The Original Heartbreak Girl
Pretending
Luke's POV
I rolled over in bed and stared at the person lying beside me. She looked peaceful when she slept. I watched as her chest rose and fell with her breathing. I wish we could just stay like this forever. Our legs intertwined and her gripping my arm like she was afraid I was going to try and leave her in the middle of the night.
We had stuff today though, so I had to wake her. I gently shook her, trying not to startle her. She blinked a couple times and then her blue eyes were staring up at me a bit dazed. She yawned and curled up further into my chest. I laughed and pushed her away. She groaned and put a pillow over her head.
"No, it's time to get up." I grabbed the pillow from her and she gave me the puppy dog face.
"Just five more minutes."
"No, you have to get ready. Now get up." I pulled her up as she groaned about it being to early for this. I leaned in and kissed her. She smiled at me and got out of bed.
It had been almost a month since she had been back and things were finally getting back to normal with us. We still had talked out everything but we were working on it. There were moments where things got tense but we got through it. I realized I was happier with her than I would be without her.
"Would you like to join me?" She stuck her head out of the bathroom, interrupting my thoughts. I nodded and walked towards her, a huge smile on my face. This is how things were supposed to be between us but still something felt off. I shrugged off the feeling and headed into the bathroom.
"The love birds are finally here!" Ashton yelled as Rose and I walked into the studio. We were almost twenty minutes late because of our shower together. We had rushed as much as we could but we still couldn't make it on time.
"Sorry, my fault." Rose said, her cheeks turning pink. All the guys began to laugh at her embarrassment and it was cute to watch her reaction.
"Can we start recording? We still have that interview to do later and I would like to practice the song." I finally spoke him, trying to remove the focus from Rose. She looked at me gratefully and smiled.
"Yes master." Ashton bowed to me and pretended to act offended. We all walked into the studio while Rose sat down next to the sound guy. She had been watching us record all week but I felt suddenly nervous today. We had to record Amnesia, which she had already heard but it was was weird singing a song about her. Our final song to record was called If You Don't Know and it was also about her. Hopefully she would take it well.
"1,2,3..." Ashton counted us in for amnesia and we began to play. I could see Rose watching us with a smile on her face. I was so glad that she liked this song. Most girls would've probably hated it if it was about them.
We played through the song and we probably sounded the best we ever had. We were really meshing together as we played. Rose looked like she was truly enjoying it, which was reassuring it. We finished out the song, and the sound guy gave us the thumbs up.
"That was great guys. Now let's do the last track and then you're good to go." We all nodded and began to play. I sucked in a deep breathe and prayed that Rose would be okay.
"Tonight we're fading fast
I just wanna make this last
If I could say the things that I want to say,
I'd find a way to make you stay
I'd never let you get away
Catch you in all the games we've played"
I watched as Rose stared at me curiously. She had never heard or read this song so I'm sure she was confused. I had been hiding this from her because I was afraid of what she would think. it didn't exactly make her look like a good person.
"So go ahead, rip my heart out,
Show me what love's all about
Go ahead, rip my heart out
That's what love's all about
I want you to want me this way,
And I need you to need me to stay
If you say that you don't feel a thing
If you don't know, let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
If you don't know then just let me go"
She looked like I had slapped her and I felt my heart drop. That was the reaction that I didn't want her to have. I know the rip my heart out part was mean but it was how I felt when I wrote the song.
"Let's forget the past
I swear we'll make this last
'Cause I remember the taste of your skin tonight
And the way that you looked, you had those eyes
I remember the way it felt inside
And the name of the songs that made you cry
You would scream, we would fight, you would call me crazy
I would laugh, you were mad but you'd always kiss me
And the shirt that I had that you always borrowed
When I woke, it was gone
There was no tomorrow
I want you to want me this way,
And I need you to need me to stay
If you say that you don't feel a thing
If you don't know, let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
If you don't know then just let me go"
I could see that tears were now streaming down her face. I couldn't believe she was crying and that I was the one who had caused it.
"Go ahead, rip my heart out,
If you think that's what love's all about
Go ahead, rip my heart out
Go ahead, rip my heart out
Go ahead, rip my heart out,
If you think that's what love's all about
Go ahead, rip my heart out
Go ahead, rip my heart out
I want you to want me this way,
And I need you to need me to stay
If you say that you don't feel a thing
If you don't know, let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
If you don't know then just let me go"
She got up and ran out of the room before we finished out the last note of the song. It felt like I had just swallowed a mouthful of glass.. I felt horrible. We finally finished the song and I set my guitar down and ran out of the room after her. I sprinted down the hallway, panicking about where she went. I finally found her sitting on the ground sobbing at the end of the hallway.
