For Your Eyes Only

It’s been a couple of days since my date with Alex and then my chat with Niall. I haven’t seen Niall since but I have been recording my video with Alex for the last couple of days. My feelings changed towards Alex and I knew that was because of Niall. I didn’t feel like getting to know him anymore honestly I just wanted this week to be over so me and Jade could go on our holiday. Ruby and Nathan were great though, being such a laugh and just making this recording experience just simply amazing.

“Olivia, we are nearly finished all we need to do now is record you and Alex on the beach and that is the video done”

“Brilliant so has Ruby finished then?”

“Yeah just done my last shoot, this is so exciting”

“So is, so where do you want me”

“In Alex’s arms please sat on the sand”

“Okay no problem”

“Just smile lean in and look out to the ocean please”

“Sure”

Taking my place with Alex he pulled me in closer to him and tightened his grip around my waist.

“You know I could get used to being this close to you”

“Oh really”

“Yeah… maybe we could get closer tonight”

“Urm…I would but I’m having a meal with my brother tonight before me and Jade leave for our holiday”

“Oh, so this will be the last time I see you then”

“Hopefully not”

“Guys, smile please and look in to each others eyes”
Doing as we were told I looked up to Alex’s eyes and instantly smiled, I knew what was going to happen next and I was ok with it I guess. Moving closer our lips finally met, nothing I felt nothing. Don’t get me wrong he was a great kisser but today it just wasn’t doing anything for me.

“That’s a wrap, brilliant guys this is going to look great once it is all together”

Composing myself I jumped up with the help of Alex and ran in to Ruby’s arms. We screamed with excitement and soon was joined with Nathan and Jade, I didn’t want this feeling to go I was so happy. Pulling out of the group Nathan pulled me to one side needing a private chat.

“So I know you are going on a long ass holiday but we will be realising the music video in a couple of weeks is that going to be ok”

“Of course that will be ok”

“Good and also when you are back call me, then we can start talking about your album”

“My…My album are you for real”

“Yes I think me and you are going to make great music, now go Jade is signalling me to hurry up you have a meal to go to”

“Ahh thank you so much Nathan”

Hugging him I soon ran to Ruby saying my goodbyes then went off in the car with Jade. Singing to the radio it wasn’t long until we were walking in to my hotel room starting to get ready for tonight. I was nervous really nervous I’m going to have to see Niall again.

“So what are you wearing tonight Livy considering were going out after the meal”

“Wait when did that get decided”

“Just now, we need to celebrate you are going to be making an album I mean drinks are in order”

“True this is very true”

“And you need to pull someone, anyone considering you blew off Alex”

“I know, I know I’m just”

“I know you are scared but I’m going to say what you always said to me and I feel there has been enough time for this one to be said”

“Oh dear no”

“Yes you have to get under someone to get over someone now put on a pair of killer heels a tight sexy dress and lets go”

“You know what, yeah I mean I’m about to go on holiday to so lets just start it tonight”

“Good on ya, now what you going to wear”

“I have just the dress”

Going through my case I pull out a new dress I have been waiting to wear, it was some what see through but it was very sexy in deed. Doing my hair and then make up I soon put on the dress, which was; black lace with a light pink under layer and some black sparkling heels. Walking in to Jades view I could see by her face this dress was a winner.

“Fucking hell Livy, if you don’t pull tonight then I will be seriously shocked”

“It’s not to see through no”

“Nope you look hot, now lets go they are all waiting in the lobby”

“Ok, oh and Jade loving the red dress fits you perfectly”

“Thank you, it’s Liam’s favourite”

“Well he’s going to find it hard keeping his hands to himself tonight”

“That’s the plan”

Laughing and linking arms we left my room, the nerves were building up inside of me and by the time the elevator doors opened I felt my knees go weak. Taking in a deep breath I walked with Jade over to everyone else, Niall stayed quiet as everyone else greeted us.

“So Olive, we hear you are going to be making an album”

“I am Lou, where did you hear that from”

“Who do you think sis, Jade just can’t keep any news to herself. Seriously though congrats I gathered she told you were going out after the meal to”

“She did ha-ha”

“Guys I can keep a secret you know”

“Oh really like what”

“Like how Niall”

“Jade stop”

“Wait what about Niall”

“Shit you were tricking me weren’t you Livy”

“Well no but what about Niall”

“Nothing lets go, cars are out front”

“Niall do we know or did you only tell Jade”

“Drop it Zayn”

Niall followed quickly after Jade and Liam leaving me Louis, Zayn and Harry all confused.

“So no one has a clue”

“I’m afraid not Olivia”

“Yeah we will find out though don’t you worry”

I looked at all three lads and just giggled to myself they were more interested then I actually was. I would love to see the disappointment when they realise it something they already knew. Harry nudged me bringing me out of my thoughts, realising I wasn’t walking I gave a quick smile and walked alongside him towards the car. The journey was a little awkward Jade trying to change the subject but knew it was failing as everyone was to intrigued as to what Niall was keeping. The restaurant was beautiful it was a nice Italian place, the waiters were pretty fit to. Sitting at our table it went Liam, Jade, Me then Harry, and then on the other side it went Louis, Niall, and then Zayn. Light conversation was made but everyone soon fell in to there own bubbles, Louis and Zayn were trying to get the secret out of Niall whilst Jade and Liam were talking so me and Harry fell in to our own conversation.

“You know you truly look amazing tonight Olivia”

“Why thank you Harry you scrub up nicely to”

“I try”

“Is you girlfriend coming out later”

“She might do, don’t know though we had an argument the other night”

“Whys that?”

