not coming home." The tears were now streaming down my face, but I didn't care anymore. This was the hardest thing that I've ever had to do.

"Rosie, I need you." He was holding onto my arm for dear life now and it was breaking my heart.

"No you don't. You'll be fine without me. Here, I wrote this for you. And this one's for Ashton. can you give it to him please?" I handed him the letters I had written earlier. He finally let go of my arm and I took it as my cue to leave. I sprinted down the hall, hoping he wouldn't follow me. It wasn't until I got to Harry's dressing room, that I looked behind. Luckily he hadn't followed me. It would've been to hard if he had. I knocked on the door and Harry answered.

"Ah, you're just in time love. I was worried you had changed your mind." I walked in and sat on the couch, letting the sadness hit me.

"No, it just took longer to say by to Luke than I thought it would." I managed to get out between sobs. Harry looked sympatheic for a moment, but then it disappeared.

"Let's get going. Louis's waiting for us with a car."

"Where are we going?"

"To your new home, babe." It made me sick when he said this. I literally thought I was going to puke. I got up and followed Harry outside, hoping I wouldn't see Luke or any of the boys.

We made it outside without seeing them and I sighed in relief. We got into a car and Louis looked at me curiously as I slid in but he didn't say anything. The car started and we started to drive. It wasn't until we started moving that it really hit me about what I had just done. I started to cry again but both of them ignored me. We stopped and Louis got out, saying goodbye to both of us. The car started moving again and I felt panicked about being alone with Harry. We finally stopped and Harry got out and opened my door for me. We walked up to his house and he unlocked his door. Once inside, he closed the door behind us and relocked it.

"Welcome home baby." I frowned as he spoke and he seemed to notice.

"How long does this deal last?" He frowned at the mention of the deal but I didn't care.

"How about you give it a year and if you still hate being here with me, I'll let you go." A year? If I still hate it? Why would I not hate it? I didn't want to be here with him. I wanted to be heading home with Luke. But I no longer had the luxury to make my own life choices.

"Fine." I mumbled and Harry seemed to cheer up a little. He led me into my new room and left me there to get settled in. I don't think I would ever get settled in here. I set my suitcase down on the floor and pulled out my phone. I had three texts, two missed calls, and a voice mail. I read through the texts first, debating whether or not I should reply.

Luke<3: Please tell me you were kidding? I need you Rosie.

Luke<3: I'll always love you.

I felt tears forming again as I read the texts from Luke. I managed to hold it together until I read the last text. The sobs began to escape as I read.

Ashton!!:): What the hell are you doing? How could you leave like that? Why would you do that to Luke? Rosie, he's a wreck. Please talk to him. He NEEDS you!

I didn't even bother to look at my missed phone calls or voice mail. There were only two people who would've called me. I sat back on the bed, throwing my phone on the floor. I let the sobs all come out, curling myself into a ball. I grabbed Luke's hoodie out of my bag and wrapped myself in it, inhaling his scent.

How had this happened? How had my life turned into this?

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