A Change At Heart

-Harry-

I woke up and noticed my face was in someones neck.. I look up to see Layla staring at the ceiling .. I stood still and closed my eyes pretending I was asleep.. Her soft fingers were playing with my hair and it felt amazing.. She sighed and I felt her lips press to my forehead..then nose.. Then cheek.. And she stopped right in front of my lips.. My heart was beating insanely fast..

I felt her breath hitting my lips.. She sniffled and gave me a soft peck on the lips .. I heard her sniffle again.. Then I felt hot tears hitting my cheek.. I shot up and looked at her face.. Her cheeks were black and purple.. I was confused ? I haven't hit her since I was sick.. Then my face fell.. Memories of last night flooded through my mind.. I hit her.. I called her Sarah..

"Harry" she whispered her voice cracking ..
"Do you remember anything?" she asked.. I looked at her and nodded..

She sat up with me and took me in her arms.. I was suprised and stiffened as she ran her fingers through my hair and held me close to her chest..

"Whoever Sarah was is a stupid bitch.. Listen to me she lost a good thing okay? She doesn't deserve you .. You don't have to hate women because of what she did" she sniffled telling me.. I looked at her confused..

"How did you know I hate women because of Sarah?" I asked cringing at her name..

"You were talking in your sleep" she said.. I looked down in embarrassment but she lifted my face so my eyes met hers..

"What did I say?" I asked

"You said you turned gay for a while after she broke up with you because you couldn't stand women anymore" she said her face serious.. I widened my eyes and shook my head.. She cracked a smile and started laughing..

"I'm kidding" she smiled and I sighed..

"Really though what did I say?" I asked..

"you said you couldn't believe it was a bet.. That you gave her your all and to be treated like this? You said because of you I hate women.. And that's all .. But I put the pieces together and now I know you use and treat women as pieces of shit because that's how Sarah treated you" she finished tearing up.. I looked down and had a few tears swell up myself..

"Who is she Harry?" she asked..

"In high school... When I first moved here.. I was alone always.. I hated everything and everyone because I didn't want to leave my old home... That was until I met Sarah.. She.. Made me happy again.. She was my first in everything.. Sex.. Kiss.. Love.. Or so I thought.. I found out senior year at graduation she didn't love me.. I proposed to her and she looked like she's seen a ghost.. All er friends busted out laughing and said you really thought she loved you? The whole time we went out she was secretly dating her real boyfriend brad behind my back.. I hated her for putting me through that at graduation of all places.. Ever since then I use girls" I finIshed crying in her neck once again..

"Harry I'm so sorry.. You shouldn't have gone through that.. I'm sorry" she cried with me..

"Now I know love isn't real" I said sitting up..

"Love is real .. You just need to find someone who loves you just as much as you love them.." she said looking down blushing..

"Noone loves me" I scoffed...

"I do" she whispered ..and i froze.. She looked at me and smiled..

"Liar" I shook my head remembering how Sarah hurt me..

"Yes I do Harry.. I have since I first met you".. She said furrowing her eyebrows..

"How could you love someone who beat you and butt raped you?" I said raising my voice..

"Because you didn't fully rape me.. I knew you were different that night because you could've taken my virginity and you didn't.. And also that week I didn't see you killed me I cried because I missed you!" she shouted..

"No no never again I promised myself never again.. " I got up and started walking away.. But layla grabbed my wrist..

"Harry I'm not Sarah! I would never treat you like that!" she shouted as a tear slipped from her eye.. I shook my head and opened the door about to leave..

"Don't shut me out again please I can't take that please!" she pleaded as I shut the door on her locking it.. I heard her soft sobs from behind the door and I shut my eyes..

I was scared when she said she loved me because the truth was I loved her too.

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