Nina’s P.O.V (one month later)

I wake up, screaming, my body vibrating violently, I’m slamming my fists on the mattress beside me, I can’t open my eyes but I feel myself crying, tears streaming down my face but nothing but darkness.

“Nina, Nina, shit” I hear Zac and then the thud of something being hit on my bed. The mattress moves when he climbs on.

“Nina, wake up its me Zac your safe you’re okay”

He shakes my shoulders and my eyes pop open, my breathing is heavy. I jump and wrap my arms around his neck he cradles me close, his own body trying to catch his breath.

“You’re okay” He coos softly into my ear. Stroking my back.

“I-“ I start but then tears take over.

“It’s okay, I’m here, I’m here” I lay back down and he follows

“3:48am, same as last night” He notes, I shake my head.

“They don’t stop” I shake, my breath rocky

“It’s okay baby, I can stay here” He whispers and turns over to face me

“What were you dreaming about” He tickles my arm soothingly as I place my hand on his cheek.

“The boat, Wyatt was dead” I close my eyes in attempt to erase the horrible image from my mind. Blood, wounds, the red water. I also dreamt about Harry but I decided to keep that private from Zac. Last night I dreamed about loosing the baby, I’ve never screamed so loud.

Zac traces his fingers on my ginormous stomach it makes me uneasy, I’m not use to being this big.

“Wyatt is alive, he’s actually in the other room” Zac jokes trying to lighten the mood I smile and he kisses my cheek.

Why does he like me, I don’t understand, I’m a tragedy case, boyfriend walked out on me, left me alone pregnant with his child.

“You’re beautiful and amazing, and strong and you’re going to be the best mother” He answers my unasked questions, tucking away a stray hair behind my ear. I try to press a grin across my face. Zac moves his face close to mine, my eyes become alert. He lowers his head and his lips fall onto mine, I remain still. His lips are soft he pulls up and stares at me momentarily. The kiss brings pain into my body, pain as if I’ve cheated on Harry or done something unspeakable. It takes me a few seconds to realize, Harry’s gone… He left me…

“You can sleep here” I whisper, and the truth is I don’t want to have nightmares anymore.

His mouth splits and he lays back down I feel the duvet pull over him.

I turn and attempt to go back to sleep my eyes opening and closing slowly.

And then the fucking baby in my stomach decides to wake up and start moving.

“fuck” I curse

“What?” Zac looks over

“The baby wont stop moving” I rub my stomach up and down. I turn to see Zac has fallen asleep. I’ve never thought of myself to be the pregnant women who talks to their ginormous stomach. I’m connected to my baby but I don’t see the point in flashing it around and playing up the whole pregnancy scheme, being pregnant sucks. Being pregnant alone sucks. I just want this kid out of me. I close my eyes in my last attempt to fall asleep and I pray that the baby inside me stops doing flips.

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“Nina wake up!” I hear Jessica outside my door, I forgot that today we’re going baby shopping. I see Zac, sprawled out and snoring. Shit I mentally curse.

“One second!” I yell and Zac flinches. I stand and walk over to my closet, yes walk, I can walk again, It’s sometimes hard and painful but I manage. I choose a long neutral pink maxi dress with a white sun hat and my ray bands. I look at myself in the mirror, holy pregnant. I’m huge. I frown. I wonder what Harry would have said about me. Being like this…if he wanted to see me pregnant or our baby he would have stuck around…

“We’re leaving in 10!” Jessica warns again, Zac is still out. I rush out of the door, Jessica is waiting, leaning on the opposite wall.

“Good you look nice, lets go, town will be busy today” She sounds like a sergeant on a mission.

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I sit in the passenger seat as Jessica drives, I’m not cleared to drive yet. We drive along a road along the coast line. It’s beautiful the way the blue water meets the white gold sand.

“Have you decided?”

“Decided what?” I ask back

“Where you want to live, where you want to have the baby” she laughs and makes a right hand turn.

“No, I was thinking close to you guys” I admit she smiles

“We’re thinking of moving out of New Jersey, maybe to the city”

“New York has always been my home” I confess and look down at my fingers

“Let’s talk about that when the time comes, now baby names, have you been thinking?” She turns into a 16 year old girl

“I like Leo, and Jack and Dallas” I giggle

“Those aren’t bad, Wyatt named Parker and I named Mallory” We pull into the mall parking lot.

“So we need…” I start looking at this list as we enter the mall. Jessica sighs and grabs the list ripping it in two.

