Hello, Darcy.
Memories Part 2.
Niall’s P.O.V.
I felt the alcohol already wearing off, feeling slightly sober and starting to get a hold of myself as I headed over to her room. The tension was emotionally unstable, I felt like I couldn’t breathe and my chest was pounding hard.
It was already late to turn back as I stopped tracks by the doorframe. Her head was already turned towards me with pity eyes. I couldn’t help but feel as if I don’t recognize her, everything about her was so different. Her once bright shiny eyes were now dull and lifeless, her body was almost as thin as paper and all of her hair was all off. The only thing keeping her sweet breathing was the tube connected to her nose. She smiled sweetly, making my heart race. The same familiar sweet smile I still remember on that one day we first met…
I couldn’t help but feel annoyed of Harry’s constant bragging of his girlfriend whom he was bringing today to the studio. I just wanted him to shut up. To be honest, I guess I felt jealous. But whoever she was, she was just probably one of those caked flirtatious girls you can find at a strip club. No hard feelings or anything, he would always bring those girls home, no surprise.
“All you boys here?!” I heard Harry’s familiar voice. All 4 of us sat around the table waiting for Harry for the meeting to start. I heard the footsteps draw nearer and nearer but I didn’t bother looking up as I just fumbled with my thumbs.
“Lads, meet my girlfriend Olivia.” He simply stated. I wasn’t too ecstatic as I looked up, my whole emotion changed. Our eyes locked in a gaze as I felt myself lure into her bright hazel eyes, her sweet innocent smile making my heart race fast. I guess I was wrong about her. She was beautiful… Now I felt the pang of jealousy stab me harder through my chest. I felt a bit of anger rush through me, I knew what Harry was capable of. She was sweet and innocent, whilst Harry on the other hand would go around and break dozens of hearts. He didn’t deserve her… to be honest, I did.
“Niall?” She choked out. I still stood by the door, not wanting to get near her for I only knew what I would feel again, feel for the last time she’d be standing. I didn’t want to feel the heartbreak again, but it was too late… I already was.
“Olivia.” I said blandly feeling a lump in my throat as I gulped nervously.
“I haven’t seen you in a while.” She chuckled nervously, yet her laugh was so weak, her voice sounded tiny.
“More like 17 years.” I stated sternly. I couldn’t help but feel guilt and remorse for how I was treating her like this while she’s already dying. The last thing I wanted was for her to feel my love.
“Right…” She said shyly, feeling slightly embarrassed as she lowered her head down, turning her attention to her hands. There was a brief moment of awkward silence.
“I heard you have a beautiful wife and a handsome son now, I’m happy for you Niall.” She said softly, but her voice was shaking at the end as I saw her eyes become slightly glassy with the tears welling up.
“Yeah, I’m very happy… It’s all I ever wanted.” I said. “Liv?”
“Yeah?” She answered.
“This will and might be the last time I ever see you…” I paused, realizing what I just said stabbed my heart. My eyes started to become welled up with tears, but Olivia persuaded me to carry on. “I want you to be honest with me… I know we’ve been through a lot the very last 17 years, and I know that there was a time where we had love for each other, we never ended it on the right note… We never said the proper goodbye, for we just vanished in each other’s lives…”
“Have you moved on?” I blurted out. The tears in my eyes suddenly strolled down abruptly with just a light blink. She didn’t answer for she just lowered her head down once again. “I knew what your choice was, and that was Harry, know that I never hated you because of you decision but I just left out of your life because I just wanted you to be happy…because I loved you so much… ”
“I just hope you know that I haven’t moved on Liv, and I still love you… always have.” I choked out. She nodded her head in understandment as she tilted her head looking up at me again, the tears were now strolling down her cheeks.
“I always loved you Niall, even if you were not in my life anymore… I still do.” I said sweetly, as I smiled.
“Niall!” I heard her sweet voice calling after me, but I didn’t bother turning around for I know that I would just get hurt if I ever see her face again. “Niall! Please!” She pleaded. I felt my heart break down to pieces, I felt pity over her. I closed my eyes slowly as I turned around. There she was as I opened my eyes, her bright eyes piercing through mine, and that sweet smile that drove me crazy.
“Olivia…” I said.
“Niall, what the hell?! You’ve been avoiding me for the past month and I’m fucking sick of it! Tell me why you’re acting like this!” She yelled, her yelling at me felt like a million bricks thrown non-stop, making me weak to the knees, falling.
