Lips so good I forget my name
I swear I could give you everything
‘Never Enough’ – One Direction

“Can you believe it’s been five months since the first show of the tour?” Bella asked.

“Time flies when you’re having fun, beautiful.” Harry winked and rested his hand on her knee. The contact made her shiver and her skin tingled.

“When did you get so sappy, Hazza? Ughhh…” Louis rolled his eyes mockingly. Bella blushed, her palm pressed against the top of Harry’s hands, moving her fingers in between his.

They were in Louis’ hotel room and it was almost 10pm. The city of San Diego was still awake, the sounds of vehicles travelling down the street and the clamouring of fans and paparazzi outside the hotel. Liam and Niall were out in a bar somewhere, enjoying the city, so there weren’t as many fans outside as before. But they were still there and Bella could hear them, just waiting to get a glimpse of at least one member of One Direction. But it wasn’t only the three of them in the hotel room. Two more people were with them. Correction, one adult and one child.

The boys’ hair stylist, Lou Teasdale, and her 3-year-old daughter Lux, sat next to Louis, across from Bella and Harry. Little Lux was too cute for words with blonde hair and bright eyes. She looked so much like her mother and speaking of Lou, Bella found her so friendly. She had been so nice to her ever since their first meeting on the 2nd when Bella landed in San Diego. The four members of One Direction were all uncles to Lux and she was spoilt rotten. And rightly so. Even Bella had fallen in love with her.

“I like sappy Harry.” Lou smiled, her daughter in her lap.

“That rhymes.” Bella chuckled, looking at Harry. He sighed and ruffled up his hair. I swear he touches his hair more than I touch mine. She thought. Lou looked extremely proud of herself and kissed Lux’s blonde head. The little girl looked at Bella with big eyes; Bella smiled at her sweetly. Lux began to squirm in her mother’s arms, trying to get free.

“What is it, pumpkin?” Lou said kindly as her daughter managed to get out of her grip. Lux padded across the floor to reach Bella, playing with her fingers. Everyone watched as the 3-year-old gripped Bella’s leg, giggling.

“Bell-Bell is pretty.” She cried in her high voice. Bella had adopted the nickname from Lux. She found it adorable. Being an older sister herself, Bella felt protective of little Lux. She was so sweet and Bella found it impossible for anyone not to love her. She knew about Lou’s relationship and what happened. So the boys of One Direction had adopted Lux and looked after her when Lou brought her on tour sometimes.

Bella smiled down at the toddler and let go of Harry’s hand to reach down and lift Lux up into her lap. The little girl let out a high-pitched squeal of “Yay!” when Bella picked her up, which made the people in the room laugh. Bella kept a close hold on Lux, wrapping her arms around her torso. Lux tugged at the loose strands of Bella’s hair, wrapping them around her small fingers. She was clearly having fun and because of her young age, she found almost everything fascinating. What Bella didn’t see was Harry looking at her with a smile on his face, thinking about how good of a mother she would be one day.

“She really likes you.” Lou said. Bella looked at her and rested her chin on the top of Lux’s head.

“The feeling is mutual.” She whispered, pressing a soft kiss to the toddler’s blonde-haired head. Bella had been almost ten when Ashley was three. She remembered holding her little sister in her arms and telling her how much she loved her and how cute she was. But Ashley hadn’t looked the same. Instead of having light eyes and blonde hair like Lux, she had the deepest brown eyes and dark hair. So different but just as adorable.

“How does the tattoo feel, love?” Louis asked. Bella took a quick look at her inner left wrist, the small infinity symbol black against the colour of her skin. It had been four days since she and Harry had gotten their matching tattoos and the minor pain was something Bella had forgotten.

“Fine. I can’t stop looking at it though.”

“Why did you choose an infinity symbol?” Lou questioned.

“Actually, it was Harry’s idea.” Bella answered, moving her knee up and down to entertain little Lux as she turned her gaze to her curly-haired boyfriend. Everyone’s eyes (apart from Lux) looked at Harry. He draped his right arm around the back of the couch, throwing his left leg over his right, his left hand holding his thigh from underneath.

“You guys know my favourite song on the album so far is Infinity…and it reminded me of Bella and I. Thought it was appropriate and fortunately, Bella agreed.” Harry looked at her, showing a smile that only she could see.