“Everything, we need everything, lets just start somewhere and proceed” She pushes me into the nearest baby store.

“Oh my god look at these shoes” I gawk at the Burberry baby shoe line, I want it all.

“Really…? Burberry for a new born?” Jessica crosses her arms

“He’s my kid he will wear what I want” I say matter of factly with humor.

“He’s going to be one spoiled little boy” She says as I grab two pairs.



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“Your total is $356.45” The cashier rings through the shoes and I have a mental lapse, I don’t have that kind of money!!!

Oh right, I take out my debit card, forgetting my parents left me millions. I scan my card through and punch in my pin. My heart stops as it says “processing”

“Thank you have a nice day!” the cashier hands me the bag. I smile and follow Jessica out of the store.

“Let’s try over here” She pull me into another baby store with baby clothes strung up everywhere.

“Sleepers, you need lots” She starts holding up clothes, I nod if I like if I shake if I don’t. Just my luck, One Direction comes on the radio in the store. My mood changes.

“We can leave” Jessica smiles

“No, we have to get this done” I look at the pile of sleepers we have picked out and I miss Harry, he would have been here doing this with me.

“We have enough from this store, we can keep going” She places the sleepers on the cashiers counter and I pay for them.

“I need to sit and pee” I say laughing as we exit the store. She joins in laughing with me and we find the bathrooms.

“Mommy that’s Neeeena” A little girl recognizes me, she shyly looks up at me as her mother gives me an apologetic grin.

“No it’s fine!” I say quickly

“Hi little girl what’s your name?” I look down at the small child she’s about 5 or 6 and she’s wearing a one direction tee shirt.

“I’m Miranda” Her mouth splits open and reveals her teeth, some are there some aren’t. I wish I still was a kid and believed in the tooth fairy.

“She really wants a picture” Her mom says slowly trying not to be rude.

“Yes for sure!” I sound so happy so professional. Jessica steps back as the child stands beside me, her mom takes out her iPhone and snaps a few pictures.


“Neenah?” Miranda looks up at me

“Yes sweetheart?”

“Where- Where’s Harry?”

“Um” I pause

“Miranda” Her mom warns

“No It’s okay!, Harry is on tour, playing music with the rest of the band”

Miranda giggles and seems content with the answer, her mom thanks me and she gives me a big hug.

“You’re a celebrity!” Jessica jokes I shake my head

“That’s just one kid, if Harry were here we’d be bombarded” I sit down on the bench and rub my stomach.

“You okay?” She sounds worried. I close my eyes as a pain radiates through my stomach.

“Yeah just a second” I keep my eyes closed as the pain goes away.

“I’m good” I stand up and take a deep breath

“You sure?”

“Yeah just moving pains”

“Nina… look” She whispers and points to a store with a television.

Harry… I stride over….I can’t help but watch…

Some girl is talking to the reporter on how she got it on with him in the bathroom. My heart drops. Pictures are shown of him leaving the stall and doing up his pants. Then they proceed to show other antics he’s been up to in the past week… girl… after girl…. After girl…. Don’t cry, I tell myself and swallow the lump in my throat.

“What a douche bag” Jessica sounds astonished

“Can we go please” I turn away and walk towards another store.

“We need bottles, soothers, baby towels, baby clothes, diapers, diaper cream, and basically everything” I say stressed, this is hard and seeing that on the T.V didn’t make it easier.

“Zac is coming to help” Jessica reads off her phone

“What! No!” I protest, I don’t need him here

“He’s already here! He doesn’t want you lifting anything and I told him about your pains” she admits sheepishly

“Why would you do that” I sigh

“Because you shouldn’t be in pain, he’s meeting us at Baby’s R’ Us’” We start walking in that direction.

“I see him everywhere” I whisper as we walk past stand after stand, T.V, after T.V

“Don’t pay attention to it, he’s not worth it”

I look down at my stomach, but he is.

“Hey girls” Zac walks up to us as we enter the store, he looks at me quizzically before kissing my cheek. My insides swoon. It’s weird. Jessica looks at us with narrowed eyes.

“What’s wrong?” His eye brows furrow. I shake my head quickly

“Nothing, just tired”

“Well we’ll be quick here and then you can go home and rest” We start walking through aisles.

“What type of soother should we have” I look over at Jessica before looking at the back of the packaging

“This one” She picks one up and hands it to me

“I had these with Mallory and Parker, they’re the best” She grabs four more and puts them in the cart.

