Life without Niall

Nialls Pov:

I left the woman's body and went back into my traveling ball. I was limited the time I could possess a human body so I was forced to exit her. I see them all smiling and talking as I go back 'invisible' or however you want to put it.

I have never left earth. Since the day I've died. I remember that day vividly. I didn't know I was dead until I saw myself lying on a metal slab. I recall some of the events that took place before my death.

Harry was at my side screaming and I didn't understand why. I was trying so hard to move and talk and smile. To do something to let him know I was okay. But when I relized my body wasn't responding I freaked and stood up magically.

It felt magical at least.. But anyway, I stood up and then I wasn't in the room anymore. I was at some door and my first instinct was to walk in. So I push open the door and see harry kneeling down next to me. I gasp and stand there. In shock. I look down at myself then at my body. It felt like a dream.

" I'll wake up.. I'm just sleeping I'll wake soon." I say. But then I never did.

All I thought was I wanted to go home. Then bam.. That's where I went. But in my house I saw Liam. I run over to him then remember I'm unseen. My presence is unknown. He's crying kneeling by my bed. Clothes are scattered all over the place and the picture of us was in his hands. Liam was like my brother. He was the one who kept me stable. He was my family away from home.

I go over to the bed and sit down. I tried to lift the frame out of his hands thinking he would see it floating and know I was here but nothing. I went straight through it. I tried again and again.

I watched him for hours mourning and sobbing into my stuff when he stood up and left. He just got up and left gone.

Out of anger I start to grab my stuff and throw it around.

Even though in reality I wasn't moving a damn thing. I was simply going through it. I then decide I need to focus. If I want to move something I need to focus.

I look at the frame and attempt to pick it up. Nothing once again. I try over a million times when finally I move it a little. Not by much but a very little. And when I did move it my body glew. I wasn't even scared though. It felt normal. I move it about and inch then feel exhausted. I felt empty after I moved it. Like I had been up for five days straight with no sleep. I take one last look around the room and think of Louis and Harry's flat.

I land in the flat and see Louis sitting on the couch. Harry's in the kicthen staring at nothing.

I wish they could see me. I wish they could know I was still here. I go and take a seat by Louis. When I go over to him he covers up with a blanket. I'm not sure if it was me who made him chilly but it could've been right?

Then I get up and waltz over to harry. I tried to move something but I Feel to weak so I stop seeing it's no use.

He's not looking at anything instead his face is just blank and tear stained. I feel guilt when I'm by him. Like a wave of sorrow hit me. When I was with Liam I felt anger. And with Louis I felt sadness.

I glance one more time then I think of Zayns house.

Him and perrie are fighting when I arrive.

" My friend just died perrie! My best man!" He yells.

" I know. I'm upset too Niall was a good kid! I miss him too!! All I asked you was for some money!" She yelps.

" No. You can't have my money! I need it to for a tuxedo for my BEST friends funeral." Zayn says tears streaming down his face. Perrie attempts to walk over to him and hug him.

" I'm sorry Zayn.. I was being rude. I don't know how you are feeling I'm sorry... Babe?" She try's.

" Just go... I need to be alone." He says walking over to the couch. She doesn't say anything more she just leaves.

I decide I should go too. I think of my mum and my dad.

They are both rolled up on the couch sleeping.

Tissues scattered all around them. I try to cry but I can't. I can't do anything human. I wacth them then just go out wandering into nothingness. I am nothing...

I think of harry and about what they said to me today. It was amazing that they could see me again. It saddens me that they won't be able to see me again. But since they came back and said goodbye to me I feel different.

I know I'm going to pass over today. I'm going over to the man upstairs. I can feel it. I feel happy again and like I can do anything.

I think of all of them and I'm brought to a taco place. I see them sitting around talking.

" It's good.. It was weird but it was amazing. I missed him.. " Liam says taking a bite of a taco.

" Yes. It felt good. And these tacos are too!" Zayn says. I smile and take one more look at them and feel my self going. I see it too.

My feet are disappearing to even my ghost eyes haha. Finally. I'm going home. I'm going to be free. And I know someday these boys will join me in my glory and I couldn't ask for anything more. I hope they never forget me.

Ever. And I hope they make it to even bigger stadiums than we have. I hope they gets more fans. And I hope the fans know I'll love them forever. But I'm going home.

I'm going to be free. and they are too.

Notes

Okay so no Niall isn't coming back to life but he is finally going up to heaven:') and this was a filler so you could see how Niall felt at this time and whatnot. But next chapter you might want tissues.. MIGHT.