Remember When?
Miracles
Niall's POV
She squeezed my hand when I was getting up to walk away. So I stayed by her, never leaving, except for food but she let me. Because I promised I would come back. That was 5 days ago. My angel has slowly gotten better though. Her face is all healed with no scars. Her ribs and lung fully recovered. They put casts on her right arm and legs for those bones. I sing to her a lot. Even if its just humming, I feel like she's smiling. Her mom has woken up and refuses to leave the ICU until Clary wakes up. She's still bed-ridden. She's asleep right now. I sit there stroking Clary's cheek, playing connect the dots with her freckles. Every so often her fingers will twitch and I think she is going to return to me but she doesn't. She stays in her deep slumber. I get up to head to get food. I pass by her mom's bed, who is now awake. "Hey Niall, could you be a lamb and open the curtain so I can see my lovely daughter. I hate when they close that thing." I smile at her and do what she says. I sit down next to her.
"How is she Niall?" I hear the fear in her mom's voice.
"Healing…slowly…and she's still in a coma." I just state the facts, no need to sugar coat things.
"I heard them talking…saying how she might not remember things when she wakes up…I just…I just want her back." I stand up to go since the doctors are in here, and I am hungry. I head on down and Harry comes over. He looks better than me. Maybe because he can actually sleep soundly. I just toss and turn all night. Maybe getting a total for 3-4 hours a night these past 2 weeks. I see the rest of the gang, Nicole is the only one who looks worse than me. She is slumped onto Liam's shoulder right now. "Nicole…baby at least eat something…you have barely eaten these past few days…" I know that Nicole isn't hungry. I can barely stomach food. My meals consist of coffee and then like a bagel. I really can't eat much else. I go and get that then sit down. Nicole perks up. "How is she?"
"Same as 2 hours ago when you saw her Nicole." I take a sip of my coffee then eat some of my bagel. I see Nicole slump back down, and Liam goes back to coaxing her to eat. Perrie and Zayn were just silent. El and Louis were talking to Lilly. Harry was next to me eating. Her family just went up to visit with Clary's mom and probably to check on their only granddaughter. I finish most of the bagel then push it away. I finish my coffee then look at our friends. Everyone shows signs of exhaustion and sadness. This waiting…absolutely sucks.
A Few Hours Later…
Her family are still in there, though they are every welcoming of me and said I could go in with them. But I feel like I would be invading their time. I sigh and finish writing a note for Clary in case she wakes up while I'm back at the hotel. I finish writing it and head on into the ICU. Clary's mom is asleep again. Her mom only woke up two days ago and the doctors said that she will need all the sleep she can get. I sneak past and sit down at my spot right by Clary. I close the curtain, even though Alexandra hates to see it closed. "Hey angel…today has been a good day I think. Your mom is getting much better…she won't leave your side until you wake up. The food was a bit better today…somewhat edible this time around. The doctors said you are improving a lot. Your legs and arms are in these funny casts though. But they should be off in a few days. I miss your voice though…I got you a new cell phone. Its in the bag of goodies that Nicole brought. Gracie is doing just fine, my mom really likes having her around…so now she wants to get a dog. So that's a huge thing now. Theo is all for it…which is obvious. They want to come see you but I said to wait until you wake up. Because I'm sure you can't even hear what I'm saying. But I like talking to you…even if you can't talk back yet. But that's okay because when you wake up you can do all the talking. Want to know what else I miss? Your smile and laugh. Really I miss everything. I need to go. Visiting hours are almost over. I'll be back though…I'll always be here for you baby. I love you." I bend down and kiss her head then slide the piece of paper into her hand. I want her to wake up…so badly. I miss being able to hold her in my arms. I get up and walk out, heading down to my car. I go to the hotel right around the corner from the hospital. I get in there and flop down on my bed. Instantly falling asleep.
"Niall?! NIALL HELP NIALL PLEASE HELP!" I hear her screaming…but I can't see her. I'm running as fast as I can to get to her. I'm crying and praying that she can hold on. When I get there people are holding me back, saying its too gruesome for me to see. "NO! She's in there…please I have to see her! She needs me!!" I push past and see the mangled body of my love on the road. I break down crying as someone puts her into a body bag…
I jolt up. Its only 2am. I slept for my 4 hours. Because no way in hell am I going back to bed and relive that nightmare. It’s the same one every night. Clary dying at the scene and me not being able to save her. I lay back down just staring at the ceiling. Mentally counting down the hours until I get to go back to the hospital.
5:30am
I hear my phone going off, so I roll over and blindly grab for it. I actually managed to sleep for another two hours. No dreams either. It was nice. So whoever is calling me is very out of line. Then I see that it's the hospital. Oh god. Please let her be okay…please.
"Hello?"
"Hey Niall…Its Lilly. She's awake…Don't come in yet though--"
"Why the hell not Lills?!" I hear her sigh, I'm currently pacing around my room.
