Lucy's P.O.V

''What do you mean you're late I thought you were on birth control?'' Tess walked closer as I backed in to the wall. ''I must have forgot or...no I threw them up. I had this stupid hot dog eating contest with Niall, don't ask, and I threw up. Harry and I...you know.. that morning'' I said confused and angry with myself. How could I be so stupid? If it's something my parents had thought me it was safe sex. ''Don't you guys use condoms too?'' El stroke my arm trying to calm me, ''no, that's the whole point with birth control. You shouldn't have to'' ''okay but a lot of girls are late sometimes, it's quite usual'' El said but I shook my head ''I'm never late''. ''Okay so how late are you exactly?'' Tess asked ''I think about two weeks. This is not happening right now, please tell me this is not happening right now'' I sunk down on the floor and put my hands over my face trying to breathe. The girls crouched down to me, ''It's gonna be okay, babe. We're leaving right now and getting you a test. Okay?'' Tess said and got me back on my feet. ''Yeah, and you should probably not finish that'' Eleanor took the drink I was holding from me and I gave her a look, ''just in case'' she added.
We headed back to the boys to say goodbye, everyone noticed something had changed with our moods but no one commented it. ''Hey, I'm gonna leave with El and Tess but uhm...I'll see you in the morning'' I bite my lip trying not to cry, this scared the shit out of me. Harry leaned in to whisper in my ear, ''are you okay?'' ''yeah I'm fine, I just need to go'' I smiled ''I can see that you're not okay, I know you'' if he doesn't shut it this instant I'm going to start cry ''we can talk about it tomorrow, I just need to be with Tess and Eleanor right now'' I gave him a kiss so he wouldn't say anything else.

We got back to my place after we had stopped by a gas station to pick up a pregnancy test. ''So you should wait three minutes now'' Eleanor said as she was reading on the box. Both Tess and I knew, we had done it once before. Now I get why Tess cried that time this happened to her, but I just felt empty inside. I didn't show any emotion. The three of us sat on the floor waiting for the time to go by. ''Harry is in the middle of his career, and I...I haven't even done me yet. I was going to finish Uni, get a job and..'' Tess cut me off ''Lucy, you don't know if you are yet so don't think 'what if'. It will only fuck your head up'' Eleanor nodded agreeing to what Tess had just said. Time was up and I grabbed the test to look at it, ''two stripes you are, one stripe you're not'' Eleanor said as I looked at it. It was one clear stripe. And another not so clear. ''What does that mean?'' I showed them the test ''It doesn't say anything about a blurry stripe'' Eleanor said as she was reading on the box again.

It was four in the morning and I was laying in bed, between Eleanor and Tess. They didn't want to leave me alone with my thoughts. Yet here I was, awake and with everything and nothing on my mind. We had decided to go to the doctor's first thing in the morning. Gosh I had really screwed up this time. What if I am pregnant? I can't take care of a child. I can barely take care of myself. I'm not ready to bring a child in to this world, I would be the worst mom. Me being pregnant would ruin Harry's life. I could never have that on my conscience. I'd be the girl who broke up One Direction. I'm not against abortion, not at all, but I don't know if I could go through with it myself. Harry on the other hand was strongly against abortion. I don't really get why since I believe it's up to the woman to make that decision. I felt tears build up my in my eyes and soon enough I was silently crying. I can't be pregnant. I can't. I quickly snuck out of the bed and left my flat, only wearing pajamas. I started walking down the street as I called for a cab. I needed to see Harry. He was the only one who would help me get my thoughts clear.

I knocked a couple of times without no answer, it was 4.45am. But still, he should hear if there was someone knocking on the door. Just as I was about to give up, thinking he slept at one of the boys', he opened the door. He was only wearing boxers and looked at me like he was confused. I couldn't hold it back anymore, I flew in to his arms and let out loud sniffles while wetting his bare chest. He closed the door before wrapping his arms around me, holding me tight before leading me in to his bedroom. I cuddled up beside him on the bed and he let me cry for awhile. ''What's going on?'' he whispered as he rubbed my back, ''I think I might be pregnant'' I let out a loud sniffle, still with my face in his chest. I didn't dare to look him in the eye. He stopped rubbing my back for a second, making my heart drop, but he soon continued. ''Are you scared?'' okay not the answer that I was expecting, well I didn't really know what to expect but..yeah. I looked up to meet his eyes, he looked completely calm ''yeah'' I sniffled. ''It's gonna be okay, love'' we didn't say anything else and soon I fell asleep to him rubbing my back.

