That L word

I am laying in my bed the next morning thinking about Louis. what he said and how it hurt me. then my mind wanders over to zayn. did he.. no. he didn't tell Louis what he told me. No. he didn't. I roll over causing the blanket to lift up a bit making the warm air ive managed to make escape through the gap. I wince.
" hey." I am startled and shoot up. I meet the gaze of eleanour.
" uh.. ahem. hi." I don't like her. never have. I mean she had my Louis for the longest time and now.. she is coming to take him back I bet. but she looks. she looks as if she was here for the ni- no im crazy.
" uhm can we talk. one on one. we don't talk much and so.." she wals over. I hope she doesn't think she can sit on my bed. and no I don't want to fucking talk to you! but it comes out as:
" sure. take a seat." I flash a smile rubbing my eyes.
" well its about Louis..." she sits on the side of my bed and twiddles her thumbs.
" okay what about him?" I say.
" well.. after he broke up with me and he explained that he liked you I was a little mad. but now that he has been diagnosed with this disease do you think. he will.. I don't know. come back to me since.. he doesn't for real like you or any-" I stope her ratchet mouth from moving another second.
" listen.. if you came in here just to tell em of how you think Louis is going to take you back your dead wrong! he likes me for real. so really for you to blame him liking me on a fucking disease is beyond ridiculous. just go! get out of my room!" I snap. she is a fucking nut.
" no harry I just ment.. like I don't want to go back out with him!" she says.
" then what are you getting at! you made it sound like you wanted him to take back , and that he didn't like me!" I say flustered.
" well sorry.. im still not comfortable with.. it doesn't matter its just will he be angry if I want to stay friends..?" she whispers the last part.
" I don't know.. he wont be angry I would assume because he has me now. so yeah. answer your question?" I say bringing the sass.
" your so! ergh!" she stomps away. I mean what was she even doing here in the moringing anyway? like for real. now I wont be able to go back to sleep. I stand up and stretch out.
Niall is making crapes in the kitchen as I walk in there.
" HI!" he screams.
"HOLY FUCK! calm down horan you are a bloody siren!" I cover my ears dramatically. he just laughs and goes back to cooking. I hear someone stumble down the stairs then laughing. zayn and el. they both stop laughing as they see me. okay then...? she jjust waves awkwardly and walks out the door. I look at zayn and he just shrugs his shoulders and goes upstairs. he. is. strange. then he walks in tot he kitchen. the last boy I want to see right now.
" hey.. can we talk." Louis whimpers. niall just keeps whisteling ignoring us.
" about what Louis.. you broke-" I stop talking as I see niall smile at his phone and runs out into the living room taking his crapes with him. " broke my heart." I say.
" no. harry please just hear me out." I didn't want to listen to a goddamn word. but I straighten up.
" well when we talked last night I said what was on my mind and.. I don't know if its true but yet again.." he slowly fumbles because of his loss for words. tears begin falling down his cheeks. " its just how am I suppose to trust somebody when.. I cant even trust my self let alone making descisions!" he buris his hands in his face. I cared for Louis. honestly and truly and right now he is lost. I wrap my arms around him for comfort. " I just never know if what I am saying is what I really want to say.." he mumbles into my shoulder. I just rub his messy hair and let him cry into my shoulder. what was going to happen with him. he is a wreck.

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