Take Away My Fears

I woke Alice up gently, slipping out of the bed and picking her up. I walked her out to the living room, balancing her on my knee as I opened the door to the flat, walking out and going three doors down to Alex's apartment. I knocked on the door three times, bouncing Alice so she wouldn't fall asleep before Alex answered.

A guy answered the door, his hair disheveled and his pajamas askew. "Hey, um you must be Cotey!" I said and he half smiled, clearly still pretty alseep. "Well, I'm Azinilia, um Alex's girlfriend? Is he still here?" I asked and he nodded, turning around and yelling at Alex who answered from a backroom somewhere.

"Hey!" He said coming up and hugging me. He picked Alice out of my arms and she wrapped around him like a koala, giving him a kiss and listening as he told her how amazing she was. I cleared my throat and he looked at me a huge smile on his face. "Aww are you jealous?" He asked and I nodded, pretending to pout.

He gave me and kiss and pulled me in, Cotey taking Alice away to sit on the couch. "I'm gonna miss you." I said, not trying to stop the tears that were freely falling down my cheeks. His finger slid underneath my chin and he lifted up my face, making me look at him.

"I'll be back before you know it." He said and I smiled nodding as he went in and brought me back a sleeping Alice. "Merry christmas." He said giving me one last wuick kiss before I repeated the greeting.

I walked into the flat, laying Alice down on the couch and looking to make sure all the presents were in the right place before pulling out Alice's santa present. It was a sparkly pink tricycle she was lookign at in a window when we went shopping the other day. I went back and got it yesterday, along with the cinnamon rolls Niall wanted for breakfast.

I popped them into the oven now and turned on the parade, waking everyone up and telling them Alex would be on in ten minutes, so to eat so we could watch his interview and then open presents. Niall scarfed down his food, throwing himself on the couch and whining when Alice laid on his belly.

Alex's face came on the screen and we all crowded around the t.v. listening as the interviewer introduced Alex and himself. He asked Alex the first question, being the most obvious when it came to tabloids and publicity, but the answer making me nervous myself. "So, any lucky lady at home?" He asked and Alex nodded, smirking into the microphone.

"Yeah, we're pretty serious.." He started and the boys started cat calling all around the room, Alice laughing at the weird whistles. "She's the best, and for christmas.. I'm thinking about popping the question, ya know?" He asked and the whole room was dead silent. Proposing? That was more then I'd even dreamed of this early in our relationship. "Yeah, she's great and her name is Jane." He finished and I could literally feel my heart crack.

I felt Harry and Niall's arms wrap around me as the tears slid down my cheeks. Everyone was talking, but their voices were just blurs, their words uncomprehensible. Alice was sitting on the floor, lookign scared and confused and Louis picked her up, taking her into the kitchen. I could feel my breath quicken and the world started fading, mybody going limp as everything turned black.

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