“It’s not that hard to notice Liv!” I shouted as I began to turn away.
“Notice what, Niall?! You’re confusing me.” She shouted back, grabbing my wrist. We were only a few centimeters away from each other, and our bodies almost touching. I felt my heart race wild as I felt the touch of her hand, but I couldn’t be feeling like this anymore. She wasn’t mine.
I calmed myself down as the only sounds was our intense angry breathing.
“Niall Please, tell me what’s wrong… I could try to help you…” She said softly.
“I want you to be honest with me, Liv.” I said sternly as I looked into her eyes. “And choose wisely.”
“Me or Harry?” I said with my voice shaking. She hesitantly looked away. “LIV!” I said sternly.
“I’m sorry Niall, I love you… but we can’t do this… You need to find someone who will love you back the way you love me… I love Harry.” She said, I felt sick to my stomach, wanting to punch a wall with the anger crashing over me.
“ARE YOU ONLY SAYING THAT BECAUSE YOU’RE PREGNANT WITH HIS CHILD?!” I shouted loudly. Her face went into horror as soon as the heartbreaking words spilled out of my mouth.
“HOW DARE YOU!” She shouted, shoving me back.
“Does he even know about this Olivia? Did you even tell him yet? Do you even know that we are leaving for tour in less than 24 hours?!” I screamed. “You’re just going to let him leave you like that?!
“IT’S NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINES-“
“Right because you haven’t told him yet.” I stated calmly. As of this point we were silent, and starting to calm down. My head faced down as my attention was on my shoes.
“You deserve so much better Liv…” I said sweetly, but disappointingly. “You don’t know what he’s capable of while he’s away… He’ll hurt you, and you know that I won’t do that… I will treat you so much better….
It was too late to turn my head by the time I looked her straight in the eyes. My eyes were becoming blurry from the abrupt welling of the tears. “Niall.” Olivia choked out. I didn’t hesitate to run to her. I held her tight in my embrace as she let out a loud sob.
“I’m so sorry Niall.” She said softly, her voice was strained and much weaker than the last time I heard her speak.
“There’s nothing to be sorry about.” I said calmly. “You loved him Liv, and I loved you too much that I was forced to let you go, only for you to be happy.”
“Past is past right? I’ve learned to accept everything that has happened between us.” I smiled. I stung myself with the real words that just poured out of my mouth, but I had to let it out.
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Harry’s P.O.V.
I was growing weary in my seat, my eyelids getting heavier and heavier every second, but I couldn’t fall asleep. Only for Liv, I had to stay awake, I needed to be by her side.
From the corner of my eye I saw the familiar blonde-haired boy walking in my direction. I shot my head quickly at him, noticing his eyes were bloodshot red than earlier, and tears were smeared down his cheeks.
“I’m going now.” He hoarsely said. I nodded slowly.
“Look Harry, I’m sorry for just barging in like that but thank you for not stopping me.” Just as he was about to walk away, I grabbed his shoulder carefully.
“You don’t need to be sorry Niall.” I paused. “I understand… I know you loved her.” He nodded, swinging his head down.
“Past is past right?” He said. “I know you must still hate me for what I’ve done bu-“
“Niall, I don’t hate you- Sure I may have disliked the fact that you were trying to have Olivia, but overall you’re my best friend… And I know for the past years we’ve been trying hard to pretend it never happened.” I stated. “I’ve moved on from that, and if you did too Niall, then I’d ask if we could be okay now.” I held out my hand that was slightly shaking, waiting for Niall to shake it. For a second he hesitated holding his hand out. Finally his hand smacked with mine, shaking it. I looked up to see that smile on his face, but his eyes were still masked with hurt.
“I still love her.” Niall blurted out. I nodded.
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The tension in her room was too much and felt as if there was no air existing. Only as I stand by the doorframe my heart quickly sunk down to my stomach. I looked up to see the one girl that stole my heart, literally. The only girl that made me feel, made me breathe, and made me live. I choked up on my breath watching her breathing way to slow now. I noticed the oxygen tubes were no longer around her nose anymore, only the electrocardiograph watching her heart intently. Her heart was beeping slow. The hurtful gut feeling came to mind, but I just couldn’t dare think of it. Too late. I knew she was already getting ready to leave.
I swiftly walked over to her, slowly. It felt like a million miles away trying to reach her. Finally I sat by the empty space in her bed. I hissed as the hot tears began to sting my eyes, desperately trying to spill out. Before I could grab her hand I noticed her eyes opened, watching me intently as I sobbed.
