Riley's POV:

"Riley... don't freak out." Eric whispers, crouched down in front of me. I look around the space and a realization washes over me, I'm in that same dance studio from that same time I tried to kill myself. Am I dead?

"What happened?!" I shout, standing up and walking back and forth looking for the two doors that were here last time. Where is door one and door two?

"Why are you here? Where are the doors, you know with the options? And why is it so god damn cold in here?" I bombard him with questions. The last time I was in this heaven-hell like state I had a choice, but that was because of my attempted suicide.

"Riley... We need to talk and there isn't much time." Eric sits down in front of me, pushing his dark hair out of his eyes.

"I didn't do anything this time, I swear. It was all Seth, you saw right? You're my angel so you had to be there!" I remind him, and he nods slowly.

"I saw." He replies, taping the space beside him. Hesitant at first, I sit myself down beside him and release a small sob.

"I don't want to die, Eric. I have so much to live for, it's not fair." I whisper through a faint cry. "It's not my fault, it's Seth's fault. He snapped, he lost it."

"I know Riley, I know. I didn't think he would go so far but now... Now he's really done it and there is no going back." Eric grumbles, sounding more disappointed than angry. I look over at him and he has a worried look on his face, much different from the calm and collected one I remember from last time I visited the near death world.

"What aren't you telling me? Why am I here? You said this type of thing was because I took the pills and called Harry whom saved me... In that water I don't really think I had much of a chance." I sigh, recalling the last thing I can remember. Dropping from the top of that bridge was the most horrifying and scary moment I have ever experienced and it physically pains me to think back to it.

"I don't really know how to put this Riley, but we're giving you a choice." Eric explains, and confusion overcomes any other emotion I was currently feeling.

"What do you mean? Why do I have a choice?" I ask, and Eric takes a deep and closes his eyes.

"A lot happened while you were in the water, Riley. People died." He whispers the last part so low that I ask him to repeat it.

"What do you mean? Who died?" I ask, and he shakes his head. I can feel my heart attempting to jump out of my chest and begging for me to stomp all over it because that might feel less painful then what I'm about to hear.

"See for yourself." Eric sighs, standing up and taking my hand. We continue walking straight through walls, and we eventually reach a small window. My stomach churns when the first person I see stepping through the door is Brian, how did that miserable bastard die?

"How?" I ask, watching as Brian's ghostly body walks through a door without a word. I hated him so much, but I can't stop the tears that are flowing out of me like a fountain.

"You're friends fought hard for you, love... and I mean hard." He sighs, pointing towards the door. I look back, and I fall to my feet.

"Dixie?" I choke out, watching as she struts her way through the door. I clutch my head, trying to comprehend everything that I'm seeing.

"She did it to herself." Eric whispers, and I need to stop myself from screaming at the top of my lungs. How could she do that to herself? How could she do that to me?

"No, no, no," I chant, rocking myself back and forth, "This isn't happening, this can't be happening..." I stutter, pulling at my hair.

"Riley, please--"

"Eric! Tell me that's it. Tell me no one else is going to walk through the doors and I'm not going to see something that will make me want to crawl out of my skin and jump into a pit of flames." I beg, and I feel him slowly scoop his arms under mine and pull me upward.

"No one else is dead at the moment but... There are people in intensive care." He sighs, taking my hand and leading me towards another window. When we get to it and I peak inside, I am again gasping for air.

"Harry, Nick, Zayn, Both of my parents? What the fuck!" I scream, pulling at the door handle, trying to get into the room that their bodies are in.

"Riley... Look." He whispers, pointing towards my body in the corner of the room, blue and dripping wet.

"Eric! I need to get in there to be with them! Those are the people I care about most besides Joni, please let me go in there!" I gag, clutching my stomach. Seconds later, I'm throwing up into a bucket and shivering uncontrollably.

"The effects are kicking in... Fight Riley, fight!" Eric shouts as I lay on the ground, freezing and coughing up what tastes like dirty water.

"What's happening to me?!" I shriek, rubbing my arms and feeling moisture around me. "I can't do this! I can't!" I scream, realizing that I'm about to go back into myself, into the mess of a human inside that room.

"If you want everyone else to be ok, then you will have to be ok! Don't give up, for fucks sake Riley do not give up!" He shouts, and the small pounding in my head grows stronger. The pain and frigidness I am feeling is almost unbearable, but I won't give up. I continue spitting up the water, and moving myself around, trying to warm up.

"Eric, please make it stop! Please God, make it go away! Make all the bad go away!" I sob, coughing, gagging and screaming.

"You can do it, I have faith in you!" He cheers me on, and eventually I get so weak that I drop the bucket and collapse to the floor.

Am I dead, am I alive? All I know, is that my body freezing... and that means I'm feeling something, and the dead can't feel anything at all, right?


Harry's POV:

The hospital ride is a blur and I continue to go in and out of consciousness, freezing my ass off the entire time. I've made out a few things; Dixie and Brian are dead. I don't know how Dixie died but I know that Brian was killed in self defense by Zayn... How Zayn got involved in the fight when he was already injured, I have no idea.

While laying down, cold and unable to open my eyes I have almost heard that both of Riley's parents as well as Nick and Zayn are here with me in a room called the ICU? I think it stands for Intensive care but I haven't got the slightest clue. I haven't heard anything on Riley, no one is saying a word. No one is mentioning her name, no one is even asking about her which leads me to believe one thing...

She must be dead.


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Notes

Sooo yes, Riley was in her heaven-hell death dream state again with Eric. I imagine Eric to be played by Logan Lerman.

There are actually more chapters left than I realized... Not a lot but I don't want to rush the ending and I don't want it to be super depressing and then just end.

I have SUCH A BUSY WEEK ahead of me so updating this is going to be very hard as in you might not have an update for a week. I'm really sorry and I'll try my best! x

Thanks so much for reading loves! please continue to vote and comment and if the story gets to 69 or 70 votes during the week i will update this even sooner than possible. :) xxx