Luke's POV

"Luke wake up. It's time to go home." I rolled over to see Ashton standing above me with a worried look on his face. I sat up and it felt like my head was going to explode. What the hell happened last night?

"What happened? Where are we?" I looked around the room and nothing looked familiar. Whose house were we at?

"We're at Kayla's house, you came here last night after you got drunk." Kayla? I began to remember bits and pieces of last night but of most of it was still a blur. The last thing I fully remembered was leaving my house.

"Can we go? I just want to go back to sleep." He nodded and helped me out of bed. We walked downstairs where a pretty brunette was sitting on the couch. That must be the Kayla he spoke of. I think we went to school together but my head hurt to much to think.

"Thanks for letting him crash here Kayla." She got up and opened the door for us as Ash led me outside.

"No problem, I'm glad I could help." We said goodbye to her and got into Ash's car. He backed out and as we headed down the road, he looked angry.

"What the hell were you thinking?"

"I was angry and upset, I needed to clear my head."

"By getting drunk? Luke that is the dumbest possible thing you could do! You could've gotten yourself in a lot of trouble. And you scared the hell out of Rose and I."

"I'm sorry. This is all just so hard."

"You don't think it's hard for all of us. Rose has been through so much and now she feels even worse about everything she's done to you and you're just making it worse. She already suffers from depression, are you trying to kill her? Your poor mother is worried sick about you all the time. I don't think she's slept in months. Mikey and Calum are worried to be int eh same room with you because they don't want to set you off. And now you've put me in the middle of all of it. I love you but make up your fucking mind. Do you want Rose in your life or not?" The veins in his neck were popping out as he spoke which was a rare thing for Ash. He never got angry.

"I don't know what I fucking want! I still love her and I think I always will but I don't know how to forgive for leaving me and just cutting off contact from me. She should've told me what was going on instead of going behind my back. I just don't know how to get over everything. I don't know how to forgive somebody." I put my head in my hands, trying to make the awful pounding stop.

"I know this is hard but you have to decide want you want. Do you want Rose in your life enough to forgive her?" We were now pulling into my driveway.

"I don't know."

"You will eventually. Something will help you figure out what you want. Search deep down and decide how much Rose is worth." I nodded and got out of the car.

"Thanks Ash. I'll text you later."

"Good luck mate." I walked to my front door and went inside. Luckily my mom wasn't home so I wouldn't have to deal with her. I went up to my room and flopped onto the bed. I wanted to sleep but I knew I had a decision to make. I just didn't know how to make it.

I spotted the letters lying on the floor and I decided to start there. Maybe they would help me make up my mind on what I wanted. If I knew the whole story, maybe I could figure out what I want. I picked up the fourth letter and took a deep breathe. Hopefully they would help.

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I leaned back on my bed with a sigh. I had finished reading all the letter and I still had no decision. I rubbed my hands down my face in frustration. What the hell was I going to do? I got up and headed downstairs to grab a glass of water. I sat on the counter and tried to think of what to do.

Still with no clue of what to do, I head back up stairs. Before I could make it back to my room, there was a knock on the back door. I went to answer it, but no one was there. Then someone began to play a guitar. Standing out on my back porch was Rose holding my old guitar that I had given her years ago. I watched her from the doorway, frozen by surprise. She began to play but I made no effort to move.

"When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love"

"She looked so beautiful when she sang. She looked like she had found her sweet serenity. he voice was wonderful to listen to

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
But I will never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,
And I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret.
The winds of change are blowing wild and free,
You ain't seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love
To make you feel my love"

She stopped singing and I couldn't even help myself from running to her. I lifted her up in my arms and kissed her. My whole body felt like it was electric. Sparks were practically flying as her lips met mine. It's like the past nine months didn't happen. I didn't care what we had been through, all I wanted was her. This is the sign that I had been waiting for. I could feel it in my heart that this is what I wanted. I pulled away from her and rested my forehead on hers. I stared into her eyes and for once, I actually felt good.

"I love you so much." She whispered to me.

"I love you more." I kissed her again. My decision finally being made.

My mind was finally made up.

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