“It doesn’t matter”

“Harry it clearly does you can talk to me you know”

“I know it’s just…”

“Look if you’re not comfortable it’s ok I wont pry just want you to know you can talk to me always”

“Thank you, I tried to stop Niall coming from seeing you and the way I did it she thought I cared about you more then her”

“Oh…how did you try to stop him then for her to think that”

“I… I just kept saying you deserved better and he shouldn’t of done what he did and… maybe I said she would have been better of picking me... he ran out after that. I have apologised to him and I realised I shouldn’t of said that not sure why I did, but yeah she isn’t to happy at the moment”

“Oh right… yeah I can see why… do you… I mean do you still have feelings for me like that”

“I think I always will, but I have come to terms I’m not the one for you and you’re not the one for me. We were caught up in lust I believe but that doesn’t take away the factors of me caring for you ever. I will always want you to be happy and safe, I never want to see you hurt or upset I couldn’t bare it”

“Thank you Harry…maybe I should of chosen you after all ha-ha”

“Haha you know what they say second the best”

Bursting in to giggles I knew we were getting looked at but I didn’t care, he was making me feel better and happy and not awkward. I really have missed him just can’t believe how much I really have missed him. Food soon came out causing our conversations to die down. It was delicious food we were having and the cocktails they had, well me and Jade were on our 6th by this point they were incredible.

“Right shall we head to the clubs”

“Ha-ha Liam said Shall we so bloody posh”

“Or shall we head home by looks of it you and Jade have had enough”

“No Li Li we are fine aren’t we Jade”

“Yep… To the clubs”

Getting pulled out of my seat Jade and me were the first ones out and heading towards the club, which was just opposite the restaurant. I knew the guys were behind us they were just getting stopped a lot and honestly I just wanted another drink I knew they would find us eventually.

“Laddies after you”

“Why thank you”

This lovely tattooed looking gentleman allowed us to go through with him instead of queuing. Going on in we headed straight to the bar, I found out the guys name was Joe and he was a tattoo artist. Downing the shots followed by a few flirty strokes I was soon getting pulled away up to the VIP section with everyone else.

“Guys come on I was just getting to know that guy”

“Well we thought you would like some free vodka”

“Oh Harry you know me to well”

Walking over to Harry I took the drink he poured me, saying thank you I downed the drink then went over to the side to look down at the club. Seeing Joe already moved on I walked back and started dancing with Jade to lift my spirits once again.

“Go back down and pull girl”

“Jade I’m good up here with the free booze I have all holiday to pull”

“This is very true now slut drop”

The night went on and the drinks were flowing but Niall was still sat down looking to ground trying to force a smile on to his face. So I decided to down the drink in my hand and go take a seat next to him.

“What’s up Niall”

“N-nothing you having a good night”

“I am thank you, your not though”

“Tonight’s is about you, don’t worry about me”

“Well if it’s about me put a smile on your face because you’re bringing me down”

“Sorry I didn’t realise, I can just leav-“

“No I don’t want you to leave I want you to be happy and have fun, so get up were getting shots”

“SHOTS did I just hear Shots”

“Yes Louis lets get some in”

Louis and Zayn ran to the bar for me whilst Harry, Liam and Jade came back to the table a waiting for the shots. It wasn’t long until they were back and we were necking about 6 shots each back. After a few more shots, drinks and dances we made our way back to the hotel. Niall had perked up a little bit but was still struggling to smile. Walking out of the elevator I was last to walk out with Niall just in front. Saying goodnight to everyone I pulled on Niall’s sleeve bringing him into my room. To be honest it went smoother than I thought I was expecting to hit something or fall over.

“Livy what you doing?”

“You are going to sit down and tell me what is the matter with you”

“No, your drunk”

“Sit Niall”

He looked at me for a brief moment then took a seat on my bed, I was surprised he actually stayed. Taking a seat next to him I knew I was going to have to break the silence.

“What’s going on up in there”

“A lot babe a lot”

“Then speak to me”

“You didn’t want anything to do with me the other night and now because you’ve had a drink you want me to talk to you”

“Fine don’t talk to me, I was just trying to make an effort after you did the other day, okay I needed alcohol to give me the courage to but I’m trying and you told me you wasn’t going to give up”

“I’m not giving up… I’m sorry for snapping it’s just… ok so the secret I told Jade was about you and me”

“Right what about me and you?”

“Well I told her the real reason behind me being a dick and why my head was fucked”

“So you told her but couldn’t tell me”

“Yeah… I just couldn’t bring myself to tell you and when I saw you again I broke down and Jade walked in and I just told her everything”

“So you going to tell me”

“I was scared… completely terrified I met you to early, I see you as my soul mate Livy and I was just so worried everything would fuck up. My head wasn’t on straight I started panicking just after we left you. I then over heard Harry talking to his mum on the phone he was gutted to over you, he was saying how much he missed you and still loved you… that played with my head to I started to have nightmares of losing you, I couldn’t bring myself to talk to anyone, losing sleep not eating I just needed something. I went out drinking and that’s when it all started. The next day I knew I just knew it was going to end between us, I went to call you but I didn’t want to hear the hurt in your voice I knew it was going to crush you… knowing that only made it worse on me and I just carried on… everyone tried to tell me Liam was fuming with me and I couldn’t explain why I did it… this doesn’t even justify why I did it… but I can tell you this it all meant nothing to me none of the girls they were just there so I could feel something again after losing you”

“I will be back”

He didn’t try to stop me as I walked out of the room I heard him sigh loudly and fall back on to my bed. Walking out of me room and down the corridor I headed towards Harry’s room.

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