Breathe

One Month Later (Nina’s P.O.V)

“Aunty, aunty!” Mallory and Parker come running into the sunroom, I put my book down and look at the soaking wet twins.

“What’s going on?” I place my sunglasses on the top of my head, they smile large at me.

“What..?” I ask again

“Can you take us to the pool pweaaaase” Parker begs and Mallory gets on her knees beside me putting her hands together

“Your Dad and Zac are at the beach!” I point to the two men throwing the football along the sand line they shake their heads simultaneously.

“Fine, fine, we can go to the pool”

They jump up and down as I stand I stagger and grab hold of my crutches

“Aunty when can you walk without the extra legs?” Parker looks down at the crutches

“In a few weeks hopefully” We walk through the house, getting closer to the deck door that reveals the pool.

“How’s my cousin?” Mallory points at my growing stomach, it’s already taking over my body, I’m tiny as it is and 5 months pregnant looks like I’m pregnant with twins.

“He’s good, he moves allot”

“When can I see him” She pouts

“Only 4 more months hopefully” I take a deep breath, this month has been hard, I had 2 surgeries, one my leg and one to stop a ‘bleeder’ in my thoracic cavity. Zac couldn’t be more of an amazing doctor.

We reach the pool and the kids jump up and down.

“Where is your life jackets?” I ask sternly they point to the sun chair that has them both thrown over it. I pick them up and sit down on the chair.

“Mallory you first come here” She lets me put on her life jacket and then she heads for the shallow pool.

“I wanna go in the big pool” Parker pouts, I shake my head and smile

“If you want to go in the big pool you have to ask your mom or dad, I can’t go swimming” I frown and he nods sadly I zip up his jacket and he follows his sister.

“The little pool is like a big pool” I tell him, it’s true, the little pool could be a big pool for them. He smiles and jumps in, splashing his sister. She makes a face and I laugh.

“You look comfy” Zac struts over to me in swim trunks and a wet body.

“You’ve gotten allot of sun” I notice his tan skin

“I love it here” He sits next to me

“It’s really nice, this cast sucks though, it’s really hot all the time” I frown and he laughs

“You always complain about something”

“When can I take this off”

“When you’re leg is healed” He says strongly. I lean back on the lounger.

“You’ve gotten tan too” He notes with a different tone

“Funny, sun does that hey” I say sarcastically

“How are you doing” He asks quietly

“Fine?” I question

“Have you talked to anyone?” he cautions and I swallow, I still haven’t talked to anyone about anything, I mean I talk to Jessica all the time, she knows everything and Wyatt was with me so he knows but I haven’t talked to anyone else.

“I’m fine” I repeat

“You haven’t heard from Harry or anyone from there?” He leans back as well, staring at me through his sun glasses even though I cant see his eyes I can tell he’s staring at me.

“No, and I haven’t gone on the internet, or turned on a T.V or read a magazine” I whisper harshly, the lump forms in my throat.

“Can we change the topic?” I narrow my eyes at him

“Sure, let me take you out tonight”

My swallow hitches as I drink a sip of cold water

“Wh-What?”

“I think as your doctor you will be safe with me to go out, plus you haven’t been in town yet and it is an amazing site, you cant stay in the house forever”

“I don’t stay in the house, I go on the porch and sometimes I’m out here with them” I point at the kids.

“Tonight, 7 o’clock, you don’t have an option, I’m your doctor”

“You cant use that for everything” I cross my arms as he stands up

“Yes I can, wanna know why? Cause I’m your doctor” He winks at me and stands.

“Get out of here Doctor” I pull my book up to my face to hide my red cheeks.

He smirks and jumps into the big pool, the kids start cheering as he pulls them into the pool. He’s amazing with kids, I smile slightly.

“Nina!” Jessica calls from the patio doors.

“Coming!” I respond

“Watch them okay doctor?” I say seriously with a hint of humor, he gives me a salute from his forehead out while parker climbs his shoulders.

“Hey” I smile at her and wobble into the kitchen area.

“I got you something, I hope it’s not too soon but I can’t help but be excited” She’s all gitty and teenagery, acting as excited as a freshmen being asked to senior prom.

“What?” I look at the big blue bag on the other chair

“Don’t be mad, promise?” She grabs my hand

“I wont I promise” Too be honest, this girl is my best friend, she’s been there for me through everything. She takes care of me in ways Zac cant. I’d be lost without her, I’d never leave my room if it wasn’t for her.

“Okay, I’m so excited” She pulls out the first object out of the bag and it’s a beige Burberry baby trench coat, it’s so cute it makes my heart melt, but not just because it’s cute but because it’s something Harry would wear, I’m sure he owns the adult version, it’s amazing. I cant help it, tears are forming.



“Do you like it? I know you’re only 5 months but we need to start preparing” Her face looks scared, like I’m going to be mad.

“I love it” I hold it and the fabric is smooth.

“He’ll look so cute in it, I bought it a few sizes bigger I think it’s a two” She checks the tag and nods.

“Thank you so much” I smile warmly

“There’s more, sleepers and simple things, I only bought a few things, he’ll need much much more”

“We’ll have to go shopping one day” I look through the bag and see blue sleepers, white ones, and they’re all adorable.

“Yes and we need to find furniture and a room design and plan where you’re having the baby, so, so much to do” She shakes her head and my head starts to hurt, I cant play around anymore, I’m still recovering but I need to start thinking about where I’m going to live, where I’m going to raise little Harry. Did I just call him that… I shake my head

“What?” She asks kindly

“I don’t know, I just wish Harry were here to see all this too”

“He walked out on you, he doesn’t deserve you or this, you don’t need him, I know it’s hard but it will be worth it I promise” She smiles

“I want him to know his dad”

“I would too” She confesses

“Should I call him?” I look up, I’m depending on her answer.

