Breathe

Nina’s P.O.V

“Nina” I hear someone outside my door, Wyatt probably. I snuggle my pillow closer to my body.

“Nina, it’s me Jessica”

Oh shit I was way wrong. I want to be nice, I don’t want to be the miserable injured person. I want to be strong and I want to accept help but it’s hard. I’ve been avoiding everything, thinking about the kidnapping, thinking about Dominic… my dad…. Adoptive dad but still the only dad I ever really had…. He was shot dead in front of me, he never loved me like a daughter he was after my money. I feel the tears press through my eyes and that’s the cue to stop thinking. I take a deep breath and close my eyes.

“Can I please come in” She sounds desperate. I don’t want to see anyone.

“Please leave” I say, I sound broken.

“I’m not going anywhere, I’m coming in” She reluctantly opens the door and walks through.

“No go away” I turn my head and stuff it into the other billion pillows on this bed

“You need to get up, you need to get clean, new clothes, fresh clothes. If you’re not going to help yourself I’ll do it” She snaps and my eyes widen. This girl hardly knows me and she’s going to take care of me. I turn my shoulders and look at her. She’s pretty, very pretty, you could never tell she had two twins three years ago.

“You’re going to help me” I stutter, to be honest I feel better with her helping me than Zac or Wyatt.

“Yes, you’re technically my sister and we’ve missed out on allot together, I want to get to know you and this is a good opportunity. We’re stuck in this country for who knows how long” She smiles warmly at me. I look down unsure of this.

“Listen Nina, you’ve been through allot, you and Wyatt. I cant ever repay you for saving my husband, my children’s father. This is the least I can do”

I crinkle my eyebrows, I want help, I know I need help, but I want to do it myself.

“It’s not just you anymore, you have to keep yourself healthy for the baby, you can’t just think about yourself, don’t do it for you do it for your son” She reasons with me. I nod my head, I’ve became more and more attached to this baby than I ever imagined.

“Lets get you up, Zac said we cant get the cast wet so we have to wrap it in plastic or something” She walks over to me and takes the covers off me after dramatically opening the curtains. Sunlight captures the room, I shut my delicate eyes as quick as possible.

“I can get up” I argue when she wraps her arms around me

“No you cant, let me help you or you’ll end up on the floor” She furrows her eyebrows.

I nod like a small child. She lifts me up and I grab hold of the wall and her, we stumble to the bathroom, it took us twenty minutes but we did it.

“We did it!” I smile and she laughs, this is the first time I smiled since we got found. It feels abnormal.

“We need to get you cleaned girl” She sets me on the side of the bath and starts undressing me.

“Thank you” I say quickly

She starts the bath before wrapping my cast in a plastic wrap.

“I hope this holds, lets anchor your foot up just incase” She helps me slide into the warm water and I mentally grin, this is the best feeling in the world.

“Ah a bath tray!” she says excitingly and places the tray across the bath and then lays my leg across it.

“I barley know you and you’ve already seen me naked” I laugh

“We’re all girls here!” She joins in.

“Except him” I giggle and point to my stomach

“How far along are you?” She asks fondly, throwing me some smaller towels to clean my body with. I sit up in the bath and lather soap all over my front.

“I’m not one hundred percent sure but I think 4 months” I say it like a question.

“Second trimester, lets hope you don’t get sick” She frowns

“He’s been pretty good, he’s my little miracle”

“Have you talked to….. Harry?” She’s hesitant to ask, I rub more soap around my body.

“No, I don’t plan to” I angle my eyes down

“We can talk about that another time” She catches onto the hint.

“I just want to get better, have the baby, buy a big house somewhere to call home, probably close to you guys, I want to be close to Wyatt”

She grins big “He loves you, he loves you so much”

“You guys are all I have left” I answer honestly
“It’s going to all be okay” She puts her hand on my shoulder.

“Now, what would you like to wear? You have a whole new wardrobe” She’s almost yelling she’s so ecstatic.