"Rosie, are you okay?" I bent down in front of her and looked at her tear streaked face.
"Did I really rip your heart out? Do you think that's what I think love is?"
"Of course not, it's just how I felt. You know how it is when you write a song, you just base it off of emotion. I write that a couple months ago when I was really broken."
"I know it just hurt to hear what you once felt about me. I'm sorry. I'm being ridiculous." She wiped at her eyes and smiled at me. I leaned in and kissed her on the lips and then the nose.
"I love you silly."
"I love you too goober." She looked happy again and I helped her up. We headed back towards the studio. The boys were sitting on a couch, waiting for us. Ashton looked concerned while Mikey and Cal looked clueless as always.
"Finally, we have to head to Sirius XM to perform." Ashton said as he got up and headed out the door. We all followed him, Rosie still gripping my hand as we walked. We made our way through the paparazzi to get to our car. Rose was squeezing my hand so hard that I was losing feeling in it. Lately she had hated going through the paps and even dealing with them. We got into the car and she sighed and released my hand.
"You okay?" I asked while I flexed my hand, trying to get feeling back in my hand.
"Yeah, I just hate dealing with them. They make me nervous."
"I know." I felt the same way about the paps at the very beginning. I was just now getting used to them. I kissed her on the forehead and wrapped my arm around her.
"Are you two nervous to sing this song live for the first?" Ashton turned around from the front seat to talk to Luke and I.
"A little, but we'll be fine." Rose answered confidently but her eyes betrayed what she said. I could tell she was a little freaked out to be singing today. Ashton and her began to chat about something so I decided to check out twitter. I began scrolling down until something caught my attention.
One Direction spotted in the Sidney airport today. Tomorrow kicks off the Australian leg of the tour.
Ugh, I forgot they were coming to Australia this month. I was hoping that I'd never have to see them again but we were doing the Australian part of the tour with them. I pressed the home button, ridding my phone of the image of their faces. We stopped in front of the radio station and everyone got out. I hesitated for a moment and Rosie noticed me lingering behind.
"Luke, what's wrong?" Her bright blue eyes were filled with concern.
"Nothing, I was just thinking." I grabbed her hand and followed the boys inside. We walked into a room and the studio supervisor prepared us and told us what to do. We put our ear pieces in and headed out to the small stage.
"Hello Sidney, we're 5 Seconds of Summer! Thanks for being here to support us today. We have a brand new song to perform for you today." Ashton spoke and the fans immediately broke out into screams. I smiled as I looked into the crowd of excited looking girls.
"Joining us on this brand new song is our good friend Rosalina Miller." Mikey announced and the fans erupted into cheers. I looked over and was relieved to see that she was smiling now.
We began to play and I took a deep breathe to try and calm myself. I watched out of the corner of my eyes as Rose closed her eyes. I prepared myself to sing our song live, for the first time.
"Face to face and heart to heart
We're so close yet so far apart
I close my eyes I look away
That's just because I'm not okay
But I hold on, I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong"
I couldn't keep my eyes off of Rose as she sang. I turned to the fans and saw them watching her too. She was mesmerizing when she sang.
"Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have our happy ending?
Or will we forever only be pretending?
Will we always, always, always be pretending
How long do I fantasize
Make believe that it's still alive
Imagine that I am good enough
And we can choose the ones we love
But I hold on, I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong,"
I watched as some fans looked like they were getting into the song. Most of them were smiling excitedly. I looked back at Rose to see her smiling in delight.
"Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have our happy ending?
Or will we forever only be pretending?
Will we always, always, always be
Keeping secrets safe
Every move we make
Seems like no ones letting go
And it's such a shame
Cause if you feel the same
How am I supposed to know?
Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have our happy ending?
Or will we forever only be pretending?
Will we always, always, always be
Will we always, always, always be
Will we always, always, always be pretending?"
Most of the fans sang the chorus along with us which was pretty exciting. Rosie was practically beaming by this point. We finished playing and the audience burst into screams. I huge smile was playing across my face now. I was so happy that they liked it. Ashton thanked them and we walked off.
"They actually liked it!" Rosie screamed as she pulled me into a hug.
"Of course they did." I kissed her and pulled away just to stare into her gorgeous eyes.
"That was wonderful Rose. You're a brilliant writer." An all too familiar British voice said from behind me. I felt my smile turn into a grimace as soon as I heard the voice. I didn't want to turn around to confirm what I already knew.
Harry Styles was back in my life.