“That’s so sweet…!” Lou exclaimed, her smile bright.

“Once again, sappy.” Louis sighed sarcastically. Bella chuckled to herself as Harry fake-glared at his bandmate, shaking his head.

At that moment, the door opened and the two missing members of the band walked inside. Bella could tell they’d been drinking. They weren’t totally drunk but they were definitely tipsy. She could tell from the way they giggled as they stumbled into the room.

“You’re back. Have fun, babes?” Lou asked. Bella discovered she mothered the boys at lot. And in return, they would act like children, instead of their age.

“Yeah, we did.” Liam smiled goofily. Yep, definitely tipsy. Bella said in her head. Niall walked up to her and went down on his knees, grinning at Lux.

“Hey there, cutie. Miss Uncle Niall?”

“And don’t forget Uncle Liam!” The young man from Wolverhampton exclaimed. Bella looked down at Lux as Liam and Niall came up to her, blowing raspberries and tickling the little girl’s tummy. She loved the attention, giggling her cute little ass off. She was surrounded by people who adored her and Bella had the privilege of being one of those people. Bella looked around at Lou and the members of the biggest boy band on the planet and tried to fathom how lucky she was. Where she was now felt so surreal. She knew the band behind the tabloids, what they were really like: the kindest and funniest men she had ever met. And Bella wouldn’t have it any other way.

0*0

“You looked beautiful holding Lux.”

Bella blushed at Harry’s compliment as they walked into her hotel room.

“I didn’t want to let her go. She’s a little angel.” Bella said as Harry closed the door behind him. The room was quiet, compared to Louis’ one. Lou and Lux left when Bella and Harry did, leaving Louis to deal with Liam and Niall. Bella had a feeling they’d be asleep in about half-an-hour, crashed out on the bed or couch. She checked the time on her watch and saw it was only 10:20pm.

“It’s not that late. What do you want to do?” She asked, taking her watch off and turning around to face Harry but he wasn’t there. She frowned.

“I have an idea.”

Bella turned the other way to see him lying on the couch, his long legs encompassing almost the entire length of it. The black T-shirt he had on was loose-fitting, revealing the wings of the swallow tattoos on his chest. She didn’t even realise he’d taken his boots off, black socks on his feet. He looked so delicious just like lying there, completely clothed in black. The way those skinny jeans hugged his figure shouldn’t be allowed. Since when was beauty on this scale ever considered legal? Harry reached out his left hand to her. She walked forward and slid her palm against his, laying her watch onto the small table beside her. He wrapped his fingers around her hand and yanked her so hard that she fell on top of him. Bella gasped as her chest made contact with his, her hands on either side of his head.

“Harry! What…?” But she cut herself off when she felt his arousal through his jeans.

Her eyes went wide and she stared at him, her cheeks turning a deep shade of pink. He’s ready… But Bella wasn’t. His green eyes were inviting, a clear sparkle in them. Her nose brushed against his. They were so close that Bella could make out each feature of his face. She felt his hands rest on her waist and on the small of her back, her heart trembling as its beat increased each second. Next thing Bella knew, her lips were moving with his, gently tasting each other.

She let herself relax, her eyelids fluttering shut as she kissed him back. Desire flooded her mind and her heart took over her movements. Her hands went into his hair, the curls falling through her fingers. Bella swore she heard him moan and the sound was incredibly stimulating. Harry’s fingers moved up her spine, coming around to tug at the Peter Pan collar of her grey blouse. His fingertips ghosted over her chest, the touch electric on her bare skin, imaginary ripples swimming down her tanned arms. Bella opened her mouth to breathe but Harry took full advantage, covering her lips with his own, telling her exactly what he wanted without speaking. She whimpered in between kisses as his arousal grew. She could feel it against her inner thigh and it turned her on. Bella had never wanted Harry more than right now. The way he was making her feel was amazing, way better than Jacob ever did. As her lips connected with Harry’s once again, his fingers went to the top button of her blouse, opening it to reveal more of her chest.

