Suicidal.

My fingers laced with his. I pulled him closer to me. I couldn't let him go. I had to keep him he's all I have I love him with everything's have. Every bone in my body wanted him. Louis was my love I gave him everything.
Louis pulled away breathless. Leaning his forehead against mine breathing heavily.
"Lou... " he cuts me off
"Harry all we have is now... Please just kiss me"
That's all he had to say. I leaned in to close the space between us again.
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We stayed there all day. We stayed in his apartment all day. We cuddled and cried. We hugged and kissed and said goodby multiple and numerous times. We watched movies just like old times. But when it finally can time to say for the very last time that one last final goodbye then it all became real for me.
This was the last time, today was it every memory we ever shared we have to pretend it didn't happen. We had to say goodbye. We have to tear the bond we made for about 3 months. I walked towards the door in shame and turned to him.
"I'll see you for rehearsal Lou..."
"Bye Harry... Yeah see you tomorrow"
I left. Somewhere in my heart I knew I couldn't see him with her I had to do it. I'm doing it I live alone now he can't stop me. I live to far away anyway.

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