Take Away My Fears

I didn't leave my room for the next 3 days, Alice came in occasionally, but the boys were in between tours and cleared their interviews to take care of her. I cried almost every second from the time I woke up until I went to sleep, only stopping when I was forced to come out of my room to eat, use the bathroom, or when the boys really needed me.

I looked at the clock. It was about the time when Alice crawls into bed, and I was looking forward to cuddling with her, she was literally my anchor. She kept me here, kept me from just leaving. I looked up as the door opened, the light spilling into the room leaving me temporarily blind. "Hey." Harry said, coming over and hugging me.

"Hey." I said wiping my eyes. I hadn't even noticed I'd been crying again, it just happens now. He lifted me up and pulled me into his lap, rocking me.

"He wasn't even worth your time." He said in my ear, as my hiccuped sobs filled the room. I felt horrible, the boys were so worried and I didn't even think of them, I only thought about how much I was hurting. "We all want you to come out.. it's been three days and Alice wouldn't even let us really have christmas without you. She wants you to come and open presents, think you're up to it?" He asked and I nodded.

"Yeah, give me a minute to clean up." I said and he nodded, walking out of the room. I went to the bathroom, washing my face and brushing my hair, pulling it into a ponytail. I put on my christmas pajamas which I had given everyone a matching set to on christmas eve.

I walked out there and put on my best smile, smelling hot chocolate and cinnamon rolls. They really wanted this to be christmas, I thought walking to the end of the hall. I jumped out into the livingroom where they were all at, my arms spread wide. "Where's my little girl?" I asked and she jumped into my arms, laughing and smiling. "Are you ready for presents?" I said picking her up and going to sit on the floor near the boys.

The boys all looked happy and we started opening presents immediately. Alice had seen her trike already and rode it around the livingroom to the delight of Liam who chased her like the Daddy direction he is. I smiled at the scene and thought of how much this was like a home to me now.

The doorbell rang and I went to answer it, looking through the peep hole and freezing. I opened it cautiously and sucked in a sharp breath. "What do you want?" I hissed, narrowing my eyes at him. My hostility surprised him and he stepped back into the hall.

"Hey, what's wrong?" He asked trying to reach an arm out to me. Two arms shot forward from behind me and grabbed him, pulling him past me and into the house. His face went cold when he saw the looks the boys were giving him.

"You remember those threats we made the first time you took her out?" Louis asked, out of everyone he looked the worst. His eyes seeped rage and his face was contorted into a mask of hatred I'd never seen before. Alex nodded in fear as Harry slammed him down onto the couch. "Well, they're coming true buddy." Louis finished and Alex gulped.

"What did I do?" He choked out and even though it surprised me, a laugh rang from my lips. It was cold and sharp and I could taste the venom drip off of my words.

"I don't know. Why don't you ask Jane." I said going over to him and pulling him up by the ear, leading him across the room and hrowing him into the closed door. "Now you stay away from me. From Alice, from anyone in this god damn house, you understand? Because you are nothing but a jerk and I swear to god I will kick you from here to Alaska if you come near me ever again. Now get your ass out of my house." I said and opened the door, pushing him out.

I closed the door behind him, sighing in relief. "That felt good." I said turning around to some very shocked boys and a laughing Alice. Louis came up and hugged me tightly. I stiffened at the sign of affection from him.

"Hey can I talk to you?" He asked and I nodded, letting him drag me into the hall. "So, I wanted to know if you'd go on a date with me. Just one date." He said and I looked around uncomfortably.

"What about Eleanor?" I asked. I mean we had been through this before. He had a girlfriend and I had had a boyfriend then. This just couldn't happen.

"She broke up with me for some other bloke. Said I just wasn't paying enough attention to her or something like that. And I promise, I won't be like that. I just... I really like you. A lot." He said and I could feel my cheeks heat up as I nodded.

"One date." I whispered and we walked out into the livingroom, ready to have a christmas, together as a family.

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