Mirrors (A Harry Styles Fanfic)

I stare at the half full cup of vodka in the table, as much as I want to finish it, it really isn't in me to party right now.

"Bella is on her way," Niall says beside me, I stare up at him in excitement, I actually really need Bella.

"Really?!" I say thrilled.

"Yeah," he grins, "I told her you were moping so she's coming."

"Did you tell her that-"

"Harry left? Yes," his voice apologetically, I guess Bella already gave him a piece of her mind.

"I don't like the way she talks about him either, but she doesn't know him so I can't tell her otherwise, she's too stubborn." he tries to smile but fails miserably.

"I know," I sight, "but at least she's coming."

My phone vibrates in my pocket and I snake it out, I have a message from Harry. I can't help the grin on my face as I unlock the phone

Dimples: You don't have to apologize baby, it was awful of me to ask you to leave your job just like that. I know I will see you soon, don't worry.
I'm just about to grab lunch before getting ready for Dan's art show, tomorrow I'll be heading to Chile. What are you doing?

Me: A stupid party that Nick dragged me to, it now I'm with Niall, Lou, Tom and Niall's friend... I think his name is Sean, I forgot lol. I really wish you were here, no one is making me laugh :(
Also, Niall told Bella you left. Sorry.

I know Harry doesn't like the way Bella feels about him, especially after the talk I had with her, his pain present as he sang "You and I" to me. I don't want him to think that her opinion would ever change my mind about being g with him, but I also don't want to keep things from him, no matter how simple or non-important. Seconds later he answers back.

Dimples: I'm sorry, she's probably going to give you hell, please don't listen to her, baby? And try to enjoy the party, I don't want you to be sad.

He's right; I shouldn't be sad nor mope around. I don't care what Bella is going to say, and I really don't want to have an argument, I just hope she brings my mood up. I get another message

Dimples: I'm going to stop texting so you can party, bye baby, goodnight. I love you.

Me: No don't!

I frown at my phone and pout, then I remember he can't see me.

Me: FINE! Just so you know, I'm pouting. I love you, too. I love you, more.
I grin as I see him typing.

Dimples: Not possible, my heart, I love you more. Goodnight :)

I text a goodnight kissy face and put my phone away. I miss talking to him, but I try to push the feeling aside,we will talk later.

Ten minutes later, Bella makes her way over to us, she's wearing a loose skirt and a grey jumper, with her chucks on and her hair down. She added pink to her tips and it suits her, always being colorful.

"Hey," she smiles as Niall let's her scoot in between us. I see him snake his arm around her waist, and I try not to grin when she doesn't flinch or push him away.

"Hi!" I wrap my arms around her shoulder, "Missed you."

"You too, stranger," she scolds me, I try to do the puppy face but she just raises her brow disapprovingly.

"I needed some space."

"After what I said, yeah I know," she didn't say it in an apologetic manner, I know she doesn't regret what she said about Harry, she regrets not taking to me and letting me have my space. I know I'm her only friend at the moment, she doesn't talk to anyone at school, she's too busy with classes, and Niall.

"Well yeah, but, er, also Harry," I don't look at her, I take a sip from my drink. From the corner of my eye I can see Niall whispering in her ear, I feel Bella stiffen beside me and I try not to giggle. I feel like I'm intruding but it makes me happy she's allowing Niall in... well not that kind of in, although that's great for them.

Now I miss Harry even more. I gulp my drink down as Niall and Bella continue flirting. I can see Niall running his hand up her thigh and I almost choke on my drink, I look away and Lou is staring at me. She laughs as she notices where I was looking at.

"It's quite annoying," Niall's friend says in my ear, making me jump, "they've been at it the whole week I've been at Niall's!" I can't help but laugh.

I look at Bella still laughing, who is narrowing her eyes at me, Niall is looking at her adoringly. I smile at her and she smiles at me sarcastically, obviously she heard Sean, which only makes me giggle more.

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I take my pen in between my teeth, I've been listening and watching the breakfast show, waiting for a break just in case Pixie Lot, who's in the booth, needs something. My phone vibrates in my pocket, it's an unknown number, I hesitate to answer but end up doing it anyway

"Er, hello?" I whisper, I don't want to be loud while people are working the panel.

"Hi, Piper? This is Jane,"Jane? Why is she calling me, "I asked your dad for your number."

"Oh, okay," is all I can say, I feel awkward talking to her, still holding the grudge on her. I can't just forget she broke my family.

"Just wanted to let you know that your little sister should be coming in the next five days," oh shit, I haven't seen them for about a month, I asked Mark to join me today with Daisy and Nick, "and I was going to ask if you'd like to be present?" I can hear the nervousness in her voice.

"Yeah, I would."

"Thank you, Piper."