“Olivia.” I choked out, trying to gasp for air.
“Harry.” She said weakly. “Please don’t cry…”
My eyes were spilling tears out like a river, nonstop painful drops of tears didn’t dare to stop from strolling down.
“I can’t.” I said. The tone of helplessness in my voice made me sound desperate as I was. I looked away quickly, trying so hard not to look at Olivia for my heart would break instantly. I felt something cold placed in the palm of my hand. I slowly moved my head and saw what was placed in my hand. Her engagement ring. The feeling of a huge sword twisting and turning in my heart painfully hit me. Knowing that I couldn’t spend the rest of my life with her any longer, made me scream in my guts.
“Olivia.” I pleaded, handing the ring back to her. She held her hand out, rejecting my hand.
“Harry, we both know it’s impossible.” She said softly with tears threatening to spill out of her eyes. “We both know it’s too late.” I felt her thin hand grab mine and closed my hand with the ring in it.
“I want you to find someone out there that will have the time and give you the love you need.” She said wearily. “Promise me that?”
I nodded hesitantly. There was a brief moment of silence. “You know what Liv? I’m just happy that no matter what we’ve been through you still chose me, and you still continued to love me.”
She smiled innocently. “Will you promise me another thing Harry?”
“Will you promise me that you will continue to take care of Darcy and stay by her side?” She pleaded. “And will you promise me that you will make sure she’s happy?”
I nodded, making the sharp filled tears spill. “She’s the only thing left of you.” I said with my voice shaking.
“One last thing.” She stated clearly.
“Stay happy Harry, no matter if I’m gone… Don’t grieve over me.” She said.
“I’ll try.” I said, barely above a whisper. “I love you.”
She smiled contently, nodding her head as she slowly laid back on the pillow. Her eyelids were looking heavier, drooping over her eyes. Suddenly the machine went out and the line was going down flat.
“I love you.” She lastly said.
“No…No.” I choked. I quickly got up and screamed.
“DOCTOR! DOCTOR-“ A huge group of Nurses and Doctor quickly came rushing in, pushing me aside.
I looked over them to see the Doctor checking her pulse.
“1:54 A.M.”
I felt the alcohol already wearing off, feeling slightly sober and starting to get a hold of myself as I headed over to her room. The tension was emotionally unstable, I felt like I couldn’t breathe and my chest was pounding hard.
It was already late to turn back as I stopped tracks by the doorframe. Her head was already turned towards me with pity eyes. I couldn’t help but feel as if I don’t recognize her, everything about her was so different. Her once bright shiny eyes were now dull and lifeless, her body was almost as thin as paper and all of her hair was all off. The only thing keeping her sweet breathing was the tube connected to her nose. She smiled sweetly, making my heart race. The same familiar sweet smile I still remember on that one day we first met…
I couldn’t help but feel annoyed of Harry’s constant bragging of his girlfriend whom he was bringing today to the studio. I just wanted him to shut up. To be honest, I guess I felt jealous. But whoever she was, she was just probably one of those caked flirtatious girls you can find at a strip club. No hard feelings or anything, he would always bring those girls home, no surprise.
“All you boys here?!” I heard Harry’s familiar voice. All 4 of us sat around the table waiting for Harry for the meeting to start. I heard the footsteps draw nearer and nearer but I didn’t bother looking up as I just fumbled with my thumbs.
“Lads, meet my girlfriend Olivia.” He simply stated. I wasn’t too ecstatic as I looked up, my whole emotion changed. Our eyes locked in a gaze as I felt myself lure into her bright hazel eyes, her sweet innocent smile making my heart race fast. I guess I was wrong about her. She was beautiful… Now I felt the pang of jealousy stab me harder through my chest. I felt a bit of anger rush through me, I knew what Harry was capable of. She was sweet and innocent, whilst Harry on the other hand would go around and break dozens of hearts. He didn’t deserve her… to be honest, I did.
“Niall?” She choked out. I still stood by the door, not wanting to get near her for I only knew what I would feel again, feel for the last time she’d be standing. I didn’t want to feel the heartbreak again, but it was too late… I already was.
“Olivia.” I said blandly feeling a lump in my throat as I gulped nervously.
“I haven’t seen you in a while.” She chuckled nervously, yet her laugh was so weak, her voice sounded tiny.
