That L word

" harry! Wake up!" I hear Louis nearly yelling.
" What?" I sit up.
" We shouldn't be doing this." Louis pants out.
" What do you mean Louis?" I'm really confused.
" This is wrong harry I have to go. I'm sorry but.. I just need to go." Louis stands up and runs out the hotel door. What the fuck is up with him right now. Yesterday he says he loves me today he says it can't Happen. Is he fucking mental!?
I'm driving down the highway wondering what is gotten into him. I'm still over an hour and a half away. I speed up. I'm kind of pissed he just did that. Like seriously fuck him. No. I love him.
I walk into the house and I see zayn and Niall on the couch.
" where Louis?" He would have had to beat me home.
" Him and Liam went somewhere last night." My heart Is pounding.
" Oh... Uhm okay." I quickly run upstairs trying to avoid explaining what happened. I lay out on my bed and text Liam.

where are you""

we are still at the hotel.""

Kk. Wat is up with Lou?""

idek he is under a lot of stress""

with?""

listen I gtg and we are coming home tonight.""

uhm okay. Something is going on. And I don't appreciate my heart getting stomped on over and over. Louis has issues obviously. I throw on so,e sweats and head downstairs searching for a snack. Niall and zayn are passed out now. I sneak over and watch them. They are so lucky. They don't have a worry in the world. Zayn so happy and so perfect. Niall.... So perfect and Irish. Life is a carnival ride for him. And to think I get to share my world with them.. My shitty world. I find some celery and eat that up fast. Then I go onto my bed and lay down. I find my self drifting into a deep sleep.
" Hey." I hear a soft whisper in my ear. I roll over. It's Louis. What the hell. I sit up.
" What?" I say monotone.
" Are you mad at me?" He seems shocked.
" Why wouldn't I be Louis! You fucking left." I am getting a little tearful now.
" Yes but I should have stayed."
" your fucking crazy. Okay. I pour out my whole heart to you then you tell me that what we have... Erm had isn't right. Then you leave without another word, no explanation no nothing. Now tell me. Why shouldn't I be mad." I am using a shout whisper. he kind of shifts from his spot.
" What's gotten into you harry!geez I'm trying to fix things!" Louis is aggravated by this point I'm sure all because I wont accept his sappy apology.
" How do I know tomorrow you will see things different Louis! Like yesterday. One minute your with me them the next your a completely different person. I can't deal with that!" I love Louis but I can't risk my heart getting the beating.
" Your right maybe this is crazy..." he's not even looking at me now. He kind of sounds like he is talking to himself. he stands up and walks out. Shit what did I just do. I should have just taken him back... I'm so stupid.

Notes

Alright this one is kind if a ... Idek it's something but the next chapter is extremely important I promiseeeee.