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It's been 3 days since I saw Liam's friend. We texted a bit, but not that much -not that I'm complaining. We didn’t discuss about what could possibly happen and go wrong. This kind of conversation is easier via texts, but preferably done verbally. I hadn't saw Zayn either. I'm more avoiding him, let's be honest. He'll bombard me with questions regarding the voice. I can't tell him more about what he knows; it could be too dangerous for him. At the end, he's just a normal human being. Well, even with my glitch, I have no clue if I'm able to defend myself against the voice. What happened at Zayn's house confirmed I can't.

Walking in the alleys of the super market, I contemplated the diversity of the food on the shelf. I hate doing the groceries, because that's mean I have to go outside of home and confront the judgmental stares of everyone. But I'm doing this for Granny. I don't want her to hurt her back or falling on the ground because of the slippery roads. Liam gets her meds at the drugstore and I do the groceries. Sometimes, if she wants to visit a friend, Liam would do the lift. If he's not home, I walked with her. Since it's winter's break for me, I'm more available to help her with anything when my brother can't. When I'm at school, she still goes out, but less often.

Maybe we are overprotective to her, but she's the only family we have now.

‘’The spices and herbs are here.’’ Niall said, pointing at the end of the alley we were.

It’s been… 4-5 days I’ve met Niall? Well therefore, he’s always with me. By now, I’ve come to the conclusion he’s not a lost soul, because all the spirits I’ve met, they were never with me. They just showed up randomly, I explained them the situation, and then a matter of an hour or a day, they are gone to where they belong.

Usually, I’m always scared by them, to the point I hated them. I wish they would just disappear immediately and stopped bugging me. But Niall isn’t annoying me at all. In fact, he’s puzzling. He pushed me to search for all the missing pieces and glued them together to see what he’s got in his head. It’s the first time I’m getting attached to a lost soul- or whatever he is.

I walked further in the aisle and reached the stand of spices and herbs. My fingers tapped delicately the different bottles until I found what my Granny had written down on the grocery’s list. She’s making her old chicken and dumpling soup, and some of the ingredients are missing in our cupboard.

As I grabbed the cloves, I remembered it was the last thing I had to buy. I put it carefully in the grocery cart and headed to the station were we pay. I spotted a free line and walked to it. I parked my cart aside and start putting what I had collected for Granny on the small conveyor belt.

‘’You are not a gentleman, Niall. You could have helped me. Jeez, boys these days and their rudeness.’’ I mentally said to Niall.

‘’It’s not my job. Work, you lazy ass.’’ Niall replied, trying to be annoyed. He’s so not a good actor!

I guess we are kind of friend, since we are stuck together. Isn’t it sound weird, having a friendship with someone who died seven years ago? More like creepy in my opinion. Maybe I’m really schizophrenic. But no, I’m not. I know it to well.

I bite my lower lip to trap my laughter from Niall’s bad acting. Looking up at the cashier to pay, she gave me a disgusted look, knowing who I was. I paid, trying to push all the hurtful stares on me.

‘’Mom, could we took another line? The freak is on that one.’’

The clerk who was supposed to put my purchases in plastic bags almost ran away to another station. Guess I’ll do it myself. I grabbed a plastic bag and shoved everything in as fast as I could.

‘’Honey, don’t say that it’s mean.’’

‘’But mom! I don’t want to be curse! Don’t you know who she is?’’

I looked over to the little girl. She was maybe 10 years old. When our eyes made contact, she gasped and hide behind her mother.

‘’I hate you!’’ She spat.

‘’Lorie, stop!’’ Her mother scowled.

I hurriedly took my bag and exited the grocery. My breathing accelerated, I couldn’t take it. How weak am I, letting the words of an innocent girl taking the best of me.

I am beyond tired of all this shit, of all my life, of all those stares, of all those comments. Of those rumors about me. If they could just shut up and let me be, everything would be so easy. If I could get away front my glitch, I would. If I could escape that pitiful life, I certainly would.

More importantly, if I could go back in time and save my parents.

‘’Have you forgotten I can give you all that?’’

Tears were now blurring my vision. That’s why I hate so much going outside: it always ends up with my crying alone in my bedroom, not bothering to do something else than mourning at what life decided to do with me.

‘’Enda, calm down.’’ Niall tried to comfort me, and it worked a bit, but not as much as I would like it to.

His words weren’t enough to stop what was going to happen.

Sue and Pamela were walking on the same sidewalk as us. These two girls are inseparable. If Pam is talking to someone, Sue will be aside her. If Sue gets her hands dirty, Pam will be her assistant. If one of them spots me in the school, it’s the end of a peaceful day – school is never a peaceful place to me, let’s just say they are ruining my day even more.

I tried to ease up a bit my emotions caused by the little girl. I don’t want them to see how weak I can be. I’m always doing the best I could in school to appear tough and dangerous as everyone thinks I am.

‘’This could get ugly.’’ I warned Niall.

When they finally focused their visions on me, Pamela smiled horridly, whispering something in Sue’s ear.

‘’Look, Pam: the Freak is doing her groceries.’’

‘’Oh, she’s helping her mommy. Such a sweetheart!’’

‘’Pam! She has no mommy no more!’’ Sue faked gasped in indignation.

The anger in me that I tried to bury in the deepest of my stomach erupted, my hand holding the plastic bag clutching around the fabric. How dare they laughed about my dead mother!?

‘’Feel the outrage of their acts, of their harmful words. They deserved the worst of pain, bigger than what they are giving you.’’

I could feel his presence in me, but more vivid and more knowledgeable than the two other times. I felt his power in me, beginning in where all my anger was. More than ever, I envied it; I wanted to feel it everywhere, in every bone in me, in every muscles of my body. Just a little taste of it won’t kill me.

No, don’t let the voice wins. It wants something from me, and it will get it if I let it win. I can’t let it get me.

‘’But you are tired of all this, you said it yourself.’’

I continued walking, ignoring the girls with all I had left. All they wanted, it’s a reaction from me, and I won’t let them have it. And the voice waits for this moment.

‘’Hey, we’re talking to you!’’ Pam yelled behind my back.

‘’Well she’s not, obviously.’’ Niall replied.

Though they couldn’t hear him, which just made everything more funny.

‘’Hey, you freaking bitch!’’ Seconds after, Sue pushed roughly my back, making me lose my balance. I stumbled even more trying to stay still on my foot, but I end up crashing in a snowbank. The coldness of the snow was now all over my face.

That’s enough.

Notes

Heeeeyoooo! :)

Yeah, well, I felt inspire today! I wanted to write on this story :)
Questions:
-We still don't know what is the name of Liam's friend. Who do you think it could be? One of the boys (1D) or just another character from my imagination? Haha, won't tell you ;)
-What could this boy do to Enda? I mean, could they like, become a team?
-Well, we can see Enda and Niall gets along pretty good. But, Niall is a sort-a lost soul, could he disappeared one day too, like all the other lost spirits?
-Would the voice finally gets Enda's reaction, and use is power on her?
Stay tune to find out :)
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