I run out to my car at about a quarter to seven. I had to get over there. She was awake finally. Finally after about a week of waiting and watching as she died and had so many surgeries. So many relapses where I thought I was going to lose her forever. When she's out of here…I'm never letting her out of my sight. I get to the hospital. The press swarming asking me questions about Clary. I haven't answered a single question of theirs but the crash was all over the news. So they knew about Clary being in here. They did not know the severity of her condition and how she has just returned to me. I silently thanked God while I rode up to the ICU only to find her and her mom gone. I run to the desk. "Where are they?! What happened? Please tell me that th--" The nurse held up her hand and pressed a sticky note in my hand.
"They moved them to a stable room Mr. Horan…that there is the room number and floor. Lilly left it for you." I mumbled an apology for being crazy and headed off to the new room. I get there and I see that her door is closed so I peep through. I see her family smiling and all around her. I see her mom is in a wheelchair now. Which is nice. They appear to be sharing a room. Nicole looks over and spots me. She smiles then points. Everyone turns, they all get up and greet me in the hallway. Her mom comes out, "She's been waiting to see you. Why didn't you come earlier?" I gape at her, fucking Lilly said not to but I don't want to get her in trouble.
"Thought she might've wanted to see you all first." Then they just push me in and shut the door. I look over at Clary, her color has returned, but she stills looks a bit too pale for my liking. She smiles and waves for me to come closer. I go over and she pats the bed when I go to sit in a chair. I take a deep breath and sit down. This is what I have been waiting for but why am I so nervous. She clearly remembers me. I just look at my hands though, afraid to look at her. "Niall…you came." I look up at her and release the breath I've been holding. Of course I came…I never left her side. Did she think I just got here?
"I never left baby…" I smile at her. Then suddenly tears start to fall down her face. I move closer and wipe them away. "Clary why are you crying?" They were silent tears but still.
"I just…am so happy…you didn't leave me." I move away, shocked that she would think that I would leave her. How could I? It would kill me. She is my everything.
"I would never leave you…especially when you needed me the most. Why would you think I would?" The tears were still falling down and more rapidly. She was starting to sob now. I need to calm her down fast. Or else I might get kicked out for upsetting her.
"Because…because…I didn't say I loved you back." That's what this is about? Jesus…
"Clary listen to me. I don't care if you don't say it back to me yet. I love you and I'm so happy to have you back…I don't know what I would've done if you left me…" Just thinking about her dying makes me tear up. I feel her shift and turn my face. She wipes a loose tear running down my cheek and chuckles.
"You would've survived Niall. Maybe found--" I cut her off knowing what she was going to say.
"Don't you dare say that Clarissa. No girl will ever compare to you. Don't you get that? I only want you. If you left me…I wouldn't have found some new girl. I would never have been the same without you. So no I wouldn't have survived." I looked at her and a smile creeps on her face. Then she yawns.
"I'm tired…I think I'm going to sleep for a bit." I nod then get up but her free arm stops me. "No. Stay with me please? I'll move over so you can lay down next to me. And maybe sing me a song?" She gently moves herself over and I slide in next to her, singing her to sleep. Then I just laid there watching her sleep. Our hands were entwined. I brought it up and kissed hers. "I love you Clary. Sweet dreams baby." Then I got off and let her rest. I needed to go back and shower…because I needed one. And who knows how long Clary will be out.

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Two Hours Later…

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"Thank you." I smiled at the lady and took my bouquet of orchids and daisies. I headed back to the hospital. I also got Clary some of her favorite cookies. I get up to her floor to see her family in there trying to calm her down. All I hear is "HE LEFT ME! HE SAID HE WOULD NEVER AND HE DID!" Shit. I run in and everyone looks at me. She snaps her head, tears are just pouring down her face. Jesus she's only been up for like four hours and I have made her cry twice. I am the worst boyfriend ever. "I just…I showered then got you some stuff…I didn't know how long you--"
"You are never allowed to leave me again. Got it Horan?" I just nod because I still don't know what to make of her sudden mood change. Her grandma takes the flowers and puts them in a vase by Clary. Then they all kind enought to leave me again. With her. Alone. Not that I mind too much but they could stay if they wanted to. I go and sit down by her. She looks at the daisy/orchid bouquet and frowns. "What is the matter Clary?"
"Do I like these?" I move away and look at her. My mouth hanging open a bit. I remember her telling me how much she loved orchids at least.

"Orchids? You looked more like a rose kind of girl." I look at her and laugh then a light punch hits my arm.
"Yea really. And no roses are so cliché if you got me those I would shove them up your butthole. Orchids are just so pretty and delicate. Daisies are nice too." I look at her for a moment and then kiss her cheek.
"Gotcha. Stay away from roses. You would like the exotic flower." She smiles at me and snuggles into my lap more. I just hold her as we continue to watch the movie.

"You love orchids…" She looks from me to the flowers then back to me.
"Oh…I didn't remember." Then its like everything came crumbling down…she doesn't remember things. What if she doesn't remember things from our relationship? Now and during high school. So I sit down in the chair beside her.
"Niall can I ask you something?" I just nod, afraid to talk. "Why did we break up during high school? Its fuzzy…all I remember is being really angry then really sad. Then trying to move on…which clearly didn't work because here you are…buying me my apparently favorite flowers and cookies." I just look at her completely and utterly shocked. Then I just stand up and walk out the door.

Notes

Sorry this chapter is so short! :( But I hope you like it!

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