“there taking pictures of you Nina” Zac says protectively and then stands in front of me.

“I know, whatever I don’t care” I turn and grab 2 25 sets of baby clothes and 12 baby towels.

“What else” I look down at the list.

We walk around the store, getting bottles, bottle warmer, more clothes, hats, shoes, receiving blankets, normal baby blankets, and everything else a baby could need.

“I think we’re done” I look at the mount of things in the two carts we have.

“Crib, changing table and dresser” Jessica laughs, oh shit, I forgot to tell them I already ordered it and it’s coming in three days.

“ I already ordered it, it’s beautiful, I ordered the bed, furniture and décor”

“Alright then I’d say we’re done” Zac wraps his arm around me, I stiffen but slowly relax.


Harry’s P.O.V (4:40am)

“Harry wake up!” someone pounds on my hotel room door.

“Go away” I moan and slam my head between the pillows.

“We have to show you something!” It’s Louis and he’s reluctant.

“I’m going to fucking kill you” I swear and stand up to get the door. But first I put the picture of Nina I sleep with every night back under my pillow.

“Morning Harold!” He’s freaking out, Zayn, Niall, Liam stand at his side

“What” I spit at him, he carries his open MacBook in his hands.

“Don’t freak out, we don’t know if this is 100% or not but we’re all freaking out” Niall is shaking. Confusion fills me. What are they talking about.

“We saw something online” Zayn sits and we all find a spot in the living room.

“Ready?” Louis has the computer facing his stomach

“hurry up already!” I’m getting irritated

“Ok-“ he starts but I cut him off “Wait let me get a drink” I stand and walk over to the mini fridge and pop open 6 of the small vodkas.

They look at me with disgust “Are you kidding mate?” Liam holds his hand out accusatorily.

“Just show me” I yell at Louis, he flips the computer around and I can’t believe what I see.

“No… Is this some kind of sick fucking joke?” I scream, my body vibrating. There silence says it all, they slowly shake their heads.

“It’s her” I stare at the screen, or it’s someone who looks allot like her. My body jumps, instantly awake. It’s Nina standing with a little girl.

“The only problem is this girl is pregnant, Nina wasn’t” Niall frowns. I forgot that I never told any of the other boys about the baby, only Louis, Louis looks up at me and I nod.

“Nina was pregnant” I whisper

They stare at me astonished

“What…?” Zayn’s eyes are widened and shocked.

“She was pregnant, she was 3 or 4 months pregnant when she was in the hospital and if my calculations are right she’d be 7 or 8 months by now” I let my head fall into my hands, how did this happen.

“Where was this photo taken?” I ask Louis, he scrolls down and reads out loud the article. “Nina Vinci pictured with child on outing to the mall in La Manga Spain, preparing for the arrival of her son while Harry Styles parties with six different women in three days”

I feel the lump forming in my throat, she’s not dead, she could not be dead. I don’t know what to feel, I want to cry, I want to scream. The hole in my stomach grows tighter and tighter. I swallow down as I feel my eyes become glossy.

“We need to go to her” I whisper “ I need to see this, I need to see if it’s her”

“We sent El and the baby with Dani to see, we didn’t want to get your hopes up for something that could not be” Liam looks down at his fingers.

“But it could be and I need to go, this is my everything please” I beg them sipping back another vodka bottle.

“Harry please just wait till the girls get there if it’s her then we’ll all go, please just listen to us for once” Louis begs me. My body becomes uncomfortable, jitters, shaking, everything, I wont be able to sleep until I know it’s her or not her.

“How many days” I ask

“three just three please, we can do our last show before our break and it will work nicely”

“Okay, I can do that” I take a deep breath out I have a headache.

I need her, I need her to be alive. My life will be worth living again if she’s in it.

Notes

So I need you all to read this
As an author I reach times where I'm stuck , I don't have writers block or anything I'm just conflicted on the topic I'm writing about. I don't know weather I should write realistically and say would would happen in real life, cause in real life Harry would have found Nina by now with all the technology and media we have. But in 'story life' she could be unfound for who knows how long. So I'm struggling on if I should write realistically or write 'story life'
Any feedback would be very appreciative I know this chapter makes it seem like it's going realistically but I have two versions for the next chapter.

Secondly!

votes on names for the baby
1) Dallas
2) Leo
3)Jack

Thirdly !

VOTES ON THE BABY ROOM I know it doesn't really matter but I love babies and I love writing about them and all the things that go with them (aw so cute)

option 1)


Option 2)


option 3)