“Something comfy” I respond

“It’s 60 degrees here!” She shouts from the closet, which is attached to the bathroom.

I feel my head getting dizzy and myself slipping back.

“Whoa Whoa” I hear and then two hands are pushing against my back

“Have you taken your meds?” She asks me, I shake my head, shit I forgot.

“Lay back” She helps me lay back onto the bath wall while she snatches my medications from the side table. The sink turns on and a glass is filled.

“Here, shit you have allot” She opens them all and gives me the correct dosage.

“I have to swallow all this?” I complain looking down at it

“That’s what she said” She bursts out laughing and I struggle to hold my laugh in

“I had too, I’m sorry, now take your meds!”

I swallow down…. ALL my meds and the nausea goes away.

“Better?” She asks

“Much” I answer

“Lets hurry up before you pass out and drown” She teases and hands me shampoo and conditioner

“I love the bath”

“Well surprise you can have another bath tomorrow!” She makes another joke while placing my clothes on the counter.

“I’m done” I lift my head out of the water and the bubbles from the shampoo cascade down into the water.

“Lets drain some of the water and then lift you out”

We let the bath sink to halfway and then I hold her hands as we both work to lift me out. I’m 100 pounds you’d think this would be easy.

She hands me a bra and underwear and surprisingly I’m able to get them on without any help.

I look up in the mirror and see all the bruises and lashes scattered around my body, I gasp and my hand raises to my mouth.

“Nina, those mean nothing, you’re incredibly strong, there just a reminder of the pain you went through” Jessica smiles down at me and hands me a tight tee shirt. I’m glad it’s nothing baggy and loose, it makes me feel like I’m going back to bed. The shirt also crops slightly, revealing a few bruises across my hip bones.

“I wanna change my hair color” I pick up a strand and run my fingers along it

“What color?” She questions

“Something different, blonde maybe, I need a change”

“Lets get your pants on first”

I take a look at the leggings and notice she’s cut the fabric just above the knee so it fits onto my cast.

I bend and pull the leggings up “Wow”

“You look brand new!”

“I’m hungry”

“Good! Cause dinner is just ready” She looks at the clock present on the wall above the toilet.

“Do you want the wheel chair? You look tired”

“No” I protest “I want to walk there”

“I have a surprise for you, don’t fall” She cautions back and jogs into the room

She reappears with a pair of crutches, my eyes pop open as she hands them to me

“Zac got you these after he took your IV out, it’s been two weeks since your surgery, it’s time for you to get better he said”

I clutch them under my arms and we leave the room, slowly but surely.

“Careful the floor can be slippery and I think Wyatt just got back from the beach” She has her arms open around me incase I fall.

“Turn here” She directs me, this is putting strain on my arms but I’ll push through it. We enter the dining room. Wyatt is strapping the kids into their high chairs and Zac sits talking to him about some sort of sport.

The room stops when we arrive

“Nina, you look amazing” Zac stands and articulates slowly. I smile at him while looking down.

“You’re walking!” Wyatt shouts

“Not yet, crutches is a start though” I smile kindly at Zac who stares at me with a grin that reaches his eyes but doesn’t split his mouth.

“Sit please” Zac stands and pulls out the chair, I sit in it and Zac puts my leg on another chair parallel to me.

“Dinner is served!” Jessica walks out with trollies and trollies of food. Four people behind her, servers I’m assuming start loading our plates with food.

Zac laughs when mine is placed in front of me

“I’m never going to eat all this” I answer his laughter

“Just try, you haven’t eaten solid food in a while, please take it slow though” He goes from friend to doctor in .5 seconds. I like it though.

“You’re still my patient” He whispers

“Yes doctor” I take a bite of potatoes

Harry’s P.O.V

I still cant move, I’ve laid in this bed, staring at the empty space where she once was. The tears rejuvenate every 20 minutes or so. I know I cant go on like this, I know I need to get up.

I spin myself around and my legs touch the floor. I run my hands through my hair and then I let my head fall into my hands.