I rolled over in bed and stared at the person lying beside me. She looked peaceful when she slept. I watched as her chest rose and fell with her breathing. I wish we could just stay like this forever. Our legs intertwined and her gripping my arm like she was afraid I was going to try and leave her in the middle of the night.
We had stuff today though, so I had to wake her. I gently shook her, trying not to startle her. She blinked a couple times and then her blue eyes were staring up at me a bit dazed. She yawned and curled up further into my chest. I laughed and pushed her away. She groaned and put a pillow over her head.
"No, it's time to get up." I grabbed the pillow from her and she gave me the puppy dog face.
"Just five more minutes."
"No, you have to get ready. Now get up." I pulled her up as she groaned about it being to early for this. I leaned in and kissed her. She smiled at me and got out of bed.
It had been almost a month since she had been back and things were finally getting back to normal with us. We still had talked out everything but we were working on it. There were moments where things got tense but we got through it. I realized I was happier with her than I would be without her.
"Would you like to join me?" She stuck her head out of the bathroom, interrupting my thoughts. I nodded and walked towards her, a huge smile on my face. This is how things were supposed to be between us but still something felt off. I shrugged off the feeling and headed into the bathroom.
"The love birds are finally here!" Ashton yelled as Rose and I walked into the studio. We were almost twenty minutes late because of our shower together. We had rushed as much as we could but we still couldn't make it on time.
"Sorry, my fault." Rose said, her cheeks turning pink. All the guys began to laugh at her embarrassment and it was cute to watch her reaction.
"Can we start recording? We still have that interview to do later and I would like to practice the song." I finally spoke him, trying to remove the focus from Rose. She looked at me gratefully and smiled.
"Yes master." Ashton bowed to me and pretended to act offended. We all walked into the studio while Rose sat down next to the sound guy. She had been watching us record all week but I felt suddenly nervous today. We had to record Amnesia, which she had already heard but it was was weird singing a song about her. Our final song to record was called If You Don't Know and it was also about her. Hopefully she would take it well.
"1,2,3..." Ashton counted us in for amnesia and we began to play. I could see Rose watching us with a smile on her face. I was so glad that she liked this song. Most girls would've probably hated it if it was about them.
We played through the song and we probably sounded the best we ever had. We were really meshing together as we played. Rose looked like she was truly enjoying it, which was reassuring it. We finished out the song, and the sound guy gave us the thumbs up.
"That was great guys. Now let's do the last track and then you're good to go." We all nodded and began to play. I sucked in a deep breathe and prayed that Rose would be okay.
"Tonight we're fading fast
I just wanna make this last
If I could say the things that I want to say,
I'd find a way to make you stay
I'd never let you get away
Catch you in all the games we've played"
I watched as Rose stared at me curiously. She had never heard or read this song so I'm sure she was confused. I had been hiding this from her because I was afraid of what she would think. it didn't exactly make her look like a good person.
"So go ahead, rip my heart out,
Show me what love's all about
Go ahead, rip my heart out
That's what love's all about
I want you to want me this way,
And I need you to need me to stay
If you say that you don't feel a thing
If you don't know, let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
If you don't know then just let me go"
She looked like I had slapped her and I felt my heart drop. That was the reaction that I didn't want her to have. I know the rip my heart out part was mean but it was how I felt when I wrote the song.
"Let's forget the past
I swear we'll make this last
'Cause I remember the taste of your skin tonight
And the way that you looked, you had those eyes
I remember the way it felt inside
And the name of the songs that made you cry
You would scream, we would fight, you would call me crazy
I would laugh, you were mad but you'd always kiss me
And the shirt that I had that you always borrowed
When I woke, it was gone
There was no tomorrow
I want you to want me this way,
And I need you to need me to stay
If you say that you don't feel a thing
If you don't know, let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
If you don't know then just let me go"
I could see that tears were now streaming down her face. I couldn't believe she was crying and that I was the one who had caused it.
"Go ahead, rip my heart out,
If you think that's what love's all about
Go ahead, rip my heart out
Go ahead, rip my heart out
Go ahead, rip my heart out,
If you think that's what love's all about
Go ahead, rip my heart out
Go ahead, rip my heart out
I want you to want me this way,
And I need you to need me to stay
If you say that you don't feel a thing
If you don't know, let me go, let me go, let me go, let me go
If you don't know then just let me go"
She got up and ran out of the room before we finished out the last note of the song. It felt like I had just swallowed a mouthful of glass.. I felt horrible. We finally finished the song and I set my guitar down and ran out of the room after her. I sprinted down the hallway, panicking about where she went. I finally found her sitting on the ground sobbing at the end of the hallway.
