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Take Away My Fears

Rude awakenings and little girls

"Azi. Wake up, you're crushing my arm." I heard someone whine and I opened my eyes to see a very shirtless Louis pouting at me. I could feel my eyes bulge out of my head and I rolled off of him and planted my feet on the floor.

I was just in bed with Louis Tomlinson. I just hope Eleanor doesn't find out.

I looked at him with his eyes closed, laying there, and then looked down at myself, in my underwear and a large t-shirt. Louis' eyes fluttered open and he smiled at me rubbing them and sitting up in bed. "Morning." He sang as I stood up, finding my pajama shorts and my owl shirt.

"Morning." I mumbled, dressing quickly and walking out of the room, trying to remember last night. I remember the boys wanting to take me out to some club with them, and getting dressed up. I remember Alex not being able to come for some record thing (his band was about to get signed to a label), and I remember... getting drunk with Louis.

It all came back to me. Kissing him on his bed, him pulling me into him. Watching t.v. in our underwear... but we didn't do anything. And by anything I mean everything. I shook my head ready to forget the whole mess. I brushed my teeth and got dressed just as Alex texted me.

We texted back and forth a bit, deciding to go out today. I pulled on my boots and made my way downstairs, pulling on my scarf as I stepped into the lobby. Alex was waiting there and I jumped into his arms, letting him spin me around a few times before placing my hand in his, letting our fingers intwine.

We walked down the boulevard and to our small little coffee shop, me ordering my hot chocolate and him his usually mocha. We sat in a bench looking at all the last minute shoppers and talking about christmas time. "You know Christmas is in a week." Alex pointed out to me and I nodded, confirming that I understood this bit of information.

"Why yes Alex, I did know that. But thank you ever so much for the up-to-date news flashes!" I said jokingly, causing him to pout at me as I laughed. "I'm sorry I said, kissing his nose and leaving a bit of whip cream on it. He wiped it off, a grin on his face as he kissed me, whipped cream all over my lips.

"Well, that escalated quickly." I said causing him to laugh as he stood up, grabbing my hand and pulling me up with him to walk around outside in the square. "So what do you want for christmas?" I asked and he shrugged just staring ahead, his warm hand wrapping around my tiny frozen one.

"I have everything I want, what else could I possibly ask for?" He said and I could feel the heat on my cheeks as he squeezed my hand. "Anything you want love?" He asked and I shook my head. With a boyfriend like this, the boys, my room, clothes, life... who could even think about wanting anything else?

"Just a day with you." I whispered to his smiling face and he cupped my cheek, kissing my nose.

"I can definitely give you that." He said and we walked along the square, watching customers franctically racing to get the right toys and clothes, and little children looking at the toys they wanted through shop windows.

I was watching all the kids when I saw a little girl, about 4 walking in the snow in a thin dirty dress. It was torn to rags and looked about a size to small. She wasn't wearing shoes and her blonde hair was in two braids, almost black from the soot that was in it.

"Baby." I said, demanding his attention. He stared at me confused and tugged on my hand to tell me to keep going until I pointed at the little girl. "Merry christmas to me. She looks like an orphan. I want her." I said and he sighed shrugging his shoulders.

"Whatever you want baby." He said and I clapped my hands together, a smile plastered to my face as I went over to the little girl, Alex following behind me.

"Hi." I said when I was just behind her. She looked up at me scared until she saw my nails and pointed at them.

"Those are pretty." She said. Her voice was quiet and hoarse, and you could tell she had a cold. "I wish I had those," She said and I smiled.

"Do you have parents?" I asked and she shook her head, her braids flopping from one side to the other. "Do you belong to an orphanage?" I asked again, and again she shook her head, explaining to me that the orphanages were closed down around here. Not enough children. "Do you want to come home with me for christmas?" I asked and her eyes grew wide, her head bobbing up and down. "Whats your name?" I asked her, smiling gently at her.

"Alice!" She smiled and stuck her right thumb in her mouth, using her left hand to grab ahold of mine as I walked us over to Alex.

"Alex, this is Alice. I'm taking her home." I said and she smiled at him. His straight face melted and he broke into a huge grin as he nodded, walking us both home. We stopped in front of my flat and I kissed Alex goodbye before unlocking the flat and leading her inside. I walked her to my room, pushing her into the bathroom and starting a warm bath for her.

I listened to her play in the water and hummed as I sewed one of my old dresses into a smaller, tighter, childs dress. "Azi!" I heard Alice yell from the bathroom just as the doorbell rang. I went to the doorbell and opened it to find a guy carrying two boxes. "These are for mrs. Alice?" The delivery guy said and I smiled, taking them with a thank you.

I opened them to see two pairs of shoes and brought them back into my room, going into the bathroom to see her standing all clean, with a towel wrapped around her. "I'm done!" She chirped, her happiness radiating off of her. I pulled the plug in the disgusting bath water and washed my hands, leading her into my room to get dressed before I fishtailed her hair, we had to make her look good for when the boys got here. I painted her nails pink and gave her one of my old rings I kept from my mom, letting her have a pair of my rose earrings too.

We were laughing on my bed making silly faces when the door in the hall opened. The boys were home. I pulled on her arm, dragging her into the hallway, but hiding her body behind me. "Hey boys." I said and they all smiled and waved at me a I stopped in the middle of the doorway to the hall. "So, I want you all to meet someone." I said and they looked confused until bright little Alice popped out from behind me.

"I'M ALICE!" She yelled, putting her hands up in the air in a taa-daa-moment kind of way. I laughed at her and smiled at the boys before scooping her up in my arms.

"She was a homeless orphan... soooo.... I brought her home!" I smiled and the boys looked at me blankly. Harry was the first to speak.

"Azi... she's cute, and I'd hate to do this.. but what if an orphan home is looking for her? We can't get caught up with that. It's legal trouble, like... a scandal." He said and the boys nodded, looking genuinely sad as they looked at the bubbly four year old.

"Tell um whatcha told me honey" I whispered in her ear, "just like we practiced." I said and she went to stand in front of each of them.

"No ones looking for me." She said, her face growing sad, her eyes growing big. It was the best puppy dog face I'd ever seen. "The orphan homes closed because there weren't any orphans. I'm homeless." She said and a tear slid down her cheek, almost bringing me myself to tears.

"Oh... well then... welcome home, I guess." Zayn said and her face instantly brightened as she jumped up, tackling Harry and Zayn in a hug. She looked at them and they smiled as she gave them each a kiss on the cheek.

"So. Does that mean you're my mum?" She came up and asked me. I froze for a second, I hadn't thought of that. I mean.. she could be my daughter. I nodded my head and she smiled. "And Alex is my da?" She said and I nodded again. I mean that's how it would work right?

The boys all shared uncomfortable glances as she said the last line but I shoved it off, giving my attention back to Alice, who was chattering on about having a real christmas this year.


Shorty Mc-short-shorts OMG I'm such a bad writer I write you such short chapters. I'm sorry you hate me and my short chapters, even though you shouldn't because I wrote like 5 today or something like that.




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msindietomlinson msindietomlinson
That's terrible!! And that was the last chapter or are there five left?
LovingCurls LovingCurls

she is indeed...
msindietomlinson msindietomlinson
Noooo!! Alice.... is dead??
LovingCurls LovingCurls
Alex and Cotey are actually really good friends of mine, they always come up in like, all my stories. And Alice was just kinda my imagination. I don't believe we can become creative. We are born with it, and we can choose to make it grow or to supress it until it vanishes.
msindietomlinson msindietomlinson