Torn

CALLIE'S POINT OF VIEW

"He what?"

"He's... Out of prison..." My foster mom says. I swallow.

"I'm- I'm gonna go to school now." I try to say, but it comes out more of a whisper. I don't bother waiting for Sara before I cross my arms and walk to school. The whole walk there is a blur. Everything is foggy... My eyes are probably wet by now. First period easily goes by with people staring at me. I'm usually the girl they expect me to be, the one who doesn't speak to anybody besides her friends, the one who talks in class and insults teachers. Today I just sat there, on the verge of crying. Calum was turned around in his seat, looking at me with a pout face. I just tried smiling, but I don't think that's what it looked like.

I walk in the hallway, looking at the floor, trying to get to second period, when I bump into someone. I look at, super hazy, and see Calum.

"Are you okay?" He asks me. "You seem sad." Only he would know. I shake my head, and look bak down at the floor. I try to keep walking, but he stops me, holding my arm. "Callie, what's going on?"

"Shouldn't you be worrying about Sara." I mumble.

"Sara broke up with me, now what is going on with you?" Sara dumped him?

"He's- He's back." I whisper.

"Who's b-"He stops talking when he realizes. "Oh my god." I sniff, and keep walking. I sit down, and Jess immediately walks over to me.

"Ha! I KNEW you had something going on with Calum!" You know what. If my dad is back I probably won't even be alive in the next two weeks.

"You know what?" I stand up. Calum walks in the room just as the bell rings, "I don't fucking care what you think about me, Calum, or my LIFE in general. Of course, yes, I still love Calum!" I don't even dare looking at Sara or Calum. "Of course I do! He's perfect! He's literally everything I've ever wanted, and to have him decide I wasn't good enough anymore ripped me apart. N-Nothing," I start crying, "Nothing is going right anymore. Everything used to be so much easier. You weren't always a selfish annoying piece of shit, Sara used to be cute and shy, I used to be-" I take a deep breath, tears flooding down my red face "I used to be HAPPY. And I pretend that I don't care, and I'm cool with whatever, but believe it or NOT I do have feelings!" I start thinking about me dad. "He can't just... They're going to make me live with him! They're going to make me move back in with the man that nearly killed me, and murder my mother!" I yell. I glance at Jess's shocked face, then Calum's, and then I walk out.

"Callie wait." Calum says, walking after me. I just go faster.

"I'm sick of waiting. What happened to the me I know, where I wouldn't think I'd just do?"

"I dunno, you have a lot going on right now." He says, from behind me.

"I hate who I am now. I keep asking for permission and doing the right thing. Well," I turn around to face him, standing on my tippy toes and pressing my lips against his. "I'm done doing that." I say, and drop back down to my heels. He grabs my arms hard enough to leave bruises, and kisses me back.

"No one is asking you to do the right thing." He says quietly.

SARA'S POINT OF VIEW

I FUCKING KNEW IT.

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