I will Love You Like I've never been Hurt (aka :Beating Heart)

My body feels numb and my head hurts a lot , I tried to open my eyes but all my attempts didn't work ……..
"suzy … suzy can you hear me ?" voices echoed around me but it was fainted and unrecognizable for me and I was still in huge pain , my muscles aren't responding to my brain so I didn't care about replying and drifted to sleep again
I felt the need to pee , I tried this time to open my eyes and to my surprise it responded this time , my vision was bleary
"Oh you're finally awake … I have to go and tell the doctor" a middle age girl said in a hurry and exited herself from the room before I could ask her anything
I slowly stepped out the bed , my legs feeling wobbly , how long have I been here ?
I felt scared as I was scanning the room and the bed I was laying on few seconds ago ,where am I ? Why the hell I'm here ? but for now I really want to pee .
"oh here you are … I'm sungmin your doctor" a tall man in his thirties wearing a white coat smiled at me as I was exiting the bathroom which was attached to the room
I almost stumbled but He hurried to my side helping me to my bed
"where am I ?" I felt the dumbness of the question it was quite obvious that I'm in the hospital but my head isn't working well I guess
"you are in Seoul National University Hospital" he answered seeming surprised by my question
"why am I here ? where's my dad ? I want my dad " my voice was trembling , I was scared I wanted my dad
"w-wait a second you don't remember why you are here ?"The doctor asked narrowing his eyes , I shocked my head
"the last thing I remember is the seashore where I was waiting for my dad … now can you please let me see my dad ? is he outside ?" I asked impatiently and the doctor seemed shocked by my questions and his eyes widen
"Oh my God , wait a second i have to go " he mumbled before quickly exiting the room
And suddenly my head was bounding with pain with blurred things that I couldn't sort out , all what I could manage to sort was my dad's voice
"bye princess , I'll always watch you from afar " and then my eyes shut again
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I was now preparing my suitcase in my room I held the necklace he gave me and tears was building in my eyes
" are you ready ?" my grandmother asked in harshness from the door
"y-yeah grand- mm Madame " I answered giving her my back and preventing my tears from falling
"good , once you are ready come downstairs the lawyer wants to talk to you" she said and banged the door after her
I heaved my breathes becoming uneven as I was looking at every little detail in my room for the last time as flashbacks replayed again
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I was restrained in the hospital for 4 days since I'm awake , but they say I have been in a coma for 3 days so I should be here for a week . but something is odd , I'm sure it's not the same room I have been the first time I was awake .
The door cracked and I lifted my head to see who it was and to my surprise it was my grandmother .
the last time I have seen her was 2 years ago in our old house . she had a big fight with dad back then , I didn't ask him about it cause I knew well that she never loved my mom for what she did to her only son .
And I guessed she didn't love me too cause she never talked to me not even saying " hi " when she visited.
"grandma ?!! why are you here ? where is my dad ? I wanna see my dad" I panicked
she said nothing just scoffed at me "YOUR dad ? do you even know who is your dad ?" she glared at me in disgust
"w-what are you talking about ?" I asked confused
"come on girl you have been like that for a week now, OMO you are so pathetic , why can't you just accept the truth and leave me and my son alone for god sake ?" she screamed
"I want my dad" I began crying , I was scared
"do you mean my son ?" she narrowed her eyes and I nodded
"for the thousand time he isn't YOUR dad , why can't you accept it ? go ask your mom where your real dad is "
"w-what do you mean ?" my body was shaking in violence WHAT THE HELL DOES SHE MEAN ?

"do you really think pretending that you don't remember what happened will make my son comeback again for you and want you ? HE IS DONE with you and your games , he grew you up cause he was a kind man who didn't want to throw you in streets or orphans after your shameless mother runaway , she even told him that she hates you and she doesn't care about what he will do to you after she leave "
she looked at me in sympathy and I couldn't say a word so she continued
"he told me that he will grow you up till you are old enough to depend on yourself and when you are ready to the college , that's why he told you all this that day after the competition in your 18th birthday , but you refused to accept all of that and kept screaming and crying and you ended here , but guess what ? he is done with you and your mom and doesn't want to see you face again"she ended her shouting and smirked
"YOU ARE LYING" I screamed covering my ears not believing all this shit
"then what is this ?" she threw papers in my face
I looked at them , the first was a DNA test saying that he's not my biological dad which made my heart sunk
The second paper was from Imperial College London university saying that I'm accepted in its Faculty of Medicine
And the third was my passport and the ticket saying my flight is tomorrow 9 am .