Her eyes snapped open and she tore her lips away. She had never taken her top off in front of Harry. She had seen him bare-chested many times but that’s because he had a fantastic body. But Bella felt self-conscious about her body, just like other teenage girls. She wasn’t someone that showed off her breasts and flaunted her curvy hips. She had never gone out and caught boys. They came to her. She knew Harry wouldn’t care about what she looked like but that didn’t make Bella want to take her blouse off.

“I’m…sorry…” She choked out. She sat up and got off Harry, running her hands over her face and through her hair. She covered her eyes with her right hand, letting her left arm dangle by her side.

“Bella…?” Harry asked. Her fingers interlocked with his as he pulled her down to sit next to him. Bella was too ashamed to even look at him. They were kissing and doing what many young people did. Falling into a pool of desire and want.

“I’m…sorry…Harry.” She repeated.

“Don’t be. You don’t want to…do it.”

That made Bella look at him. She could see he looked a little upset. There was something in his eyes but he spoke with consideration. Bella’s lips parted and she placed her free hand over the one she was already holding.

“No, Harry, I do! I do…It’s just…” Bella trailed off. She didn’t know how to tell him. Do I just…say it? Will he still want to be with me knowing that I…? She sucked in a breath, lowering her eyes to their hands, clasped together like a lock. She heard Harry breathing, waiting for her to continue. She bit her lip as Harry placed his free hand on her forearm, his fingers gentle on her skin. Bella looked into his eyes and made the decision to just tell him.

“I’m a virgin.”

She knew it was right to tell him. He deserved to know. Bella wanted to look away from his eyes but she couldn’t. His reaction was something she did not expect. His eyes were wide for a second but then, his gaze softened.

“Oh, beautiful, being a virgin is nothing to be embarrassed about.”

“But…really?” Bella was no short of shocked.

“Yes, really. Everyone starts out as a virgin. I was a virgin once. I just can’t believe that you’re one.” Harry said.

“Why?”

Harry’s fingers snaked up her arm, moving over her shoulder and behind her neck, his pad of his thumb rubbing her cheek.

“Because you’re so beautiful… But I have the pleasure of being your first. If you want me to be…”

Bella’s eyes darted from his face to his thumb on her cheek to her lap to their interlocked hands. She was sure her heart was about to explode out of her chest. She had just told her boyfriend she’d never had sex and he seemed to be taking it so well. He was giving her the option to do it or not. Bella had been close to losing her virginity to Jacob but they never got around to it. And right now, she was so glad. To have Harry be her first was something Bella definitely wanted. But she wouldn’t lose her virginity to Harry Styles, a 21-year-old member of One Direction. She would lose her virginity to the real Harry. The one she had the privilege of getting to know behind all the cameras.

“I understand if you’re not ready. We don’t have to do it tonight.”

Bella let go of his hand and rested her hand over his, the one that sat against her neck. She shook her head, the faintest of smiles on her pink lips.

“No…I am ready. Make love to me, Harry.”

0*0

“Are you sure?”

His green eyes had never looked so stunning. The lights were dimmed in the bedroom, a soft muted golden glow across the white walls. Bella nodded.

“I’m sure.”

“I’ll go slow, OK? I want your first time to be as romantic as possible.” Harry whispered, his hands resting on the sides of her slim neck. Bella nodded again and took a slow breath, trying to calm her racing heart. She didn’t think that coming to visit Harry in San Diego would result in losing her virginity. She was nervous, happy and aroused all at the same time. She didn’t want it to be awkward or to feel odd. She didn’t want to disappoint Harry. She wanted everything to be perfect.

Her heart shivered when she felt Harry’s fingertips ghost over her skin. She was nervous but she knew Harry would be considerate of her. He pressed his forehead against hers and traced the curve of her top lip with his thumb. It was a sensual move and made Bella feel safe. She looked into his eyes and lost herself in their colour.

“You trust me?”

Bella swallowed and nodded her head. Of course she trusted Harry. He had never given her a reason not to. With their foreheads still touching, Harry proceeded to undo the buttons of her blouse. His breath was warm on her face and her eyes followed his hands as he gently touched her bare stomach once the buttons were open. She hadn’t shown him this much skin before and she couldn’t help but feel a little bit insecure. Bella’s lips parted when Harry titled his head to the side and gave her a soft kiss on the lips. She sunk into it, letting her arms go around his neck and releasing out a slow sigh of desire. His mouth tasted so sweet, just like sugar. She craved more and deepened the kiss, tightening her arms around his neck. His hands moved over her arms and down the sides of her body. Their lips parted and a second kiss was born. Everything was forgotten and it was only Harry she was entirely focused on. The smell of his breath, the warmth of his kiss, the touch of his fingers. Bella felt like she was in another world. One that she could live in forever.