"Doctors' orders…they just want to make sure her memory is intact. Then I think her mom should be the first to talk to her. Then maybe her family and Nicole. Just come in at the usual time."
"Her family and Nicole are already there aren't they?" Her silence is all I needed to know. "Okay fine. I'll be there at 7 like usual." Then I hang up. Nicole and her family stayed there more than I did. So I guess that they should see her first. Shit her memory...what if she doesn't remember me?
Clary's POV
I slowly open my eyes, its way too bright. What time is it even? I open them again to find a clock. 5:00am. Ugh everything hurts. Why does everything hurt so much? Why am I in a hospital? Where is my mom?! Oh no please no. I see Lilly behind a desk. "Lilly! Lilly! Where's my mom? Is she okay?" Lilly's head snaps up and her mouth is open. What the hell is her problem? Must be my voice…I sound like I smoke two packs a day.
"Oh my gosh Clary! You're awake! Oh your mom is doing just fine. Right next to you I need to get the doctors over here. Oh thank god you're okay." She gets up and leaves. I look next to me but some stupid ass curtain is blocking my view. Who thought closing that was a good idea? I realize my legs are in casts and one of my arms. I move my free hand a bit, there's a paper in it. Ooo a note! I wonder from who?
Clarissa-
Love isn't always perfect. It isn't a fairytale or a storybook. And it doesn't always come easy. Love is overcoming obstacles, facing challenges, fighting to be together, holding on and never letting go. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without. Love is work, but most of all, love is realizing that every hour, every minute, and every second is worth it because we did it together.
-Niall
God damn he's too cute. I wonder if someone told him I'm in the hospital…well obviously. He left me a note. I smile. The doctors come in and ask me stupid questions. "Her memory is intact…doesn't seem to have amnesia. Her family is probably dying to hear the news. Lilly call them up. Tell them they can see her at 6. Clarissa, its good to see you're awake. You will need a lot of sleep still. So if someone is visiting and you feel tired just tell them, they should understand." I smile at the doctor. He seems nice. Then he pulls the curtain back and I see my mom sleeping. I smile again. She's alive. I'm alive. Today is the first step to getting back to my normal life.
She squeezed my hand when I was getting up to walk away. So I stayed by her, never leaving, except for food but she let me. Because I promised I would come back. That was 5 days ago. My angel has slowly gotten better though. Her face is all healed with no scars. Her ribs and lung fully recovered. They put casts on her right arm and legs for those bones. I sing to her a lot. Even if its just humming, I feel like she's smiling. Her mom has woken up and refuses to leave the ICU until Clary wakes up. She's still bed-ridden. She's asleep right now. I sit there stroking Clary's cheek, playing connect the dots with her freckles. Every so often her fingers will twitch and I think she is going to return to me but she doesn't. She stays in her deep slumber. I get up to head to get food. I pass by her mom's bed, who is now awake. "Hey Niall, could you be a lamb and open the curtain so I can see my lovely daughter. I hate when they close that thing." I smile at her and do what she says. I sit down next to her.
"How is she Niall?" I hear the fear in her mom's voice.
"Healing…slowly…and she's still in a coma." I just state the facts, no need to sugar coat things.
"I heard them talking…saying how she might not remember things when she wakes up…I just…I just want her back." I stand up to go since the doctors are in here, and I am hungry. I head on down and Harry comes over. He looks better than me. Maybe because he can actually sleep soundly. I just toss and turn all night. Maybe getting a total for 3-4 hours a night these past 2 weeks. I see the rest of the gang, Nicole is the only one who looks worse than me. She is slumped onto Liam's shoulder right now. "Nicole…baby at least eat something…you have barely eaten these past few days…" I know that Nicole isn't hungry. I can barely stomach food. My meals consist of coffee and then like a bagel. I really can't eat much else. I go and get that then sit down. Nicole perks up. "How is she?"
"Same as 2 hours ago when you saw her Nicole." I take a sip of my coffee then eat some of my bagel. I see Nicole slump back down, and Liam goes back to coaxing her to eat. Perrie and Zayn were just silent. El and Louis were talking to Lilly. Harry was next to me eating. Her family just went up to visit with Clary's mom and probably to check on their only granddaughter. I finish most of the bagel then push it away. I finish my coffee then look at our friends. Everyone shows signs of exhaustion and sadness. This waiting…absolutely sucks.