“I would wait, if he wanted to be here he would” She shrugs and I know she’s right.

“I miss El and Dani and the boys” I smile fondly at the memory of them

“Well it doesn’t say anywhere that you can’t talk to them”

“I miss little Ella” I laugh

“Well when your well enough we can go see them?” She suggests, I shake my head.

“I don’t want to just show up, I’m not wanted there” I look down

She strokes my shoulder

“Don’t you have a date tonight?”

I smile “Yeah, help me get ready?”

She grins largely and we head to my bedroom.










Harry’s P.O.V

“What’s your name again love?” I ask as this blonde from the club shoves her tongue down my throat.

“Misty” right, Misty, stripper. She slams shut the door to the bathroom cubicle

“Misty, Misty” I groan as she attacks my throat with her red lips. She grins as she makes her way down my body. She makes it to my pant zipper and looks up at me with a breathy smile. I push her head closer to my bulge and she undoes my pants, my erection springs free and she strokes it up and down with her small hands. She kisses the tip and then licks down my shaft.

“Baby please” I beg and she puts the tip in her mouth. I push forward and she pushes her head down on my penis sucking up and down. I look up.

“My god” I whisper as she goes to work. She’s good. A professional.

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Louis’s P.O.V

“Where’s Harold?” I ask

“Drunk and in the cubicle with a blonde stripper” Liam sips his drink

“That’s the third one in four days” Zayn shakes his head.

“He’s also drunk” Niall points out

“This needs to stop” I frown, he’s been like this all month. Drinking, sex, drinking and more sex. He’s back to his old ways.

“How’s Tia” I try to change the subject

“She’s alright, she’s been with her mom, she took the news of Nina hard, her mom did too, they’re devastated”

“I’ll see her next month, when we go on break” He smiles

“We need to do something about Harry, Simon is ignoring the whole subject, he’s just happy Harry agreed to finish the tour” Zayn throws back his gin.

“Yeah but he’s drunk 95% of the time, remember when he threw up on stage in Peru?” I say sternly. He does the shows and he does them mediocrely but during changes or breaks or when he’s not singing he’s drinking. His water bottle always has something other than water in it.

“And he never comes to meet and greets anymore, he’s been to one since the tour started up again” Liam cracks his knuckles.

“He misses her” Niall looks over at the bathroom

“Yeah, no doubt” I say sarcastically.

Harry’s a mess. He barely talks to us anymore. The only reason we go out with him is to make sure he makes it home and not in a morgue. He drinks so much we carry him out every night. We tell him to stop we’ve told him a million times. He doesn’t listen. He doesn’t care what the public says, or what the media says. The tabloids have ripped him apart and he doesn’t give two shits. It’s horrible. It’s hard seeing your friend go through something so awful and know you cant do anything to help him.. Take the booze away? We’ve tried that, he threatens us and gets angry then finds more booze.. His mother is scared beyond belief, his sister has had over 10 interventions for him. We talk to Anne almost every day cause Harry never answers his phone or goes on it. We rarely have good news for her.

Harry’s P.O.V

“Thanks gorgeous” Mandy or err Misty, stands off her knees and I hand her 250 euros she smiles and walks out of the bathroom. I stumble out and zip up my pants. The boys look over at me with horror written all over their faces. I gulp and stagger over to them.

“Afternoon lads” I laugh

“It’s 1am, lets get going we have a show tomorrow” I decide not to argue.

We walk out side and it’s like walking into a flash mob of photographers. Ever since my… what do the tabloids call it ‘Down ward spiral’ ‘hitting rock bottom’ they haven’t left us alone. I don’t care. I’ve shut off my emotions. Let them take all the pictures they want I’ll always have more money and power than them.

We enter the limo and I pop the champagne open. I offer it to the lads but they shake their heads.

“More for me”

“Maybe you should stop” Louis interjects, I laugh and gulp down more. I can see him getting angry.

“How was that blonde tonight Harry? Give good head? I heard her gawking to the paps outside the club”

“Fantastic head” I grin and drink more

“Nina would be proud” He growls and my blood starts to boil. I throw the bottle across the limo and it smashes on the partition champagne cascading down the glass and onto the limo floor.

Their eyes widen “Don’t fucking say her name!” I scream at him tears threatening to fall.

“Harry…” He sounds apologetic. I blink rapidly avoiding the tears pressing through. The boys look concerned, worried, angry, everything. But nobody says anything. We get to our hotel and I march to my room. I don’t even bother getting into my pajamas, I throw myself on the bed holding the pillow close, I clutch the small photo of Nina I have under it.

“Why did you have to leave me” I whisper angrily

“I love you for gods sake!” I find my drunk self foolishly yelling at a photograph.

I miss her, I miss her more than I can express.

“I cant do this without you love, I cant do this without you” I close my eyes as tears stream down my cheeks.

“I need you, I cant do this anymore” I turn over and feel myself dozing off.

“I love you” My breathing is uneven and shaky “I love you” I clutch the picture close to my chest. “Come back”

“Come back to me baby” my voice is quieter than a whisper.

“Goodnight beautiful” I close my wet eyes and surrender to the darkness sleep presents. The picture held tightly in my hand.

Notes

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THIS IS SO HARD TO WRITE IT'S SO SAD

I want to put them back together so badly but the plot I have planned will be 100x more exciting than throwing them back together right away.