He left me. Again. Clearly my question upset him. But I had to know. The pieces weren't clicking. I shove another yummy cookie in my mouth. God I could eat all of these. Yum yum yum. I look at my phone that Niall got for me. It looked super fancy and hard to use. And its not like I'm going anywhere anytime soon. So I pick it up and scroll through things. My fingers seem to remember how to work this thing though. I put it down after suddenly remembering how to use it. I hate that: how my brain just decides what to remember. I couldn't figure out what orange juice was this morning. I called it "flavored orange water". My doctor said its because I had some sort of swelling or contusion in my brain. So my memory will be slow for a few MONTHS. Yea months not days. I just glared at him because I was angry at him. But really I should be angry at my brain. Stupid brain. Niall still hasn't come back. Which sucks…I miss him. I plug in my headphones and lay down to take another nap. I get tired a lot easier. Of course Lilly warned me about that. She said that sleeping always helps when your body needs to mend. My eyes slowly close.

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I hear the chair squeak so I open my eyelids and see…Niall! Along with the rest of the boys. Oh.
"Way to go Haz you woke her up!" Louis swats his arm. Niall is the farthest away from me with his hands in his pockets.
"Its all right Louis. I was going to wake up anyway…I had a bad dream. How is everyone?" I smile and look around. They each share what has happened to them. Harry still is afraid to ask Penny out on a legit date. Liam has won over Nicole and they couldn't be happier. Zayn and Perrie are putting off the wedding until after this tour and when I get better. El and Louis are just a crazy as ever. I smile and nod. Laughing at some stories. Giving helpful advice at other times. Then Niall shoos everyone out saying I'm getting tired again. But I wasn't. "Niall! I'm even tired. Go get them to come back. Right now."
"No. We need to talk." Uh oh…that doesn't sound good. Shit is he going to leave me because I'm too dependent on him…my family….everyone right now?
"About what?"
"About why we broke up." I gulp and shake my head no. I no longer want to know because he's scaring me right now. He just chuckles and motions for me to move over. Which I do. Maybe I can distract him by faking I really am tired.
"Come on you wanted to know…who am I to deny you a part of our past. A very crucial part too." I look down at my one free hand…then I feel his hand under my chin. And he just goes. I learn that we drifted apart because I became more focused on college and he with his audition. We would forget to include the other in our plans, which meant me not being able to go to his audition. A huge fight happened and we ended it. Niall stormed out and that's about when I remember thing clearly again. I see he didn't like to talk about it…his eyes got a bit watery.
"Niall are you…are you thinking about leaving me because I'm like this now?" The question just popped out before I could stop it. He looked angry then. Very angry.
"No! I would never do that. What the hell makes you think that?! Are you trying to say that you want to break up with me?" What just happened? How did this get about me? I look at his eyes. And take a deep breath.
"Is this because of what you said?" That also just popped out. I have this weird memory of him talking to me while I was unconscious. But I'm not sure if it is real or just a dream. He looks at me in confusion.
"What did you just ask me?" I can feel my cheeks redden. I know that they are on fire right now. Do I tell him? Or just let it be…looking at him right now makes me decide to not tell him.
"Never mind. What time is it?" I reach for my phone but he stops me.
"No Clary tell me what I said." I just shrug. Then reach again only to be stopped. I'm getting agitated. Maybe I can get Lilly to kick him out. My mom should be coming back any minute now…
"Fine! Fine. You win. You said that if I stayed and then decided I didn't want you, you would let me go. Even though it would kill you. You went on and on about the plans you had for us. You begged me to stay. Of course everyone else did too. And my mom was going to live so I couldn't just leave her here alone. But you…you think that I'm just going to decide to leave you. Which is why you are keeping a distance…being safe. To keep your heart from breaking again." I suddenly remember the argument in full detail. Woo! Go brain…I look at Niall and he looks like he might be sick. I touch his hand begging him to say something anything.
"You…how?" That I don't know.
"It feels like a dream but it also felt real…and it must be by your reaction. Do you think…that you could stay here tonight? I don’t like sleeping alone right now." He gets up and talks to Lilly then comes back with a huge smile on his face. He climbs in and pulls the sheets over us. Pulling me onto his chest. I breath in his familiar scent. "I love you Clary. I'm not going anywhere." I smile and nod.

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A Few Days Later…
I wake up and I miraculously didn't have a nightmare about the accident last night. I snuggle into Niall a bit more. Niall slept over here again. Lilly told him about my nightmares. So he wanted to stay here. My doctor doesn't even know about the first time he stayed over. Niall mumbles in his sleep. My doctor comes in and looks from me to Niall with his eyebrows raised. I smile sheepishly at him. "Its alright Clarissa…its just I need to take you to get your casts off." I agree to go and leave a note for Niall telling him where I went. And that I should be back soon. Then they bring me a wheelchair and guide me to get these damned casts off. I get a boot put on one leg but I can walk with crutches. My mom is up moving about splendidly. She is getting released soon I think. I hobble back to my room to see Niall looking in a panic in bed. His hair is all bedridden but then he sees me and runs over. "I thought you left…I thought…you can walk again!" He finally sees I'm upright…somewhat.
"I left you a note on the little table thingy by the bed…" He smiles at me.
"Its called an end table Clary." I frown oh…I knew that! I just groan and hobble over to the bed. I see that they brought us breakfast. I start to eat the gross eggs and thin bacon. I've gotten used to it. Niall comes over and pours some orange juice for himself. Then looks up and me. "Flavored orange water Clary?" I fling an egg at him.
"Mocking me will get you nowhere Horan." He just smiles and pours me a glass.
"Glad to see your in great spirits today." I smile back because I am. I got great news today. I couldn't wait to tell him.

Notes

Here you guys go! I hope you like this update. I'm really enjoying writing this story right now. And so I hope you guys love it too.

So yesterday Eliza and I bought a fish....so lets see how this goes...

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~Annie Xxx