"I didn't apply for this College , it's not true . that proves you are lying "I protested
"it was my son , he paid for your study there a lot of money cause he wanted to make sure you are continuing your life away from us " she replied back in harshness
I was left in daze but to my surprise I stopped crying . I felt like dying , I wished I could . my little world was collapsing and destroyed but I didn't cry , not in front of her and even when she left .it was all unbelievable .
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I exited my room and walked downstairs to our hall where there was grandma and a man she introduced as her family's lawyer , he wanted me to sign some papers when I asked what was in them he said it guarantees my dad that I'll keep away from him and never come back to korea , that made me in more pain
"SO ?" the layer snapped me from my thoughts waiting impatiently for me to sign
"I'm not doing this signing shit, tell da- Mr.Bae Wan-young not to worry about it I'll never disturb or cause any problem for him or his family … He has my word" I said in a monotone trying hard not to let my voice break or let my watered eyes to weep though every word shattered my heart
"a-and c-can you tell him that I'm thankful for everything and sorry for every second I caused him trouble or disappointed him …. That I really didn't mean any harm , and I'll never forget him or forget how he broke my heart, I just wanted to see him for the last time…. But I'm still thankful " I whimpered stuttering
I sat up and grabbed my suitcase exiting the house and headed to the cab without looking back
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I was now in the airport heading to my flight , I thought that I heard someone call my name . I thought it was maybe my dad and he wanted to see me for probably the last time but when I looked around I didn't see him , so I headed to my flight gate .
And for the last time I looked from the plane window beside my seat still wishing that it's just a nightmare , so I quickly closed my eyes hoping to wake up soon .


"OMMA pleeeeease don't go pleeease d-don't leave me" I cried my body is trembling
"LET ME GO" my mom screamed at me and pushed me hard , my body hit the doorway ground and my leg began bleeding , I was scared of the view of the blood
I looked at her but she looked me furiously and said "I HATE YOU , you are just a mistake , I wish you died " I broke in tears and my dad came running to me lifting me from the ground crying from the sight of me , he looked at my mom in anger
"did you need to do that to her ?" he hissed
"why do you even care ? she isn't yours anyway … just throw her , I don't care .I hate both of you" she ran to the car waiting for her and my dad ran lifting me to the nearby hospital
As my hurt was treated he kept patting my back to comfort me
"appa why my mom left me ? she said she hates me … do you hate me appa ? will you leave me ?" I asked crying again
he shook his head "never princess , not in a million years …b-but will you leave me?"he asked crying too
and it was my turn to shook my head "no appa I love you ….. pinky promise ?" I asked cutely wiping my tears with the back of my hand
"pinky promise princess , you have my word" he smiled at me his eyes still watering so I hugged him tightly.


"miss are you OK ?"I was awaken by the air hostess
"y-yeah "
"you were crying hard , and your body was shaking are you sure you OK ?"
"yeah , it's just a bad dream"
"OK , well we already arrived few minutes ago . Welcome to London " she smiled at me but I couldn't smile back just nodded

I headed to the airport's bathroom to wash my swollen face from the crying , I wasn't the one who uses makeup I stopped using it since I stopped covering my punched face from being bullied . but I needed to cover my swollen eyes so I wore my sun glasses to avoid people's obtrusion.

I heard some high bitched screams but I didn't look around just headed to the hall then to the gateway , someone passed me hitting my shoulder he mumbled a quick "sorry " but didn't look back , I didn't object though
I looked down and saw that he dropped a small bag . and from the look of it, it looked really expensive I lifted it and looked a head and I could spot him

"2 seconds" consensual I quickly calculated the needed time to catch up to him before he could exit the gateway and find a taxi
I ran to him really fast but when I came closed he looked panicked and ran too
"shit , its gonna take more than that" I mumbled but I speeded
"yaaah stop there , I wanna talk to you" I called out to him but he speeded more
"leave me alone , for god's sake " he shouted , I rolled my eyes . he looks like a thief who thinks I found out about him and running away
I finally caught him but I was running too fast and he was running too so I crashed to him but somehow it ended with him on top of me
"WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU ?" he almost screamed at me still on top of me , I winced from pain
"YOU DICKHEAD I JUST WANTED TO GIVE YOU YOUR BAG BACK YOU DROPPED IT " I yelled still in pain and looked at his bag that was laying in my hand beside us he followed my eyes. I also noticed that my sunglasses were broken beside me too
"OH … I-I'm so sorry , I thought you you're a stalker " he seemed uneasy but he smiled showing his dimples , it made me remember my dad's dimples and that made me more angry
I rolled my eyes "can you please move away from me now ?" I asked impatiently
"oh O-OK " he said quickly moving and my body felt cold and more in pain I winced again
"are you ok ?" he asked worried , I didn't answer him so he bent down and held my leg checking my leg , I glared at him but he seemed concentrated
"I think it got twisted " he furrowed his eyebrows
but lift his head and smiled "don't worry it'll be OK , I'm harry but maybe you already kno.."
I cut him off "who the hell do you think you are ? move your hands away from me" I hissed glaring at him and he was dumbfounded as if he got thunderstruck

Notes

it's chapter 3 yeees :D
this chapter really broke my heart , I actually cried while writing it ... Specially the nightmare :(

AND HARRY FIRST APPEARANCE :D :D
I hope you like it ^_^