“More like 17 years.” I stated sternly. I couldn’t help but feel guilt and remorse for how I was treating her like this while she’s already dying. The last thing I wanted was for her to feel my love.
“Right…” She said shyly, feeling slightly embarrassed as she lowered her head down, turning her attention to her hands. There was a brief moment of awkward silence.
“I heard you have a beautiful wife and a handsome son now, I’m happy for you Niall.” She said softly, but her voice was shaking at the end as I saw her eyes become slightly glassy with the tears welling up.
“Yeah, I’m very happy… It’s all I ever wanted.” I said. “Liv?”
“Yeah?” She answered.
“This will and might be the last time I ever see you…” I paused, realizing what I just said stabbed my heart. My eyes started to become welled up with tears, but Olivia persuaded me to carry on. “I want you to be honest with me… I know we’ve been through a lot the very last 17 years, and I know that there was a time where we had love for each other, we never ended it on the right note… We never said the proper goodbye, for we just vanished in each other’s lives…”
“Have you moved on?” I blurted out. The tears in my eyes suddenly strolled down abruptly with just a light blink. She didn’t answer for she just lowered her head down once again. “I knew what your choice was, and that was Harry, know that I never hated you because of you decision but I just left out of your life because I just wanted you to be happy…because I loved you so much… ”
“I just hope you know that I haven’t moved on Liv, and I still love you… always have.” I choked out. She nodded her head in understandment as she tilted her head looking up at me again, the tears were now strolling down her cheeks.
“I always loved you Niall, even if you were not in my life anymore… I still do.” I said sweetly, as I smiled.
“Niall!” I heard her sweet voice calling after me, but I didn’t bother turning around for I know that I would just get hurt if I ever see her face again. “Niall! Please!” She pleaded. I felt my heart break down to pieces, I felt pity over her. I closed my eyes slowly as I turned around. There she was as I opened my eyes, her bright eyes piercing through mine, and that sweet smile that drove me crazy.
“Olivia…” I said.
“Niall, what the hell?! You’ve been avoiding me for the past month and I’m fucking sick of it! Tell me why you’re acting like this!” She yelled, her yelling at me felt like a million bricks thrown non-stop, making me weak to the knees, falling.
“It’s not that hard to notice Liv!” I shouted as I began to turn away.
“Notice what, Niall?! You’re confusing me.” She shouted back, grabbing my wrist. We were only a few centimeters away from each other, and our bodies almost touching. I felt my heart race wild as I felt the touch of her hand, but I couldn’t be feeling like this anymore. She wasn’t mine.
I calmed myself down as the only sounds was our intense angry breathing.
“Niall Please, tell me what’s wrong… I could try to help you…” She said softly.
“I want you to be honest with me, Liv.” I said sternly as I looked into her eyes. “And choose wisely.”
“Me or Harry?” I said with my voice shaking. She hesitantly looked away. “LIV!” I said sternly.
“I’m sorry Niall, I love you… but we can’t do this… You need to find someone who will love you back the way you love me… I love Harry.” She said, I felt sick to my stomach, wanting to punch a wall with the anger crashing over me.
“ARE YOU ONLY SAYING THAT BECAUSE YOU’RE PREGNANT WITH HIS CHILD?!” I shouted loudly. Her face went into horror as soon as the heartbreaking words spilled out of my mouth.
“HOW DARE YOU!” She shouted, shoving me back.
“Does he even know about this Olivia? Did you even tell him yet? Do you even know that we are leaving for tour in less than 24 hours?!” I screamed. “You’re just going to let him leave you like that?!
“IT’S NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINES-“
“Right because you haven’t told him yet.” I stated calmly. As of this point we were silent, and starting to calm down. My head faced down as my attention was on my shoes.
“You deserve so much better Liv…” I said sweetly, but disappointingly. “You don’t know what he’s capable of while he’s away… He’ll hurt you, and you know that I won’t do that… I will treat you so much better….
It was too late to turn my head by the time I looked her straight in the eyes. My eyes were becoming blurry from the abrupt welling of the tears. “Niall.” Olivia choked out. I didn’t hesitate to run to her. I held her tight in my embrace as she let out a loud sob.
“I’m so sorry Niall.” She said softly, her voice was strained and much weaker than the last time I heard her speak.
“There’s nothing to be sorry about.” I said calmly. “You loved him Liv, and I loved you too much that I was forced to let you go, only for you to be happy.”
