I will Love You Like I've never been Hurt (aka :Beating Heart)
ch5
Suzy P.O.V
After I left the cab and that dickhead , I took another cab and headed to the college to ask about when my study will begin and was told that there's still a week . I also asked if there's any fees and they told me it was already paid .
But there was something that I still had to take care of : " my daily living expenses " including of course finding a place to live and pay for it.
it's my first time here , I know nothing and I don't know how to manage it .I exited the college office and was beyond overwhelmed , How can I do this ?
I was getting down the staircase slowly because my leg hurts so much , when someone ran into me .
I was going to fall but I quickly clung to the rail , my leg hurting like hell now . I really should have headed to any hospital and check on it instead of coming here first.
"really what's wrong with everyone today running into me ? " I asked madly my eyes watering from the extreme pain , I'm so not going to let that go.
"um I-I'm s-sorry I didn't see you" the girl that hit me rambled quickly helping me to stand again
"yeah of course you didn't" I said rolling my eyes
But when I looked at her face she was crying hard may be she was sincere about not seeing me , sure her vision was blurred because of the crying .
Seeing her crying removed any desire to fight inside me , somehow I hated seeing her like that .
she seemed nice helping me on the contrary of that dickhead from before at the airport who stayed still and just made me run despite my condition .
Remembering him made me uneasy , my first day here was so unexpected .
My leg got twisted and was chased by some crazy people .
also those camera's flashes made me remember unwanted memories
And when that stupid dickhead hugged me he FREAKING HUGGED ME , no one has ever done this except only one , my dad .
"oh my god your leg is swelled " She gasped snapping me from my thoughts.
"I-I'm really sorry" she continued crying.
"hey it's OK it wasn't you who got it like that" I admitted to make her stop crying
"no , it's my fault . But don't worry I'll take care of that, come on I will take you to see a doctor " she insisted pulling me up carefully
we headed to a nearby clinic .There were many patients and obviously I did have nothing to do , so I didn't mind waiting .
" here , I thought you will be thirsty and need a drink " she smiled handing me a bottle of mango juice .
I gazed at her for a second , no one has ever been so nice to me like that for a long time And when did she go and buy it ? I didn't notice her absence at all .
" oh you don't like mango juice ? I'm sorry ... I can buy you another one " she said worried and quickly stood up to go but I stopped her
" no it's just ..... um it's my favorite thanks" I assured her.
" It's my favorite too , I'm Ji-eun by the way" she smiled at me
(that girl really smiles a lot , I'm not saying it as a bad thing actually it makes her look cuter .
it's just a few moments ago I saw her crying hard , it looked like something seriously bad happened to her . whatever the reason was , how could she just act like nothing happened to her )
"I'm Suzy" I said smiling too .
It has been a long time since the last time I smiled , but I thought it will look rude if I returned her kindness with a complete ignorance .
("you mean as you did with the boy from before?" a small voice inside me spoke but I just ignored it).
we talked a little , well I didn't want to talk but somehow I had to reply her questions .
"I'm 19 years old, I live here with my dad and my little brother and my step mother , but most of time I and my brother live with my grandma" She told me about her family
I knew exactly what she was trying to do . She was opening up to me , to make me talk to her and do the same . TELL HER ABOUT MY FAMILY !!
Hell NO , this is exactly the last thing I would like to talk about , And with a stranger ? No Way .
I looked around me . There were still a lot of people , Shit I can't escape from it .
"you're carrying a suitcase . you're not from here ?" she asked tilting her head referring to my suitcase
"No . I'm a Korean" I replied shortly
"oh you're from Korea ? " she asked her eyes widen in astonishment
("Wow she is really smart " I wanted to sarcasm badly , but I decided to just drop it)
"I'm a Korean too . I was born in Korea but My dad had a good opportunity here to continue his career , so we settled here when I was 10 . He is a doctor, he lectures in Imperial college . though we left when I was young , but I remember some of my childhood memories there .and I miss these memories " she continued in excitement and all I could do was just nodding
"It must have been hard for you and your family … you know to let you come here alone , I wanted to go study in New York but my dad was so stern about it " she rolled her eyes
"um actually . I'm orphan so it was not that difficult " I muttered slowly .