I need to do something, I need to distract myself. I walk into the hall and down into the living room. Everyone is there, still.

“How long have you guys been here?” I narrow my eyes

“Since the last time you saw us” Liam answers

“Are you ready to talk?” Dani smiles at me, pain hits my gut. I shake my head.

“No I want to go out, I want alcohol” I answer simply ignoring the feeling in my stomach.

“You cant-“ Zayn starts and anger builds up inside me

“For fuck sakes” I grab a glass and throw it across the kitchen

“I just want to go out and I want to get drunk, drunk to the point where I black out and hopefully forget about all of this!” I scream at them, they stare back at me, lost for words. I don’t care, if they aren’t going to come with me I’ll go myself.

“Fuck you guys” I growl and march back into my room to get dressed.

Louis’s P.O.V

“We can’t let him go alone” I state, anxiety running though my bones.

“No we can’t” Liam agrees with me

“Has anyone heard from Niall?” I shake my head

“He’s skyping or something with Tia, he’ll be over soon” Zayn reads off his phone

“Fuck that, tell him to meet us at the club on 6th”
“We’re not drinking tonight lads, Harry’s a mess and we need take care of him” I scold them they all agree.

“I’ll go get him” I walk down the hallway and open the door to his room.

He’s sitting on the end of his bed with a phone pressed against his ear tears just streaming down his face. I feel bad, I feel like shit, I miss Nina, we all do.

“Harry” I’ve never seen him this bad before

he looks up, eyes red, he sniffles in.

“Her phone is still working, I call to hear her voice mail, so I can hear her voice again” He says slowly trying to steady his breath.

“I’m scared I’ll forget what her voice sounds like, I remember it so clearly but sometimes I pause and I get scared” He puts the phone down and re dials the number. The phone goes up to his ear and I can hear in the background.

“Hey it’s Nina, please leave a message after the beep… Oh and have a nice day!” the tears stream faster down his face.

“I miss her so much” His hands shake

“Harry, lets go, come on we’re going out” I say slowly, he nods

“Okay”

“Okay get dressed” I tap his shoulders and he gets up.

“How is he?” Zayn asks

“Bad, very, very bad” I whisper

-----

4 hours later.

“Harry please slow down” I grab his shoulders as he takes the tequila bottle and tips it down his throat.

“No waaay” He slurs and staggers backwards.

“It’s four am, it’s time to go!” I yell at him, he laughs uncontrollably and I can see his eyes rolling into the back of his head, he’s going to pass out.

“Zayn! Liam!” I yell and they rush over to me, Harry passes out…. Like I fucking said. We arch him over mine and Zayns shoulders and carry him out to the car, like we thought, paps fucking everywhere, we try our best to seal the gruesome scene up but I know they got good shots of a drunk passed out Harry.

“He needs another way to cope with this shit” I sit him in the middle of the car, his head droops and falls over onto the middle piece between the driver and passenger.

“We can’t be babysitting him, staying up every night I have a kid” Liam whines

“We all lost a friend, Harry lost his best friend, give him a break” I defend my drunk friend.

“Nina” I hear Harry say in his sleep

I feel bad, for him, for us, for everyone.

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We get back to the apartment and I put the guy to bed, carefully placing a large bowl on the floor incase of vomit.
“I think I’m going to stay here again” I inform the lads and El

“We all will” Zayn protests

“I can’t Dani will kill me if I’m not home” Liam frowns and then yawns.

“Well me and Perrie can stay here, we’ll take the couch, it pulls out into a futon, you guys take the extra bedroom” Zayn tries his hardest to help. El drops her head onto my shoulder.

“Alright thanks lad, Liam have fun with the Ella and Dani, goodnight”

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“What are we going to do about Harry” El cuddles into my side

“I don’t know love” I’m lost for words

“I miss Nina, I didn’t think-“ I cut her off quickly

“Lets not talk about it please, I’m too tired”

She plants a small kiss on my cheek before turning over

“Goodnight”

Notes

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