The kiss ended but Harry’s lips moved to her cheek, down along her jaw, across to her ear and down to her sensitive neck. Bella kept her eyes closed as she slowly loosened her arms, resting one hand on his shoulder while the other went into his hair. He pressed the softest of kisses on the skin of her neck, slowly quickening her pulse, her heart increasing its beat. Bella wanted him so badly. She could feel her lower regions pooling with utter desire. He teased her and kept going slow because she knew he also wanted it to be perfect for her. One of Harry’s arms circled her waist while the fingers of his other hand moved across her chest, caressing her cleavage. He had never touched her there before so her reaction was to jump a little bit and flinch from his touch but she concentrated on the pressure of his lips and the wet sound of his kisses on her neck. Harry reached behind him and unlocked her hands from around him, pinning them to her sides. Bella titled her head back and licked her lips, waiting in anticipation of what was to come.

Harry broke his lips away from her neck and came back up to kiss her on the lips. It was a quick kiss but it was beautiful. Bella’s eyes flickered to his eyes which were focused on her cleavage. She bit her lip and shivered. What if he doesn’t like my body…? He could have second thoughts… But Bella discovered there was no need to worry. With his gaze still lowered, Harry slowly pulled the collar of her blouse back, exposing her shoulders. The fabric fell down her arms, hooking around her wrists, leaving the top-half of her body in just her bra. Harry let go of her so she could remove the blouse from her wrists, letting it fall to the floor. Bella had so much skin on show and it made her nervous. Harry’s left hand cupped her cheek, making her look at him. His eyes were extremely gentle and immediately made her feel alright. No-one’s eyes had ever had such an effect on her. He was so tender with her as he explored the skin of her arms with his hands, moving across her chest and over her breasts and down her flat stomach. Harry gave her another kiss before taking her hands in his own and pulling her to her feet. What…? He moved a strand of hair behind her ear and smiled at her sweetly.

“Just relax, Bella.”

His touch set her on fire but also calmed her down. His hands moved along her shoulders and down to her waist. Bella watched as Harry went down on his knees but he still kept his eyes to her face. Her heart pounded too loud and too fast and her stomach flipped in the prospect of having sex for the first time with Harry. His fingers went to the button on her jeans and unfastened it before pulling down the zipper as well. Oh, OK… Harry tucked his fingers into the waistband and slowly pulled her jeans down, revealing her tanned thighs. A coolness hit her bare skin but her body felt like it was burning. Bella couldn’t take her eyes off Harry. His pupils were dilated and from her angle, she could see the true volume of his curly hair. The jeans went down to her knees and Harry stroked her right thigh gently with his fingertips. He leaned in and kissed her skin, his lips soft and gentle, pulling back, skimming along her thigh. Bella threw her head back and looked at the ceiling. God, that feels so good… Her hands went into his hair, tugging on the curls as he pulled down his bottom lip on her tanned skin. She didn’t even realise that Harry had pulled her jeans even further down, now around her ankles. He told her to raise her feet one at a time and she did so he could fully take her jeans off, along with her socks and shoes as well. Bella stood before him in nothing but her bra and underwear. It left nothing to the imagination and she didn’t miss the glint of desire in Harry’s eyes when he rose to his full height, looking down at her.

“You’re so beautiful…” He murmured. Bella felt her cheeks turn pink and she looked down at the floor, trying to breathe properly. I believe you’re far more beautiful than me, Harry. She said in her head. His fingers rested underneath her chin, making her crane her neck up to look at him again. She only got to stare at his face for a moment because suddenly, his mouth was on hers, giving her the most passionate kiss yet. Her hands tightened in his hair as they kissed, welcoming the taste of his pink lips. Bella couldn’t get enough. She wanted even more. His kisses told a story. They held so much emotion. He didn’t need to speak to let her know what he felt and that was a quality she adored about Harry. Bella suddenly felt her bra loosen around her breasts and she pulled back to realise that Harry had unclipped her bra clasp. He’s never seen my breasts before…What if he’s not impressed….? Her heart was in her mouth and her hands made a move to cover her almost-naked torso.