I KNOW . I lied but don't judge me , It was the only way to shut her up and close this subject for now and forever. Plus it's a lot easier and better than telling her that it wasn't hard for my mom cause she abandoned me when I was a child , and not for my dad whom I then discovered is not my biological dad cause he did apply me himself here to stay away from him .
So practically I didn't lie , for me I'm orphan .
"I- I'm sorry" ji-eun stuttered patting my hand and her eyes were a little watery , why does she ?
the nurse called my name so I went inside and Ji-eun insisted to accompany me .
"your leg was injured before , right? " the doctor asked me as he was examining my leg
"y-yes" I answered him as I remembered that day when my mom caused it when she was leaving us
"why ? something wrong ?" Ji-eun worriedly asked the doctor before I could ask
"No ... but I'm afraid that it may cause some trouble if it was injured hard again " the doctor furrowed his eyebrows
"but for now you should rest and take these medicine and you will be OK , don't worry" he continued smiling handing me the Prescription
we thanked him and he then chatted with Ji-eun for moments about her dad whom (from what I understood) is the doctor's close friend .
we then left the clinic and she helped me to walk letting me lean on her
"um I have to go now , thanks for everything" I thanked her and was ready to stop a cab but she stopped me
"where do you think you are going ? " she asked furrowing her eyebrows
"um I don't know , I guess I'll ask the driver about any cheap hotel till I find a suitable place " I shrugged
"No Way, you are coming with me " she said shaking her head
"what ?" I asked not getting what's in her mind
"you said yourself , you'll search for a place to live , guess what ? I have one . you'll live with me and my brother … oh my god grandma is really gonna love you " she exclaimed jumping leaving my mouth opened unable to take in all of this
"come on" she said pulling my hand and pushed me cautiously inside the cab she just stopped
She then told the driver where to go , and I was still stoned .
should I freak out ? am I kidnapped or what ?
according to my status right now I can't beat her , I wanted to open the cab's door and jump but the doctor said any hurt in my legs and it'll lead to troubles , I can't risk it .
I have some trust issues if you don't remember , And all of this is killing me
"here we are" she smiled referring to the house
"it has a pool too" she nudged me and winked
the house looked old but also classy , simply it was so beautiful .
I loved it but something was odd , deep inside there was a voice told me to run away
ji eun outfit
the house
After I left the cab and that dickhead , I took another cab and headed to the college to ask about when my study will begin and was told that there's still a week . I also asked if there's any fees and they told me it was already paid .
But there was something that I still had to take care of : " my daily living expenses " including of course finding a place to live and pay for it.
it's my first time here , I know nothing and I don't know how to manage it .I exited the college office and was beyond overwhelmed , How can I do this ?
I was getting down the staircase slowly because my leg hurts so much , when someone ran into me .
I was going to fall but I quickly clung to the rail , my leg hurting like hell now . I really should have headed to any hospital and check on it instead of coming here first.
"really what's wrong with everyone today running into me ? " I asked madly my eyes watering from the extreme pain , I'm so not going to let that go.
"um I-I'm s-sorry I didn't see you" the girl that hit me rambled quickly helping me to stand again
"yeah of course you didn't" I said rolling my eyes
But when I looked at her face she was crying hard may be she was sincere about not seeing me , sure her vision was blurred because of the crying .
Seeing her crying removed any desire to fight inside me , somehow I hated seeing her like that .
she seemed nice helping me on the contrary of that dickhead from before at the airport who stayed still and just made me run despite my condition .
Remembering him made me uneasy , my first day here was so unexpected .
My leg got twisted and was chased by some crazy people .
also those camera's flashes made me remember unwanted memories
And when that stupid dickhead hugged me he FREAKING HUGGED ME , no one has ever done this except only one , my dad .
"oh my god your leg is swelled " She gasped snapping me from my thoughts.
"I-I'm really sorry" she continued crying.
"hey it's OK it wasn't you who got it like that" I admitted to make her stop crying
"no , it's my fault . But don't worry I'll take care of that, come on I will take you to see a doctor " she insisted pulling me up carefully
we headed to a nearby clinic .There were many patients and obviously I did have nothing to do , so I didn't mind waiting .
" here , I thought you will be thirsty and need a drink " she smiled handing me a bottle of mango juice .
I gazed at her for a second , no one has ever been so nice to me like that for a long time And when did she go and buy it ? I didn't notice her absence at all .