Harry and I were sitting at the doctor's office. It was only 8 am and I had only slept for three hours so I must have looked awful. ''Lucy it's gonna be fine'' Harry took my hand and I noticed I had been shaking, ''what ever the results say, it's gonna be fine. We are gonna be fine'' his thumb stroke my hand gently. He always knew how to calm me. ''Miss Wellington? The doctor will see you know'' a nurse told us and we both stood up. ''Breathe'' Harry said as we walked in to the office. We shook hands with the doctor before sitting down. ''So why are you here today, Lucy?'' he asked, he looked nice. Almost reminding me of my own dad. ''Uhm..I need to take a pregnancy test'' I stuttered, Jesus Lucy get yourself together. ''Okay I just need to ask some questions first'' ,I nodded, ''Are you sexually active?'' obviously, is he stupid? ''yeah''. He noted something on a paper, ''do you use any contraceptives such as condoms or birth control?'' ''uh birth control'' ''okay so did you forget to take them or...?'' ''no I threw them up'' he noted some more on his paper before he stood up. ''Okay so you can just go to that bathroom over there and pee in this cup'' he was speaking like he was talking about the weather. I grabbed the cup and went to the bathroom. When I was done I left the cup in a little box to the nurse. Then we had to sit in there for ten minutes before the doctor came with my results. ''so, I see that you are not pregnant. I advice you to, in the future if you don't wish for children this early, to use both condoms and birth control'' I just looked at the doctor while Harry squeezed my hand. ''Wait so I'm not pregnant?'' he shook his head ''no you're not'' thank god.

''How do you feel about this?'' Harry asked as he started the car, ''relieved, I mean I want to go back to Uni and get an education first...how do you feel?'' ''I agree, but this made me realize something'' he gave me a quick look ''what?''. ''I was thinking about it before, and if you were pregnant I wouldn't mind. Sure it's early but we'd work it out. It kind of made me realize that I...I can see us in ten years with a house, children and maybe a dog'' normally this would scare me, but now I couldn't help to feel the same. It all was so clear now, of course he is the one I would spend my life with. ''So those future children, how many are you thinking?'' I smiled as he let out a chuckle, ''eight'' I gasped ''I can give you four but that's it'' I stated and laughed.

The boys had an interview later that day so Eleanor had stayed at my place so we all could watch it together live on the TV. I had thought they would be mad that I went with Harry to the doctor's instead but they were just happy it all worked out. ''Eleanor, it's starting'' I yelled from the living room where I was sitting next to Tess. Eleanor came running from the bathroom and jumped on the couch, ''did I miss something?'' she tried to catch her breath. ''No it starts now'' I said as the TV host welcomed One Direction. Harry was wearing black skinny jeans, a blue shirt and a bandanna holding his curls in place. Looking absolutely gorgeous as usual. The interviewer was talking about their new album and their upcoming tour. Yes I know they barely had been home for three months but still planning the new tour. ''So boys there's these rumors going on all over TMZ. Is there something you need to tell us?'' he began and pointed on a TV screen beside the couch the boys were sitting on. A headline that said something about 1D girlfriend's spotted buying pregnancy tests and pictures of me, Tess and Eleanor showed. ''Oh shit I didn't tell Louis about this, he's gonna freak out'' Eleanor said and bite her nail of nervousness. ''I hope Harry told him, all though I don't think he did'' I said. The boys reactions were something alright. Harry let out a sigh, Liam's face was blank, Niall looked confused at Harry and Louis, Zayn looked like he wasn't listening and Louis looked panicked. ''I bet Harry didn't tell Louis'' Tess stated and I felt so bad for him. ''Oh my god he is freaking out, look at him'' El pointed at the TV. As the daddy of the group Liam quickly spoke when he realized no one else would, ''uh...no not at all. The girls were just helping out a friend'' I could tell on his voice that he didn't believe a word. ''Did Liam just throw me under the bus?'' Tess said before seeing Niall's reaction. The friend in the picture was obviously Tess and when Liam said that we were helping out a friend Niall realized the conversation now was about whether or not Tess was pregnant. Tess let out a groan and I couldn't help to laugh, ''oh god this is going so bad''.

''The interview ended twenty minutes ago, why haven't any of them called?'' I said, we were basically waiting for Niall and Louis to call so we could explain it all, but no one had called. ''What if Niall's so freaked out by it he doesn't want to see me?'' Tess was on the verge of crying when there was a knock on the door. I got up and flung the door open just to see 4/5 of One Direction walk in. Niall, Harry, Louis and Liam stood there quiet for a second when I closed the door. ''So which one of you is pregnant?'' Liam asked and I looked over at Harry. Why had he not told them already? ''Harry why haven't you told them?'' everyone turned to me before turning to Harry ''you knew about this but didn't tell us? We were just humiliated on National Television, Haz'' Liam crossed his arms. ''Sorry it wasn't my story to share'' he explained himself. ''So who is pregnant then?'' Louis yelled and looked at Eleanor. ''Can everyone just chill out for a second?'' I yelled back, ''no one is pregnant'' I continued. ''Then why the hell were you buying pregnancy tests in the middle of the night?'' Niall asked, ''and who THOUGHT she was pregnant?'' Louis said, still kinda panicked. ''It was me'' I sighed and everyone looked at me, ''I thought I was pregnant, but I'm not so can we just drop it?'' I sunk down on the couch. This whole situation had become a bigger thing than it was. Fucking paparazzi's.

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