Can't Take It

im laying on my bed and look at the time. shit! its only eight in the morning. I knew harry wouldn't be up to going anywhere now but maybe I could at least hear from him. I pull out my phone and call him.
"hello?" I hear a groggily voice say. oops I must have waken him up.
" oh.. harry im sorry I did-"
" lou? is that you?" its almost as if I could see him smiling as he said that.
" yes it is. who else!! " I joke.
" okay well.. whats up?" he asks.
" well I was wondering if you were still on for today. you know to hang out?" I wait for an answer.
" yes sure but can we go to your place.. I don't want to go out." he says.
" why don't you wanna go out.?"
" just can I or not?" he shouts.
" jeez yes its fine. but why don't you want to go out?" I was beginning to feel like maybe I embarrassed him.
" its a long story.. ill explain when I get there. im calling a taxi right now so give me about and hour." he says excitedly. wait.. he has to work.
" sure whatever I don't mind if you come now at eight in the morning! but don't you have to work?" I laugh. I can hear him chuckle to.
" well yes. but... im coming now. Ill call in sick. ill text you when im on my way!"
" okay bye."
" bye.." he hangs up quickly. well fuck. I slam my phone down and look around. this hotel was a piece of fucking shit and I had harry coming over. the man of my dreams is about to walk into a total dump. I jump out of bed and look in the mirror as I am taking a piss. my face.. oh god my hair. and I didn't have time for a shower! well I am completely fucked at this point. well maybe I can take a quick shower. I don't pull my boxers up I rip them off and jump into the shower. I start the water off already blazing hot and I immediately fall in love with the feeling of the hot water rushing down my back.
ive been in the shower for a little over 45 minutes and relize I havnt even so much as touched the soap. so I fling my head up. holy mother of god I put it back in my bag. I leave the water running and walk out not bothering to grab a towel because why the fuck should I its my room. I walk out and go straight to my bag when I hear a laugh. holy SHIT! I jump up and turn around covering my cock from exposure. I see harrys face light up. im so embarrassed I run back to the shower and dive in.
"HARRY! WHAT THE FUCK!" I scream so he can hear me.
" Louis.. calm down. now what did you come out here for anyway?" he says standing by the doorframe of the bathroom.
" soap. grab it for me will ya.?" I question.
" sure thing." I swear he probably smirked when he said that. he comes back a moment later and slides in the shower. like his whole body. he is standing in the shower. he is fully clothed I might add.
" har-" he puts his finger over my mouth and looks at me. he drops the soap. he slowly begins to lean in so close to my face.
" Louis. ive missed you." he barly whispers and pulls me in for a hug. my naked body is pressed against his clothed body and I feel warm. im surprised he hast cringed at the boiling water pouring down on us.
" you too harry." I pull away. it then gets awkward. he just stares at me.
" uhm.. well I don't... think this is not how I-"
" wanna do something Louis?" harry cuts me off.
" sure." I nod. he pulls me in and places love bites all along my neck. I knew this was wrong but it felt so right. he slowly moved up to my lips and started kissing me softly. his tongue glided across my bottom lip. I loved it when he did that. my hands travel to the hem of his shirt and I pull at it. he gets my drift and yanks his shirt off revealing a butterfly tattoo I havnt noticed before. must be new? he then travels back down to my waist and finds my hardened member. I guess it wouldn't have been that hard to find. and he takes it all in to his mouth.
" HARRY!" I moan in pleasure as he bobs his head. I buck my hips toward him playfully begging for more suction from his pretty mouth. he gives in and sucks on my tip. I already feel the tension in my stomache and im about to come already. shit! I didn't want to but I was about too.
" your so hard Louis! I fucking love it!" harry travels back up to my lips and kisses me once more. I suddenly feel the tension in my stomach go down a little. he rubs our groins together playfully. his pants are still on so it feels a little weird. but oh well. then he begins to wank my cock and in no time I release. he smiles at the work he has done and gives me one more reassuring kiss. he walks out.
my shower is done and I see harry sitting on the couch wrapped in a towel. I get the courage to talk to him.
" harry.. what.. what was that for?" I manage as I sit not to close to him. he looks at me.
" what do you think Louis?" he smiles. but I am still confused.
" I don't know harry.. just tell me?" I respond seriously.
" well im deeply in love with you Louis. and I needed that. its good to remember what we had." he finishes. wait.. he didt plan on fucking me. saying he loved me then leaving did he.
" harry.. are you.. are you fucking with my feelings?" I say tears at my eyes.
" no.. I wouldn't. I love you okay? but.." he slowly trails off.
" but what!" I shout this time.
" we cant be together Louis.. I have a boyfriend." oh my fucking god. I start to cry and stand up.
" get out harry now!" I scream. he stand up and walks toward me.
" we can still be-" I shoot him a glare.
" why don't I just give you my dead dog harry! then we can be friends." I shout. he just gets up and leaves. im so glad he left! I should go to. im so dumb thinking I can fix things. I pull open my drawer and start to throw stuff into the suit case. I grab my jacket out of the drawer and something falls out. a letter. I pick it up. the top of it said: Open when you need me but I'm gone..... I drop it on the ground and fall to my knees. what have I done.

Notes

awh Louis!! and he found the letter:( awh the one he wrote for harry.