That L word

I have been thinking of zayns words a lot. I mean he had a good point and now I don't know what to do.
the house is quiet. It's eleven at night and I can't sleep. I roll out of bed and loom around for my phone for light. I find it under some laundry and hold it out in front of me with the light on. I miss a step on the stairs and almost fall on my face. Finally I make it to the kicthen. I am rummaging through the fridge trying to find something good. But there was nothing literally.
" Hey." A voice says behind me. I jump and nearly piss my pants. its Louis.
" Oh.. Hi." I didn't really know where me and Louis stood right now. We made out and he left. He stayed with me in a hotel and he left. So I don't know where we are.
" Yeah I'm starving too." He laughs. He walks over to me. " can we talk." He is inches from my face. I nod my head. " okay.. I don't really know what to feel.. You know about you. Because now that I have this thing wrong with me... It could just be a phase." Is he really saying this right now. I mean I love him forreal. It's not a goddamn phase for me.
" What.. Are you serious right now Louis." I back away from him.
" well harry I dont want you to think that I like you and then I don't tomorrow.!" Louis says.
" I don't understand what you are saying!" I'm truly confused at this point.
" It won't work between us. I don't even think that I ever have liked you like that harry. I mean I know we kissed and cuddled but does that really mean it's love?" He is so stupid.
" Yes! Louis it does mean it's love! I have loved you ever since I met you in that bathroom Lou!" I am to the point of yelling but I keep quiet. My eyes are tearing up a bit.
" You don't love me harry. You think you do. We aren't.. We can't be gay it's.. It's just not right." Louis spills out.
" I really hope this is your illness talking..." I say as a tear falls on my cheek. He nods his head.
" No it's Louis harry. I'm talking. I'm.. I'm...so so sorry." He quickly turns around and prances up the stairs. My heart falls to the floor. I feel like I just got shot with a gun in my heart and all the warm stuff is falling out of me making it impossible to breath. I fall onto the floor and cry into my knees. I know I love Louis right? Yes. I do and I know I do. But why wknt he face up to the fact he to loves me! I think zayn may be right.. Louis brain- wait... Zayn. I think back to what zayn said. It kind if sounded like what zayn said to me was coming out of Louis mouth... Is.. Is zayn manipulating us? Is he trying to get us not to be together? But why?

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