"Jane?" I ask.

"Yes, love?"

I hesitate, "What's her name?"

"Prim," I can hear the smile in her voice.

"That's a lovely name," I smile, "bye Jane."

"Bye, Piper, I will have Mark, or your dad, inform you when the baby is coming."

As soon as I hang up I get a text from Daisy saying she'll be here in a bit.

I'm a little nervous as Daisy, Nick, my brother and I walk inside the hair salon, I've never really dyed my hair, but I've been wanting to do it for a while. The place is big, stretches very far into a room I can't quite see from the entrance, chairs along the wall in front of mirrors, the walls are white with neon posters. Daisy was attended first, all she wanted was a haircut, and Nick went to the other side where they attend the guys, he wanted some color as well.

Once the girl with pastel pink hair finishes with Daisy, she calls me over. I don't say anything as Daisy tells her what to do, knowing her style I know I can trust I won't look ridiculous. Markie grins at me from his seat beside me. I haven't even told Harry that I'm doing something to my hair, it's not that important but I don't want to wait until I see him for him to find out, what if he doesn't like it and he makes a face. I'm being so paranoid and crazy, it's just hair dye!

A couple hours later, the pastel pink, whose name is Clare, has conditioned my hair and is in the process of running a wand through my hair to make it wavy. I like what she did; the base looks like a light brown but there's blonde high lights, I think, I'm just glad she didn't color my eyebrows, they would've probably looked just awful.

Markie squeals beside me, "You look so pretty! So alive!" I smile at him, and it's a real smile. I like how I look, it feels fresh and not at all sad and depressing.

I thank Clare then head over to the register as I slip my grey jacket on. Nick joins us by the door and we head out.

"How are things with James?" I ask my brother as we cross the street to a crepe stand.

"Great," he grins at me, I'm glad he's found someone in school like James; funny, cute, artsy, and apparently a romantic, "dad actually let him come over last weekend when he threw the baby shower."

I frown, "Baby shower?" he looks at me confused.

"Yeah, dad threw Jane a shower, I thought you would've know, but just didn't show up."

I bite my bottom lip as I sit next to Nick by a table. Why didn't my father tell me about the shower? Maybe it was just Jane's friends, and we aren't the best of buds. Markie volunteers to order for us, minutes later he's back with our orders. I stay quiet for a while, just listening to Daisy and Nick talk about a girl I don't know who I guess is their friend, I barely paying attention when Nick calls my name.

"What?" I ask

"I said, you should come to Claudia's wedding with us," he says as he takes a bite of his food.

"Oh, er, sure!" I smile. My phone vibrates in my pocket, Niall is calling me.

"Hello?" I say into the phone.

"Hey Piper," he says excitedly, "I was wondering if you could join Ella at Heathrow as we board our plane, I don't want her to leave alone," I can't help but smile at his thoughtfulness.

"Of course, I'd love to, what time are you guys heading over?"

"In two hours babe, thanks, I'll see you soon!"

Once we finish eating I take Markie to get some clothes, as I offered him to sleep over at my house for the weekend. I get off with him, as we enter the huge house, my father is sitting in the living room watching derby.

"Hi Mark," he says without looking over, my brother doesn't say anything as he goes up the stairs, "Mark?" he looks up and sees me, I wave awkwardly.

"Piper, hi," he walks over, "Markus!" he says sternly. Mark turns around as he reaches the top of the stairs.

"You say you want her to give you and Jane a chance, but you don't invite her to her own sister's baby shower!" he says and stomps to his room. I didn't think he'd be mad at him for that.

"Markus!" my father frowns at me, "Piper-"

"It's fine dad, I wouldn't have come anyways," I turn my gaze from him and look down the hallway, would've I not come? I don't know.

"It was just Jane's friends, and the little family she has here, Mark knew that."

"Markie, it's not like that-" I hear Jane say from upstairs, she follows him down the stairs, her stomach big, her whole face is glowing but she's frowning.

"No Jane, you say you want her to give you a chance but you don't tell her anything," he says angrily at her, I step towards him to stop him from taking to her like that, "I bet she doesn't even know that you almost lost the baby!"

"What!" I stare at my father.

"Markus!" Jane and my father say at the same time.

"Your sister is too busy with that boy-"

"I didn't want to worry you-"

"Bullshit, don't blame Harry!"

Everyone taking at the same time makes my head spin, "Stop!" I stare at them, I point at my father, "Do not say anything about Harry, you are not allowed to talk about him."

I look at Jane who's in the verge of tears and is holding her stomach, protecting her as the memories of almost looking her baby phase through her expression.

"I'm sorry about that Jane, I care about that baby, I do," she smiles as tears run down her cheeks. I turn to my brother, I don't know why he's angry at them.