A Few Hours Later…
Her family are still in there, though they are every welcoming of me and said I could go in with them. But I feel like I would be invading their time. I sigh and finish writing a note for Clary in case she wakes up while I'm back at the hotel. I finish writing it and head on into the ICU. Clary's mom is asleep again. Her mom only woke up two days ago and the doctors said that she will need all the sleep she can get. I sneak past and sit down at my spot right by Clary. I close the curtain, even though Alexandra hates to see it closed. "Hey angel…today has been a good day I think. Your mom is getting much better…she won't leave your side until you wake up. The food was a bit better today…somewhat edible this time around. The doctors said you are improving a lot. Your legs and arms are in these funny casts though. But they should be off in a few days. I miss your voice though…I got you a new cell phone. Its in the bag of goodies that Nicole brought. Gracie is doing just fine, my mom really likes having her around…so now she wants to get a dog. So that's a huge thing now. Theo is all for it…which is obvious. They want to come see you but I said to wait until you wake up. Because I'm sure you can't even hear what I'm saying. But I like talking to you…even if you can't talk back yet. But that's okay because when you wake up you can do all the talking. Want to know what else I miss? Your smile and laugh. Really I miss everything. I need to go. Visiting hours are almost over. I'll be back though…I'll always be here for you baby. I love you." I bend down and kiss her head then slide the piece of paper into her hand. I want her to wake up…so badly. I miss being able to hold her in my arms. I get up and walk out, heading down to my car. I go to the hotel right around the corner from the hospital. I get in there and flop down on my bed. Instantly falling asleep.
"Niall?! NIALL HELP NIALL PLEASE HELP!" I hear her screaming…but I can't see her. I'm running as fast as I can to get to her. I'm crying and praying that she can hold on. When I get there people are holding me back, saying its too gruesome for me to see. "NO! She's in there…please I have to see her! She needs me!!" I push past and see the mangled body of my love on the road. I break down crying as someone puts her into a body bag…
I jolt up. Its only 2am. I slept for my 4 hours. Because no way in hell am I going back to bed and relive that nightmare. It’s the same one every night. Clary dying at the scene and me not being able to save her. I lay back down just staring at the ceiling. Mentally counting down the hours until I get to go back to the hospital.
5:30am
I hear my phone going off, so I roll over and blindly grab for it. I actually managed to sleep for another two hours. No dreams either. It was nice. So whoever is calling me is very out of line. Then I see that it's the hospital. Oh god. Please let her be okay…please.
"Hello?"
"Hey Niall…Its Lilly. She's awake…Don't come in yet though--"
"Why the hell not Lills?!" I hear her sigh, I'm currently pacing around my room.
"Doctors' orders…they just want to make sure her memory is intact. Then I think her mom should be the first to talk to her. Then maybe her family and Nicole. Just come in at the usual time."
"Her family and Nicole are already there aren't they?" Her silence is all I needed to know. "Okay fine. I'll be there at 7 like usual." Then I hang up. Nicole and her family stayed there more than I did. So I guess that they should see her first. Shit her memory...what if she doesn't remember me?
Clary's POV
I slowly open my eyes, its way too bright. What time is it even? I open them again to find a clock. 5:00am. Ugh everything hurts. Why does everything hurt so much? Why am I in a hospital? Where is my mom?! Oh no please no. I see Lilly behind a desk. "Lilly! Lilly! Where's my mom? Is she okay?" Lilly's head snaps up and her mouth is open. What the hell is her problem? Must be my voice…I sound like I smoke two packs a day.
"Oh my gosh Clary! You're awake! Oh your mom is doing just fine. Right next to you I need to get the doctors over here. Oh thank god you're okay." She gets up and leaves. I look next to me but some stupid ass curtain is blocking my view. Who thought closing that was a good idea? I realize my legs are in casts and one of my arms. I move my free hand a bit, there's a paper in it. Ooo a note! I wonder from who?
Clarissa-
Love isn't always perfect. It isn't a fairytale or a storybook. And it doesn't always come easy. Love is overcoming obstacles, facing challenges, fighting to be together, holding on and never letting go. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without. Love is work, but most of all, love is realizing that every hour, every minute, and every second is worth it because we did it together.
-Niall
God damn he's too cute. I wonder if someone told him I'm in the hospital…well obviously. He left me a note. I smile. The doctors come in and ask me stupid questions. "Her memory is intact…doesn't seem to have amnesia. Her family is probably dying to hear the news. Lilly call them up. Tell them they can see her at 6. Clarissa, its good to see you're awake. You will need a lot of sleep still. So if someone is visiting and you feel tired just tell them, they should understand." I smile at the doctor. He seems nice. Then he pulls the curtain back and I see my mom sleeping. I smile again. She's alive. I'm alive. Today is the first step to getting back to my normal life.
Notes
There you all go!!! She is awake! :)) I'm being veryyy good about updating I think. I have a lot of chapters written so I can just post them even if I am busy. Which is super nice considering classes are in full swing now.
Keep your lovely comments coming!! I love hearing your guys' reactions to the chapters!! It makes me happy to know people are liking what I am writing.
~Annie Xxx
@redheadedbeauty
Yeah he is ... I wanted to save the picture that's why i asked but thanks
4/11/15