Take Away My Fears

I sat down on the floor watching Alex and Azi cuddle behind me, Alice is their lap. Azi, Alex, Alice. A family of A's. How stupid. El was sitting next to me, cooing about how absolutely adorable they are.

I pulled El into my lap, burying my face in her neck, blocking out he sound of the laughing "family" with her giggles. "Louis! Stop!" She said pushing away, a smile on her face. "Well you're sure in a mood today!" She said laughing and kissing me on the cheek.

Nothing felt right anymore.

I shrugged my shoulders, trying to keep my eyes off of Azi, sitting on the couch laughing with Alex. The thought that I was stringing El along came into my mind and I mentally cringed. I didn't want to hurt her, but this wasn't good for either of us.
I'd have to find the perfect time to let her down. Gently of course, I just hope she'll take it good.

I laid back on the floor, spreading my arms out. I felt El lay down on one and watched as Alex and Azi lead Alice outside, waving goodbye to us. I blinked for a moment and opened my eyes to see the front door closing, their laughter ringing through the hallway.

God I wanted that to be me. I wanted Azi, and Alice and everything he had.


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They came home a while later, El had left in a huff because I told her I just wasn't feeling well. Alice jumped on me to ay hello, giggling when I tickled her sides, a smile on my face.

"Guess what me and mommy and daddy did?" She asked, now completely reffering to the other A's as her parents.

"What that love?" I asked and she wagged her eyebrows.

"Shopping for...... CANDY! They went into another store that I couldn't go in. They won't show me the bag." She huffed, pulling a lollipop out of an overflowing candy bag. I winked at her, understanding what was happening.

"I think you'll find out soon!" I said picking her up and twirling her around before setting her on the floor. Azi shooed her to her room to go take a bath and get ready for dinner.

She left the room moping and I laughed as Azi waited excitedly until she left before pulling out three huge bags. "Look at all her presents!" She practically screamed, bringing out clothes and shoes and dolls, a doll stroller, and a little nail polish kit. "Isn't it great? I got her everything she asked about!" She said and pushed everything into the back of the hall closet.

"Great, so are you guys going to be over here for christmas?" I asked and Alex shook his head.

"Alice and Azinilia are, but my band has a huge gig, so we'll be out of town. Hate to miss our first christmas as a family." He said looking down at a smiling Azi.

"Swell. That's much too bad." I said, a dryness in my mouth. God he was a prick

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