“Hey, hey, it’s OK, love. You’re with me.” Harry said, stroking her cheeks with his thumbs. Bella looked up at him with anxious eyes.

“That’s the problem, Harry. I am with you.”

“I don’t understand how that’s a problem.”

“What if I don’t…satisfy you? What if you hate my body?”

“Bella! How can you say that, let alone even think it?” Harry gasped, shaking his head. He ran his hands up her arms and removed the straps of her bra off her shoulders. The bra fell to the floor and Bella realised her breasts were on show. His hands went to her waist as his gaze flickered from her breasts to her face.

“You’re absolutely stunning, Bella. You satisfy me with just a single kiss. You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen and I want to satisfy you.” Harry whispered with a smile. He took a step back and took off his socks and opening the button on his black skinny jeans. Bella could see his arousal straining against the fabric and it got her aroused too. He stepped forward again and took her hand, placing it over his arousal.

“You feel that?”

Bella looked at him and nodded.

“I want you, Bella, for who you are. So never say anything negative about yourself. Ever.” Harry said. Bella nodded again. Harry wants me. He’s aroused because of me…Wow, he really does want to be with me. It made a small smile came upon her full lips and she bit down on her bottom one. With his hand still holding hers, he guided it to the hem of his black T-shirt.

“Take it off, love.”

He let go of her hand and Bella used her other hand as well to take his T-shirt off. She had seen him bare-chested many times before but she was always in awe of his body. Lean muscles and smooth skin, decorated with beautiful tattoos. As soon as the T-shirt fell to the floor, Harry’s arms locked around her body and pulled her close, leaning down to pleasure her mouth with his tongue. The kiss was fiery and it melted quickly into many kisses in succession. Her tongue met his, tasting slickness and saliva. It was wonderful. Harry turned her body to the side and gently laid her down on the large bed.

“Breathe, Bella.” He whispered, pressing another kiss to her lips. In and out. In and out. She told herself as she got comfortable on the bed, her head falling back onto the soft pillows. Harry took his jeans off, leaving him in a pair of black boxers, and crawled on top of her, kissing all the way up her torso, from her navel to in between her breasts and over her collarbone. It was incredible the way he made her feel. Her eyes fluttered closed as she lost herself in the feeling of his lips on her body, slowly sucking on her neck before finally reaching her lips again. Bella clutched his face in her hands as they kissed tenderly, getting hotter and hotter with each passing second. She involuntarily spread her legs and she could feel his arousal pressed against her inner thigh. God, I want him so bad… Bella hadn’t had a feeling like this before. It was all new but she loved it already. Her fingers went down to his chest, tracing his collarbone and the strong lean muscle. His skin was warm and soft and she was sure she could hear his heart beat fast.

“You have no idea what you do to me…You drive me crazy, Bella…” Harry trailed off, running the tip of his tongue over her lips, teasing her, seducing her. His arms circled her and in one swift move, he turned over on his back so Bella was on top of him. Her breasts rested on his chest and Bella knew he was stimulated by it. The kissing accrued and Bella took full advantage of her position, crushing her lips down on Harry’s. She grew confident and let her body do everything. His locks fell through her fingers as their legs touched, warm skin so enticing and full of want. Harry sat up so Bella was straddling his lap, her legs wrapped around his waist. She could really feel his arousal now and it was very hard. It made her own sexual organs grow with desire even more. His arms were locked around her back while hers were fastened around his neck, pulling him closer. She heard him breathe, feeling the rise and fall of his chest as she clung to him, sighing as they continued to kiss in the privacy of the hotel bedroom.

Bella felt his hand delve into her underwear and gently touch her sex. She gasped and broke the kiss, her nose brushing his.

“Sssh, it’s OK, love. Just…relax.” Harry whispered, his left hand pressed against the small of her back. It was her first experience of being touched so intimately. She didn’t know what to do or what to think. His voice soothed her and made her let go of all her negative thoughts. I’m almost completely naked…and he stills wants me. Bella took a breath as Harry slipped one finger inside her. She whimpered softly and her head rolled back, allowing Harry to nip at her neck gently. Shit…! She could feel his finger inside her and it felt so fucking good. Bella moaned, holding onto him.