“Past is past right? I’ve learned to accept everything that has happened between us.” I smiled. I stung myself with the real words that just poured out of my mouth, but I had to let it out.
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Harry’s P.O.V.
I was growing weary in my seat, my eyelids getting heavier and heavier every second, but I couldn’t fall asleep. Only for Liv, I had to stay awake, I needed to be by her side.
From the corner of my eye I saw the familiar blonde-haired boy walking in my direction. I shot my head quickly at him, noticing his eyes were bloodshot red than earlier, and tears were smeared down his cheeks.
“I’m going now.” He hoarsely said. I nodded slowly.
“Look Harry, I’m sorry for just barging in like that but thank you for not stopping me.” Just as he was about to walk away, I grabbed his shoulder carefully.
“You don’t need to be sorry Niall.” I paused. “I understand… I know you loved her.” He nodded, swinging his head down.
“Past is past right?” He said. “I know you must still hate me for what I’ve done bu-“
“Niall, I don’t hate you- Sure I may have disliked the fact that you were trying to have Olivia, but overall you’re my best friend… And I know for the past years we’ve been trying hard to pretend it never happened.” I stated. “I’ve moved on from that, and if you did too Niall, then I’d ask if we could be okay now.” I held out my hand that was slightly shaking, waiting for Niall to shake it. For a second he hesitated holding his hand out. Finally his hand smacked with mine, shaking it. I looked up to see that smile on his face, but his eyes were still masked with hurt.
“I still love her.” Niall blurted out. I nodded.
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The tension in her room was too much and felt as if there was no air existing. Only as I stand by the doorframe my heart quickly sunk down to my stomach. I looked up to see the one girl that stole my heart, literally. The only girl that made me feel, made me breathe, and made me live. I choked up on my breath watching her breathing way to slow now. I noticed the oxygen tubes were no longer around her nose anymore, only the electrocardiograph watching her heart intently. Her heart was beeping slow. The hurtful gut feeling came to mind, but I just couldn’t dare think of it. Too late. I knew she was already getting ready to leave.
I swiftly walked over to her, slowly. It felt like a million miles away trying to reach her. Finally I sat by the empty space in her bed. I hissed as the hot tears began to sting my eyes, desperately trying to spill out. Before I could grab her hand I noticed her eyes opened, watching me intently as I sobbed.
“Olivia.” I choked out, trying to gasp for air.
“Harry.” She said weakly. “Please don’t cry…”
My eyes were spilling tears out like a river, nonstop painful drops of tears didn’t dare to stop from strolling down.
“I can’t.” I said. The tone of helplessness in my voice made me sound desperate as I was. I looked away quickly, trying so hard not to look at Olivia for my heart would break instantly. I felt something cold placed in the palm of my hand. I slowly moved my head and saw what was placed in my hand. Her engagement ring. The feeling of a huge sword twisting and turning in my heart painfully hit me. Knowing that I couldn’t spend the rest of my life with her any longer, made me scream in my guts.
“Olivia.” I pleaded, handing the ring back to her. She held her hand out, rejecting my hand.
“Harry, we both know it’s impossible.” She said softly with tears threatening to spill out of her eyes. “We both know it’s too late.” I felt her thin hand grab mine and closed my hand with the ring in it.
“I want you to find someone out there that will have the time and give you the love you need.” She said wearily. “Promise me that?”
I nodded hesitantly. There was a brief moment of silence. “You know what Liv? I’m just happy that no matter what we’ve been through you still chose me, and you still continued to love me.”
She smiled innocently. “Will you promise me another thing Harry?”
“Will you promise me that you will continue to take care of Darcy and stay by her side?” She pleaded. “And will you promise me that you will make sure she’s happy?”
I nodded, making the sharp filled tears spill. “She’s the only thing left of you.” I said with my voice shaking.
“One last thing.” She stated clearly.
“Stay happy Harry, no matter if I’m gone… Don’t grieve over me.” She said.
“I’ll try.” I said, barely above a whisper. “I love you.”
She smiled contently, nodding her head as she slowly laid back on the pillow. Her eyelids were looking heavier, drooping over her eyes. Suddenly the machine went out and the line was going down flat.
“I love you.” She lastly said.
“No…No.” I choked. I quickly got up and screamed.
“DOCTOR! DOCTOR-“ A huge group of Nurses and Doctor quickly came rushing in, pushing me aside.
I looked over them to see the Doctor checking her pulse.
“1:54 A.M.”
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