"You don't need to be mad at them, they didn't do anything wrong for not inviting me," I look at Jane, I don't want to upset her but I have to say what I need to otherwise I can't really bring myself to put it past me, someday, "I don't have to be your friend, you don't have to like me, and I you."

"I know Piper, but I want us to get along," she starts, she wipes under her eyes, "you're this baby's big sister, I don't want us to fight or have any tension between us."

"I can't just put it past me okay, what happened when I was younger-"

"Piper," my father says, I turn to him and warn him to let me speak.

"No, dad, I care about the baby but I don't care about having a relationship with Jane." Jane looks at my dad and he just stares at her, she takes a step towards him as if to say something.

"No Jane," he looks at me with sad eyes, maybe even forgiveness that is foreign in his eyes, "I understand Piper, but I need you to have a relationship with me, please don't be cruel to her," he whispers.

How could I be nice to her, how can I just be friends with her when my father cheated on my mother with her, he abandoned my brother and I for her. What good has she done, other than the baby I guess. She's done good things for my father, and maybe he won't fuck up with Prim, and has encouraged him to talk to Mike and I, but there's this pull in me, this voice telling me I can't just put all those years behind me. Maybe I can put the years after my mother's death behind me, but not that dreadful year when I found out about Jane, when he left us with Nan to live with her.

"I'm not being cruel, I'm being honest," I look at Jane, "I'm trying, I am, but we won't become best buds or anything, I can't promise anything other than simple conversations and quiet dinners, Jane."

"I know."

"Let's go Markie."

I drop Markie at my apartment, he didn't want to join me to Heathrow, he wanted to call James. Niall texted me that he and Bella were already there so I headed on my own. When I arrived, there were girls and paparazzi at the place, some fans screamed at me as I walked in, some were foul things, others surprisingly nice.

I make my way to where Niall told me they would be boarding, I see a huddle of people, I see Lou, Zayn, Liam, Louis, Eleanor, Paul, Niall, Bella and some people I've never ready met officially but are part of their team. As I reach them I wonder how long Harry has been in the plane, or if he has even boarded yet, he did tell me he'd let me know when he was leaving LA.

"Hey Pie!" Bella calls out, Niall has his arm slung over her shoulder as he has a deep conversation with Lou and Liam. I walk over and greet everyone, wishing them a great flight.

"We gotta start boarding, honey," Niall tells Bella as he leans in to kiss her, I look down at my shoes to give them privacy.

Arms wrap around my torso and my head shots up, I don't want to look at the hands wrapped around me. A head rests on my shoulder and I can feel them breathe, my stomach has an internal war and I'm frozen in place. This overwhelming curiosity to look at the hands and face just to make sure my head isn't playing tricks on me is eating me.

"Hi, baby," the raspy voice I've been dreaming of says into my ear, "I like what you did to your hair." his voice dripping into me like pure ecstasy, my stomach turning at the sound of it. I turn around in his arms and sob as I bury my head in his warm neck.

I don't want to look at him, if I do he will leave, I shut my eyes as I press my lips to his warm skin. I wrap my arms around his torso, pulling him as close to me as I possibly can, I'm not crying but I'm breathing heavily and moaning in happiness to have him in my arms. He pulls back, he takes my face in his large hands but I don't open my eyes.

In a swift and sweet, sweet, surprise his lips press against mine. His lips are so soft as they take my bottom lip, his tongue runs over it and my lips open faster than my heartbeat. His tongue brushes brushes against mine in the most delicious way ever possible, the kiss is soft and warm. My fingers tangle themselves in his hair as his large hands snake around my waist and pull me to him. Our lips disconnect, his forehead presses against mine. I open my eyes, his grin only making me grin wider, his emerald green eyes looking into mine.

"I missed you," his voice is deep and sad, I peck his lip and kiss his jaw.

"I missed you, as well" I bury my face in his neck again, wrapping my arms tightly around him. I know he has to go soon but I'm trying not to think about it as his large hands run up and down my back.

"You really do look beautiful with your new hair, baby."

I look up at him, "Really, you like it?" I ask as I look into his eyes before they have to fly miles away from me again.

"Yeah," he grins, "you look hot."

"Harry, lets go!" Paul screams from somewhere behind.

"Fuck," he looks down at me, an apologetic expression plastered in his gorgeous face, "Pipes-"

"I love you, Harry."

"I love you, too, my heart," he kisses my forehead, "so much," his lips press gains mine again, kissing me softly and holding me tight. He tangles our fingers and tugs me as closest to him as he can.

He kisses my forehead, grabs his stuff without letting go of my hand, his eyes in contact with mine. His lips kiss my hand and run along my knuckles. I stifle the tears fighting to escape as I truly do watch him leave, his hand letting go of mine.

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