" oh you don't like mango juice ? I'm sorry ... I can buy you another one " she said worried and quickly stood up to go but I stopped her
" no it's just ..... um it's my favorite thanks" I assured her.
" It's my favorite too , I'm Ji-eun by the way" she smiled at me
(that girl really smiles a lot , I'm not saying it as a bad thing actually it makes her look cuter .
it's just a few moments ago I saw her crying hard , it looked like something seriously bad happened to her . whatever the reason was , how could she just act like nothing happened to her )
"I'm Suzy" I said smiling too .
It has been a long time since the last time I smiled , but I thought it will look rude if I returned her kindness with a complete ignorance .
("you mean as you did with the boy from before?" a small voice inside me spoke but I just ignored it).
we talked a little , well I didn't want to talk but somehow I had to reply her questions .
"I'm 19 years old, I live here with my dad and my little brother and my step mother , but most of time I and my brother live with my grandma" She told me about her family
I knew exactly what she was trying to do . She was opening up to me , to make me talk to her and do the same . TELL HER ABOUT MY FAMILY !!
Hell NO , this is exactly the last thing I would like to talk about , And with a stranger ? No Way .
I looked around me . There were still a lot of people , Shit I can't escape from it .
"you're carrying a suitcase . you're not from here ?" she asked tilting her head referring to my suitcase
"No . I'm a Korean" I replied shortly
"oh you're from Korea ? " she asked her eyes widen in astonishment
("Wow she is really smart " I wanted to sarcasm badly , but I decided to just drop it)
"I'm a Korean too . I was born in Korea but My dad had a good opportunity here to continue his career , so we settled here when I was 10 . He is a doctor, he lectures in Imperial college . though we left when I was young , but I remember some of my childhood memories there .and I miss these memories " she continued in excitement and all I could do was just nodding
"It must have been hard for you and your family … you know to let you come here alone , I wanted to go study in New York but my dad was so stern about it " she rolled her eyes
"um actually . I'm orphan so it was not that difficult " I muttered slowly .
I KNOW . I lied but don't judge me , It was the only way to shut her up and close this subject for now and forever. Plus it's a lot easier and better than telling her that it wasn't hard for my mom cause she abandoned me when I was a child , and not for my dad whom I then discovered is not my biological dad cause he did apply me himself here to stay away from him .
So practically I didn't lie , for me I'm orphan .
"I- I'm sorry" ji-eun stuttered patting my hand and her eyes were a little watery , why does she ?
the nurse called my name so I went inside and Ji-eun insisted to accompany me .
"your leg was injured before , right? " the doctor asked me as he was examining my leg
"y-yes" I answered him as I remembered that day when my mom caused it when she was leaving us
"why ? something wrong ?" Ji-eun worriedly asked the doctor before I could ask
"No ... but I'm afraid that it may cause some trouble if it was injured hard again " the doctor furrowed his eyebrows
"but for now you should rest and take these medicine and you will be OK , don't worry" he continued smiling handing me the Prescription
we thanked him and he then chatted with Ji-eun for moments about her dad whom (from what I understood) is the doctor's close friend .
we then left the clinic and she helped me to walk letting me lean on her
"um I have to go now , thanks for everything" I thanked her and was ready to stop a cab but she stopped me
"where do you think you are going ? " she asked furrowing her eyebrows
"um I don't know , I guess I'll ask the driver about any cheap hotel till I find a suitable place " I shrugged
"No Way, you are coming with me " she said shaking her head
"what ?" I asked not getting what's in her mind
"you said yourself , you'll search for a place to live , guess what ? I have one . you'll live with me and my brother … oh my god grandma is really gonna love you " she exclaimed jumping leaving my mouth opened unable to take in all of this
"come on" she said pulling my hand and pushed me cautiously inside the cab she just stopped
She then told the driver where to go , and I was still stoned .
should I freak out ? am I kidnapped or what ?
according to my status right now I can't beat her , I wanted to open the cab's door and jump but the doctor said any hurt in my legs and it'll lead to troubles , I can't risk it .
I have some trust issues if you don't remember , And all of this is killing me
"here we are" she smiled referring to the house
"it has a pool too" she nudged me and winked
the house looked old but also classy , simply it was so beautiful .
I loved it but something was odd , deep inside there was a voice told me to run away
ji eun outfit
the house
Notes
hi , a new chapter :D
enjoy it ;)
