Can't Take It

I am laying in bed and harry has only left like four hours ago. I am staring at the letter remembering the day I wrote it. I felt so loved that day. I mean after a long trip and coming home sex I couldn't have planned my future better. but then.. harry. he messed up again. he always messed up. ALWAYS! or at least I thought. but what if I am the one messing up. what if im the reason our relationship failed. I roll over and stare out the window. I knew I should probably get out of this fucking town but not yet. I hear my phone ring and I answer it.
" hello?" I say covering up my crying voice.
" hey!! its me!" okay..
" who the fuck is... oh LIAM!! hows it going!" I shout sitting up.
" nothing here honestly. you mum misses you like mad and.. to be honest havnt seen much of niall or zayn. they are so weird lately.." he trails off. I remember the day I saw them kiss but shake it away.
" yeah.. I think I might head home here soon.." I whisper gripping my bed sheets to stop my tears from spilling out.
" with harry or.."
" no without him." I say stubbornly.
" oh Louis no. you cant! I mean you went there for him! what happened?" he is concerned now.
" I don't know liam.. I just don't and you.. you don't want to hear the details."
" NO. I do now tell me im your best mate." he begs. I sink in.
" he came over and.. okay well the first night I was here yeah? I found him at a bar. as a stripper and I booked him for a dance hoping we could tlk and it didn't go all that great there so we went out to a café. then he ran away from some guys. then he came over here today and.. and." I stop as my eyes water back up.
" and what Louis?" liam begs on.
" we fucked. that's the casual way of putting it. then he said he had a boyfriend...and I feel like.. to be the one he is cheating with on somebody else sickens me! he is an animal I swear!" I begin to feel anger now.
" no.. listen Louis... your my brother for real. and I ... I feel like if you come back your making a huge mistake." he softens his voice.
" a mistake! he clearly has moved on and he thinks pulling the I still love you but bit is gunna MAKE ME WANNA BE HIS FUCK BUDDY!!! HE IS SO WRONG! YOU DONT EVEN KNOW!" I am yelling now. I stand up and stomp over to the window and break down.
" you need me. don't you." liam coos.
" more than you know im com-"
" no.. im coming down there and .. and im going to help you gt throught this. we are going to get harry back for you!" he sounds a little excited.
" no liam.. hes different now.. the harry I fell in love with is just.. hes just gone. hes not coming back. he has his own stripper ways now and.. I cant." I try.
" NO. NO NO. you CAN! your CANNER.. erm if that makes sense. just hear me out I want you to be happy and if harry makes you happy then hey. harry styles coming right up." he was like a father sometimes and that's why he is my go to and my best friend.
" no.. you don't hav-"
" I want to. you cant give up okay. harry si still there but remember this isn't your fault. things happen and well sometimes you forget how to handle them but.. where theres a will theres a way. and also I would like to speak with harry when I get there. im leaving today so. give me like a day and a half.. or day I don't know." he sounds indescisive but im so glad hes coming. even though.. I don't think harry will change because liam says too. and plus harry has a new boyfriend. my nose is cringing at the thought.
" okay just knock four times!! and thank you lima bean. really for everything." I say.
" love you Louis! and your welcome! its my honor to be of your service." he chuckles.
" okay love you too bye!" I hang up.
I toss my phone over to the side and just lay back down. I am jolted when I hear a sudden pounding on the door. I stand up and wonder who is here. it cant be liam. I walk over and open the door.
" are you Louis.. Louis ahh tom.. tomlin.. tomlinson??" a built figure says practically in my house.
" yes and wh-" I don't even finish my sentence. all I know is I see a fist and everything goes black.

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