Harry's diary

Oh my fucking god. I can't do this. I really can't. I pick up my burrito I just made and take a bite. Liam walks into the room.
" Hi." I say sheepishly.
" Harry don't even." Liam turns to walk away.
" No Liam you don't understand!" I try.
" What don't I understand harry! Do I not understand you want to leave the band? Because you made that pretty fucking clear! Also maybe I'm not understanding your willing to leave us! Your best mates over nothing. Oh wait over something we don't understand! Why don't you tell us harry so then maybe we will understand." He is on the verge of crying. I feel awful. I don't speak. " that's what I thought harry. I don't even know who you are anymore." He leave the room. God what have I done. No what has josh done. This is all his fault. I hear the front door open and I assume it's Louis. He stumbles into the kicthen.
" Harry.. What are you doing home." He says.
" I live here Louis. "
" no you don't.. Well you shouldn't." Louis remarks.
" What the fuck are you talking about."
" You said you wanted to leave the band so why don't you." He has a point.
" I changed my mind." I turn back around. But then I remember something. " Louis.. When is your wedding." I can practically hear his heart stop.
" I don't know. I'm just engaged. We havnt gone that far."
" with who? I havnt seen you go out in months." It's true I havnt he was always home with me.
" Ele.. Ahem.. Elaniese. I mean elenour." He forgot her name? What the hell.
" She must be important." I joke.
" Sorry I drank a little." He's lying. First off he doesn't drink by himself and second of all I have never seen someone forget their fiancées name.
" Sure." I'm not accusing him of lying but something is up.
" Okay Louis this isn't like you. What is going on.?" I the to face him once again. He is staring Intensly at the sink.
" What's going on with me! Harry what's going in with you! You don't kiss your best friend and then expect me to be normal again. You raise hopes then. Stomp on them!" He looks really timid. What did he mean raise hopes then stomp on them?
" what do you mean... I raise hopes and-" I slowly trail off trying to piece it together.
" I'll let you figure it out harry." He stomps away. God this is all my fault. It's almost three. I have to go and do what josh is making me do. He is pushing it a little this time. Sooner or later people are going to think I'm a bad kid. Today I have to go the corner of stern berg and hang out with the local pot heads. This is not going to be good, all of the boys think I want to leave the band and now my only excuse will be for drugs. I want to leave because of drugs. I grab my coat and throw it on. I'm out the door in two seconds and begin my journey to hell.

Notes

Poor hazza.... And does anyone know did harry send Louis a bday tweet? I didn't get to see because my twitter was deactivated:(