Breathe

Two weeks later.

It’s been 14 days since I’ve talked to Harry, I’ve survived my first couple days back at school and it’s been a welcome distraction, it keeps me busy. The time has flown by with all the work to do and new people. Professor Keaton smiles down at me, eyes twinkling he leans against my desk.

“ Excellent work Nina, you are going to be a phenomenal student” some how I manage to curl my lips upward a semblance of a smile.

“ Class, remember, essays are due on Wednesday” Keaton calls out after the class is dismissed. Collecting my bag, I head for the door, New York air is hot which means summer is coming, I take a deep breath which doesn’t fill the void of Harry being gone.

My apartment is empty, Tia is still with Mom and Dad, she’s giving me space, and decided I need alone time apparently. I miss Tia the apartment is too big without her. I turn on the flat screen and am face to face with a pair of green eyes and curly brown hair.

“ Harry Styles wild night, girls galore as the British singer brings home two London girls, is he using this as a way to get over the recent break up of his New York love, Nina Vinci ” I close my eyes briefly remembering what he said about reporters and entertainment shows, they publish what they think will get them ratings, half the time they don’t even know the real story.

I take refuge in that thought; maybe the girls were his cousins. Why does this bother me, he’s not mine anymore. I jump when I hear the apartment buzzer ring. Who could it be? I press the intercom

“ Delivery for Ms. Vinci” A bored adolescent voice answers, sadness sweeps through me, a part of me wishes it were Harry. I lifelessly drag myself to the foyer to find a young man leaning against a wall with ear buds in both ears holding a big cardboard box, I sign for the package and bring it back upstairs. I open the box and inside there are two dozen long stemmed red roses and a white card.

Hope school is going well
I miss you
- Harry Styles

I stare at the card, the hollow hole in my chest expanding, then I examine the roses. They are way too beautiful to be thrown out, I slowly walk with them to the kitchen to trim and put them in a vase.

I lay in bed staring at the white ceiling, I still haven’t gotten use to sleeping without Harry. I feel the vibrations of my phone and quickly answer the incoming call without looking at who it was – stupid move.

“ Hello” I say weakly

“ NINA” I hear Dani and El chime in on the other end, oh no, I can’t do this, tears threaten to fall

“ Hi”

“ How are you?” Dani asks softly

“ I’m okay, how are you? How’s the baby?”

“ It’s really good, I’m showing now” I hear her smile

“ Harrys a mess Nina” El says quietly

“ What do you mean” I almost sound too concerned

“ You need to come to London, he doesn’t talk to anyone, he locks himself in his room most of the day, I’ve never seen him like this”

“ There’s nothing I can do, he’ll get over me eventually, its called moving on”

“ He doesn’t want to move on” El informs me

“ He hasn’t tried to talk to me” I frown

“ Please come out to London” Dani begs

“ I can’t I have school, and plus not like anything is going to happen if I come out”

“ Please think about it” El suggests

“ Are you talking to Nina?” I hear a familiar deep voice in the background, Oh my poor Harry sounds horrible.

“ I have to go” I say quickly before hanging up, I place my hand on my forehead and take a deep breath. Why are you doing this to me Styles..

I curl up beside my pillow and let sleep take over.

I don’t have classes today, which allows me to sit at home and glance at London flights El and Dani have sent me. I find one for tomorrow at 9:30am, what am I doing thinking about this, Harry hasn’t tried contacting me, he hasn’t said anything about us getting back together, he hasn’t tried. I need a drink, I walk over to the cupboards and take out a bottle of Vodka, I undo the cap and take a swig – It’s five o’clock somewhere right? An hour later I’ve downed the bottle and am defiantly not doing too well. I stumble to the living room and pick up my phone, without thinking I dial Harrys number

“ Nina?” He answers on the first ring, surprised to hear from me

“ Hah Harrreehh” I slur at him

“ Nina are you okay? You don’t sound normal” His voice is filled with concern

“ whaaat I’m sooo okay” A drunken laugh rises from my throat

“ Have you been drinking?”

“ What do you care?”

“ Nina this is stupid, of course I care, now stop it, where are you?”

I quickly make something up

“ In noooahs bed” I lie, Noah is a boy in my English class whom I’ve never spoken too

“ Who the fuck is Noah?” He snaps at me

“ Woooaah Mr. Styles calm down”

“ Nina so help me, is it your new boy?” He sounds hurt, this needs to end

“ No”

“ Have you slept with him” He asks cautiously

“ No”

“ Who’s the last guy you’ve slept with” Jeez Harry I know what you’re getting at stop this.

“ Some British guy named Harry Styles on the floor of my bedroom” I hear him chuckle quietly

“ I miss you” I say without thinking and quickly regret it

“ But it doesn’t matter cause we’re over” I add

“ Nina I want to see you”

“ I don’t want to see you Harry” my drunken mind takes over

“ I love you” he whispers and I break. Tears start streaming down my face, I want to see him and I want to be with him

“ Baby please don’t cry” He says in his perfect accent

“ Harry”

“ Yes love”

“ I have to go” I lied again, I couldn’t do this with him right now over the phone.

“ Please don’t go” He resays his last words to me and the tears worsen

“ I love you” My voice hitches on the last word

“ I want you” He pleads with me

“ Just please Harry I can’t do this, we’re not meant for each other”

“ Don’t say that” his voice is low, its too much, I clicked end on the phone hanging up on him. I went onto my mac and booked the London flight for 9:30 am tomorrow morning not thinking, clearly. I got out my phone again and called Dani

“ Hey I’m coming to London tomorrow, pick me up at the airport? Don’t tell the boys or Harry” I heard her shriek on the other end

“ OH MY GOD YES” I flinch at her screaming into my drunken brain

“ I’ll be in at 4:45pm your time, I’m going to go get some sleep”

“ OKAY BYE LOVE YOU”

“ Love you too”

I hang up the phone

Notes

So shes going to London ! comment.rate.subscribe