Harry's diary

" okay harry it isn't that hard." Josh is staring at me Intensly now.
" it is hard I can't do that! Why would you even want me to do that!" I am trying to yell as loud as I can. Josh stands up from his seat and grabs me by the collar if my shirt. He slams me down by the wall next to it.
" You will do what ever I fucking say stylinson! Or else." He spits at me then goes and sits back down.
" What ever!" Tears are going down my face! " I have no fucking choice do I!" I grab my stuff and head out the door. I'm headed toward the house when I relize.. I can't go there either. Ahh.
I turn a corner and decide to walk down some alley. It was really dark and I couldn't really see. I walk past a huge garbage can and I hear something. I stop dead in my tracks.
" Who's there..." I hear no answer so I continue my walk. I hear more noises. Then before I know it some guys are on too of me.
" get the fuck off me!" I try to push them off but I feel them punching me in the face. I'm beginning to fade but I can feel them searching my body and hear whispering.
" This bloke ain't got shit on him! Where all his money!" Some of the guys are saying.
" I don't know! Let's just go." I hear some people run off but the I get a blow to the stomach. I wince in pain. I feel his fists go into my face once more. I can feel my lip rip. Ahh shit!
" Serves you right fucker!" He spits on me and leaves. I've had enough for one night. I lay there for a minute collecting myself. I attempt to stand. My knees are a little wobbly and I can feel my ribs withering in pain. I have to get back to the house without being seen. I sneak my way in through the back.
The house is quite. Everybody should be sleeping. I close the door slowly and make my way to the washroom to clean up. I take a look in the mirror and my eyes is slightly bruised. And my lip has a big rip in it. I press an rag lightly on my lip and wipe the blood away. The cut looked smaller now but my eyes bruised up more. Shit what was I suppose to tell the guys. And would they even care after what josh is making me do? I can't think straight. And josh is getting out if hand. I go to my room and pass out.
I wake up to Niall screaming in my ear.
" Harrrrrrrry!" I roll over forgetting about yesterday.
" Woah what the hell happened mate!" Niall looks at my face.
" Oh.. Some guys in an alley." I brush it off.
" Oh uhm okay.. Well josh texted us all and said you have something important to tell us and we didn't want to wait so come downstairs." Niall scurries away. I can't do this.. Josh can't make me do this. But my diary will be shown if I don't. Ah I have to. I slowly make my ways to the stairs and see the boys waiting. Louis won't even look at me after what I did.
" Well Boys I uhm.. I. " I manage a fake cough. " I am thinking about quitting the band." The words slipped out to easily. They all gasp!
" Are you fucking serious harry! After all we have done!" Louis head shoots up as Liam spoke.
" Why... Why harry!" Nialls eyes fill with tears. I wish I could tell them that I'm staying and they will find out I'm staying in a week. But I have to do what josh says for the sake of my sanity and my diary. All josh wanted was some publicity and now he is going to get it. I just hoe it doesn't go out if hand. I look at Louis who is tearing up. He stands up and runs out the door.
" I'll get em!" I go after him leaving the boys flustered. I grab his shoulders and pin him against the wall.
" Louis what is going on!" His eyes tear up some more.
" Harry why did you kiss me." He looks at my eyes.
" Because... Because.... I don't know. It was a spur In the moment and I'm sorry!"
" well it's not okay harry! And for your information I'm getting married so it is definitely never going to be okay for that AGAINNNN.!" He let's out a sigh and starts to breathe heavily. I let go and let him run to wherever he was going.
wait.... He's getting married! Tears come pouring from my eyes! What the fuck! To who!? I lunch the wall and nearly break my hand. Now the one I love will never be mine.

Lois pov: SURPRISEEEEE!

I wish josh wasn't making me do this. What did he have against gays anyway? God he is such a prick. I don't even know how he got ahold of my journey notebook. And now if I don't do exactly what the fuck he says it's my ass on the line and he will show the book to harry and I can't have that. I wrote about him a lot in this book. I am madly in love with him and he can never ever find out. But for josh to make me appear as if I'm getting married to some girl he dragged in yesterday! Yea not going fucking well. I havnt even told the boys yet that I'm " engaged" just harry. Goddamn it. And last night when harry kissed me I felt a spark and I knew then that I was for sure in love with him. It makes me mad that I know he would never feel the same. He's too much of a womanizer. I mean.. He said he kissed me because if the spur of the moment and me believe him. Perfect harry falling for and imperfect Louis... Never in a million years. But maybe he did... No.. He doesn't tommo. Just keep walking.

Notes

I threw Louis pov in there because I just couldn't wait to tell you josh is playing both of themmmmmm not like playing like using haha for money and publicity