Bella's POV:

"Please, please leave me alone." I said to the boys standing in front of me between sobs. They kinda just stood there looking between the note, my eyes and my wrists. I tugged down my sleeves, and wiped my head; it was soaked with blood.

"Do you guys mind if I have a minute alone with Bella?" Harry asked. They all backed away into the other room and closed the door. We were alone now. "Bella, let me take care of that, love." I just sat there crying with my hands on my head.

"Harry, I'm so done......." I choked out.

"It's not your fault Bell, you did the right thing by leaving with us." I couldn't take him being nice to me. I stood up and wailed the vase on the table next to me at the wall.

"STOP BEING SO FUCKING NICE TO ME! I DON'T DESERVE IT AND I DON'T WANT YOUR PITY!" I screamed. I wanted to break everything in that house. I started ripping books, smashing glasses, and screaming that I hated myself.

"God damn it, stop it Bella!" Harry said rushing over to me and grabbing my shoulders.

"Get away from me Harry, everything in my life is a fucking disaster! D I S A S T E R. Let me fucking go so I can just kill myself and end this miserable life of mine!" I screamed in his face using all my force and trying to get him to let go.

"Stop it Bella! Please!" He shouted at me. I tried to shake his hands off of me but he was too strong. Instead, I fell into his arms and sobbed. "Bella, I'm not going anywhere. You don't have to say anything, I'll lock the door and you can just cry for as long as you want but please, don't say you're going to kill yourself." I sunk into his arms and left my head on his chest crying my eyes out and choking out the words "I hate myself." every chance I got.

Harry's POV:

I never thought this could happen. I held her in my arms and let her bawl her eyes out. I was sitting on the sofa with her in my arms for 20 minutes before she finally stopped crying. I looked down thinking she finally fell asleep but when I looked at her I realized she was going in and out of consciousness. "Fuck Bella, let me take care of that cut on your head!" I ran to the the bathroom and sprinted back to her with the first aid kit. She was half out of it by now.

"Harry, please just let me die." she whispered to me. I ignored her and started patting the cut with an alcohol swab.

"This is going to sting a little, love." I said lightly into her ear.

"I deserve the pain." She sniffled. I held gauze on her head in silence for 10 minutes until it finally stopped bleeding. She did lose a lot of blood and might have needed stitches but I wasn't going to take her to the hospital in this mental state. I covered it with one of those big bandages that somebody puts on their knees after they get a major cut.

"When you wake up tomorrow we will need to change that bandage in case you start bleeding again tonight." I noticed she had fallen into a light sleep, so I took this opportunity to lift up her sleeves and check out her wrists. I had never seen scars so deep like these before, the sight was incredibly frightening. I wonder if anyone even knew? I noticed that a few of them were fresh, so I cleaned them with the left over swabs and put some bandages on them.

"I'm so sorry Bella." I whispered. She opened her eyes and blinked a few times. "Bella, why did you do this to yourself?" I asked with a shaky voice. She saw what I had been looking at and sighed deeply. "Does anybody know?" I questioned.

"Just two people... Louis and Niall." I looked at her confused.

"How does Louis know about this?!" I asked with a loud roar in my voice.

"He saw them that night he was taking advantage of me... It wasn't intentional." She explained. I sighed lightly and shook my head.

"Promise me you'll never do it again, Bella." I whispered with tears in my eyes. "I don't want to lose you." She closed her eyes at let out a giant sigh.

"Harry, I'm already halfway gone... I can't live anymore, it's too hard." I grabbed her hands and pulled her face closer to mine.

"You're gonna kill yourself? Selfish..." She stopped me, giving me the reaction I wanted.

"Selfish!? You don't know what my life has been like since I was a kid! My life has been a living hell and, and, and..." She couldn't even finish.

"So let's say you kill yourself tonight Bella. Jamie and Drew have to wake up and deal with the fact that their sister is dead. What do you think that's going to do to their already fucked up lives? And what about Niall? He's been your best friend since you were a kid and suddenly you're gonna be gone because you've given up? Rubbish. And what about Chloe and Perrie? They've never had any other friends outside the gang and they adore you, how do you think they're going to feel?! Did you forget about Zayn, Louis and Liam? God, Zayn fucking likes you more than his own girlfriend! Louis may not treat you right but I know he would be sad to see you gone and Liam... Liam has you in every way I wish I could. And what about me?! Huh Bella? What am I gonna do without YOU? I can't imagine my life without you, please don't do this... Please if not for me than don't kill yourself for every person that you love." I cried.

Her face was blank and her eyes were cold. She didn't look like Bella any longer. That's what scares me most, she was like a cold zombie-- a beautiful, cold zombie. I sat there and let tears fall down my cheek, and she just looked at me.

Bella's POV:

Harry's plea gives me a lot to think about. I was honestly just dead-tired, and he put a lot on my mind along with every thing else. His crying made me feel like a cold blooded bitch.

"I'm sorry I'm so selfish." I started off. He put his arms around me and pulled me in for a hug. I had no more tears left to cry but I let out little gasps for air instead. "I think I'm gonna go up to my room and go to sleep..." I whispered standing up. I was a little uneasy still and Harry was quick to grab my hand.

"I'm sorry Bella, you're not sleeping alone in that room tonight, no bloody way."

"I won't be alone, Louis will be there." I tried.

"And that is supposed to make me feel better? You're sleeping in my room. C'mon love, no exceptions." He commanded walking towards his room pulling me along with him.

"I, I, I need to cha-change. I'm fre-fre-freezing. And there's blood all over meh-meh-me." I cried. He closed the door behind us and wrapped his arms around me. I hugged him back but instead he gently removed my arms.

"Lift up your arms, love." He demanded softly. I lifted up my arms and he rolled off my shirt tossing it to the trash can. He slowly rolled off my shorts and helped me step out of them. Harry was undressing me. He stepped behind me and unclasped my bra letting it slip to the floor and slid my panties down to my ankles and again I stepped out of them. I stood their naked in Harry's room and he just took me in for a warm embrace.

"Harry, I can't right now, I..." He leaned in and kissed my lips softly. He pulled away after a few seconds and stepped back, grabbing a pair of sweat pants and a t-shirt.

"Put these on Bell." He said throwing off his shirt and changing into a fresh tee. I stood there frozen and sad. I had no more energy to moved. Harry walked over to me and lifted my arms for me, slipping the shirt down my body. His hands grazed the sides of my ribs giving me goose bumps and I saw him let out a little smirk. Then I stepped into the pants and felt him slide his fingers up my waist and chuckle. "You really are so fit, Bell." I nodded walking to the bed with him and crawling under the blankets first. He came in second and we just stared into each other's eyes.

"Harry..." I choked out.

"Yes, love?" he asked sweetly inching closer.

"Can you please hold me in your arms, I don't want to feel alone right now." I explained. He placed one arm over my stomach and one arm around my shoulders. I leaned in close to him and fit perfecting against his chest. His body was warm and large, which made me feel safe. "Thank you." I replied sleepily.

"Get some sleep love, it's been a long day." I nodded and let out a few more tears as I slowly drifted off to sleep. There was going to be a tomorrow now, and it's all thanks to Harry.

Notes

Ok guys, if you want I gotta know... What do you want to happen next?! I want at least 3 people to tell me their ideas or else I won't update, and I wanna update again before I go to sleep! xxx

i love this fucking chapter.