“Are you OK?” He asked.

“More, Harry. Please…” was all Bella could say.

“I already love it when you beg…” Harry chuckled sultrily, pressing kisses as soft as feathers along the column of her throat. He slipped another finger inside her, moving it around in a circle. Another moan fell out of Bella’s mouth as Harry got her even more aroused, opening up her sexual desire. Once he had removed his fingers, Bella pushed him down on the bed, retuning her lips to his as his hands roamed over her bottom and thighs. He rolled back on top of her and became a route of kisses all the way down her body, placing his fingers inside her underwear and pulling them down her legs. He threw them over his shoulder, leaving Bella completely naked before him. She felt vulnerable, completely defenceless. She was entirely bare and there was nothing she could hide. Harry smirked at her and cupped her breast with his left hand, moving his thumb over her perked nipple.

“Beautiful…”

Bella smiled and she blushed, licking her lips and biting on her bottom one. Harry leaned down again and kissed her a few times before getting off the bed. Bella watched him as he took his boxers off, baring his bottom and large arousal. He was bigger than she had imagined and she felt nervous again. How is he going to fit…? She had seen Jacob’s penis before but the furthest she ever went with him was touching it. Harry was bigger than him and her heart trembled at the fact that he was going to be inside her. Harry rubbed some lubrication on and pulled out a condom from the bedside drawer. He caught Bella’s gaze. She looked away and blushed, letting her hair cover her face.

“It’s OK, love. I’m not going to hurt you.” Harry reassured her, followed by the sound of foil being ripped. When she returned her eyes to him, she saw he had a condom on. Protection…that’s good… Bella’s fingers weaved with Harry’s when he climbed back onto the bed, positioning himself in between her legs. She could feel him even better now. He was so hard and that only made Bella even more anxious. It’s not going to feel beautiful…It’ll probably be painful. Her mother had told her a woman’s first time feels odd and can hurt but that’s just normal. But Bella trusted Harry and she knew full well he would never hurt her, emotionally or physically. Harry kissed her forehead gently, grabbing her left thigh with his right hand, placing her leg around his waist; Bella did the same with her right leg so both were raised high around Harry’s waist, leaving her sex open, ready for him to slide into.

“This might hurt a little…but stay calm and relax. If it hurts too much, tell me and I’ll stop, OK?” Harry said. Bella nodded and braced herself, resting her hands on his chest. He leaned down a little further and the very moment his lips touched hers, he placed himself inside her. Bella gasped into the kiss and wrapped her arms around his torso, her fingernails digging into his back. It didn’t hurt as much as she had thought but her mother was right about the part of it feeling a little bit…odd. It was completely different to placing a tampon inside. An erect penis was a completely different experience. That being said, it also felt so…right.

“Oh, God…!” Bella cried once her lips were free.

“You alright?”

“I’m…fine…Keep going…”

Harry did just that and began a slow motion of going in and out of her. Their hips moved in sync, together and whole. Kisses were born again and Bella relaxed into Harry’s embrace. She heard him growl and grunt as they continued to make love. It felt so good and Bella wanted more immediately.

“More, Harry…I want more…” She whispered.

“Bella…Holy…” Harry growled and then, Bella experienced her first orgasm. It exploded and she cried out, throwing her head back into the pillows, her eyes squeezed shut. She turned her face to the side and she felt his mouth hot on her neck, licking, sucking, kissing and biting her skin as her pulse quickened from their sexual activity.

Bella lost track of time. She forgot what hour it was. The only thing she could fathom was how amazing Harry was. The taste of his pink lips, the hotness of his breath, the hardness of his arousal, his deep grunting as he had his own orgasm, growling when he fell into it. On that night, Bella had never felt so safe and so loved as she and Harry continued to move their bodies as one. They were finally joined, one and whole together.

Notes

So…that was my first time writing a sex scene. I hope it was OK. It’s very odd writing sex about someone you’ve never met but admire and love from the outside! Comments are life, sweeties, so please leave them below :)

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