Through the Dark

My mind is running with all these crazy thoughts. Is Zayn in a relationship? Is he cheating on her? On me? Sitting on my bed my head starts spinning and the tears start coming. Sobbing like a kid who just got spanked, I fall in bed and cry myself to sleep. Waking up the next morning I hope last night was just a bad dream. Taking my computer and opening it, I can see the search page at the same spot. Right where I left it. Doing tons of reading that morning, I get all the facts. Except his.

Feeling like Bella from New Moon I just sit there thinking about this past week. Wasting my last day in L.A. it’s almost 3, my flight back home to Denver boards at 4:30. Packing up my things I don’t bother to take a shower or get ready. I say my good byes to Jeremy and Hanna, who offer to take me to the airport. Sitting in the back I have nothing to say, 15 minutes later we pull up and I jump on the plane. Landing in my hometown I can’t wait to get home. To see my best friend and roommate in person, is all I need.

Once home I jump on Debbie and tell her my story. About the boys, the radio station, Luke, and Zayn. The Google search set her off, oh was she mad at him.

“What? Engaged? That bastard!”

“Calm down Deb. You know what happens when you get to worked up.”

“But why? How can he do that to you? Ugh it just gets me mad! You’re like my little sister. I have to protect you!”

“Little? You’re only 3 months older!”

“Well you know.”

“Deb, I really like this guy.” looking down at my hands I can feel the same feeling rush back “He’s so normal, he talks to me like we know each other, and he comforts me.”

“Unlike that other bastard William.” she takes her phone out “He had to nerve to ask about you the other day. And you know what I said?”

“Oh god. What?”

“I said you weren’t interested anymore and that you found the love of your life.”

“But..”

“I know I lied but come on Sara, get over him.”

“No, I was gonna say how did you know?”

“Know what?” looking at me, her eyes get bigger and a frown appears “You found love? Like you love this fool?”

“I, don’t know. It feels that way.”

“Love is a very strong word girl. And you feel like that with him? The asshole who may be cheating on his girlfriend back where ever he comes from?”

“I guess.”

“What? Sara he’s cheating on his girlfriend. What if that was you. How would you like it if he was cheating on you?”

“As long as he comes back to me. Then I don’t mind.”

“What?” and with that response I got a slap on the cheek.

“Ow!” holding my left cheek I’m shocked at what she did. And what I said.

“You better snap out of it lady. You do not need that bullshit from anyone. God Sara, you need to start standing up for yourself.” she gets up from my bed and gives me an apologetic look. “I have to meet Ryan at the cafe. But I’ll see you later okay.”

“Okay.”

Wandering around the apartment I can’t stop thinking about Zayn. Is he really an ass? Should I really feel anger towards him? To think of it, I really haven’t talked about this crazy ordeal with him, the main person. Looking at my phone I think, should I call him? Maybe after I shower and look decent. I’m still in the same lazy clothes as yesterday, with my hair in a messy bun and no makeup on. Yes I shall wait. Getting my clothes ready the doorbell rings.

“Who is that?” throwing my stuff on the bed I walk to the door. Opening it I see a handsome young man standing in front of me with flowers and a box of chocolates.

“William?”

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