"Rosie, are you okay?" I bent down in front of her and looked at her tear streaked face.
"Did I really rip your heart out? Do you think that's what I think love is?"
"Of course not, it's just how I felt. You know how it is when you write a song, you just base it off of emotion. I write that a couple months ago when I was really broken."
"I know it just hurt to hear what you once felt about me. I'm sorry. I'm being ridiculous." She wiped at her eyes and smiled at me. I leaned in and kissed her on the lips and then the nose.
"I love you silly."
"I love you too goober." She looked happy again and I helped her up. We headed back towards the studio. The boys were sitting on a couch, waiting for us. Ashton looked concerned while Mikey and Cal looked clueless as always.
"Finally, we have to head to Sirius XM to perform." Ashton said as he got up and headed out the door. We all followed him, Rosie still gripping my hand as we walked. We made our way through the paparazzi to get to our car. Rose was squeezing my hand so hard that I was losing feeling in it. Lately she had hated going through the paps and even dealing with them. We got into the car and she sighed and released my hand.
"You okay?" I asked while I flexed my hand, trying to get feeling back in my hand.
"Yeah, I just hate dealing with them. They make me nervous."
"I know." I felt the same way about the paps at the very beginning. I was just now getting used to them. I kissed her on the forehead and wrapped my arm around her.
"Are you two nervous to sing this song live for the first?" Ashton turned around from the front seat to talk to Luke and I.
"A little, but we'll be fine." Rose answered confidently but her eyes betrayed what she said. I could tell she was a little freaked out to be singing today. Ashton and her began to chat about something so I decided to check out twitter. I began scrolling down until something caught my attention.
One Direction spotted in the Sidney airport today. Tomorrow kicks off the Australian leg of the tour.
Ugh, I forgot they were coming to Australia this month. I was hoping that I'd never have to see them again but we were doing the Australian part of the tour with them. I pressed the home button, ridding my phone of the image of their faces. We stopped in front of the radio station and everyone got out. I hesitated for a moment and Rosie noticed me lingering behind.
"Luke, what's wrong?" Her bright blue eyes were filled with concern.
"Nothing, I was just thinking." I grabbed her hand and followed the boys inside. We walked into a room and the studio supervisor prepared us and told us what to do. We put our ear pieces in and headed out to the small stage.
"Hello Sidney, we're 5 Seconds of Summer! Thanks for being here to support us today. We have a brand new song to perform for you today." Ashton spoke and the fans immediately broke out into screams. I smiled as I looked into the crowd of excited looking girls.
"Joining us on this brand new song is our good friend Rosalina Miller." Mikey announced and the fans erupted into cheers. I looked over and was relieved to see that she was smiling now.
We began to play and I took a deep breathe to try and calm myself. I watched out of the corner of my eyes as Rose closed her eyes. I prepared myself to sing our song live, for the first time.
"Face to face and heart to heart
We're so close yet so far apart
I close my eyes I look away
That's just because I'm not okay
But I hold on, I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong"
I couldn't keep my eyes off of Rose as she sang. I turned to the fans and saw them watching her too. She was mesmerizing when she sang.
"Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have our happy ending?
Or will we forever only be pretending?
Will we always, always, always be pretending
How long do I fantasize
Make believe that it's still alive
Imagine that I am good enough
And we can choose the ones we love
But I hold on, I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong,"
I watched as some fans looked like they were getting into the song. Most of them were smiling excitedly. I looked back at Rose to see her smiling in delight.
"Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have our happy ending?
Or will we forever only be pretending?
Will we always, always, always be
Keeping secrets safe
Every move we make
Seems like no ones letting go
And it's such a shame
Cause if you feel the same
How am I supposed to know?
Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have our happy ending?
Or will we forever only be pretending?
Will we always, always, always be
Will we always, always, always be
Will we always, always, always be pretending?"
Most of the fans sang the chorus along with us which was pretty exciting. Rosie was practically beaming by this point. We finished playing and the audience burst into screams. I huge smile was playing across my face now. I was so happy that they liked it. Ashton thanked them and we walked off.
"They actually liked it!" Rosie screamed as she pulled me into a hug.
"Of course they did." I kissed her and pulled away just to stare into her gorgeous eyes.
"That was wonderful Rose. You're a brilliant writer." An all too familiar British voice said from behind me. I felt my smile turn into a grimace as soon as I heard the voice. I didn't want to turn around to confirm what I already knew.
Harry Styles was back in my life.
@Minnie Mouse the sequels name is End Up Here and hopefully I'll have the first chapter done soon!
10/15/14