Lucy's P.O.V


We're having a blast, drinking shots at dinner and dancing on a numerous of night clubs. I forget that I have a life outside of this club, this song, this drink. This life. I wake up on my bathroom floor, where I have fallen asleep with my clothes on. Using a wet towel as a pillow. But at least I got home.

I was standing on the sidewalks right beside a park with a playground, it's dark and it's pretty quiet. There's a night club just across the street, I think I was there earlier this night. I can hear drunk people, laughter's and shouts. But where I stand it's quiet. I'm leaning towards a tree, my left hand clenching to the tree as I'm using my right hand to wipe my mouth. I had just thrown up four times in a row, but I don't really care I just wipe away whats left of it before I put some gum in my mouth. Breath in, breath out and then lighting a cigarette.

''Have you been drinking..again?'' Harry asked, making me annoyed. Why does he care, it's my life. ''I'm just trying to live my life here, Harry. I don't butt in on what you do when you're on tour'' I snapped, ''you don't live your life by going out and getting smashed every day. Can you just talk to me? What is going on you haven't been yourself in weeks'' he sounded tired, probably tired of me. But what is he expecting from me? What am I supposed to do? We are literally ocean's apart and it's too hard. We hadn't seen each other since his birthday, four freaking months ago. He had been begging me to come and visit him but I just couldn't, knowing it would only make me miss him more when I got back home. It would be like taking one step forward and then two steps back. ''I don't want to fight about is, I'm too drunk for that'' I almost slurred ''you're always drunk. That's the fucking point. Who are you, I don't even recognize you anymore'' he hung up. Okay if that is how he wants to play, I will show him how the game is played.


Harry's P.O.V

''Have you talked to her? She has literally ignored me for five days'' I asked Tess as we got in to the tour bus. ''Who Lucy? No she's been hanging out a lot with Cara and she doesn't really answer my texts anymore'' she sighed ''With Cara? She has told me everytime I've called her that she's not even hanging out with Cara'' is Lucy really lying to me ''oh she's definetly hanging out with Cara. Have you seen Sugarscope lately? There's new pictures everyday'' Tess pulled up her phone to show me. So my girlfriend has been lying to me. Who cares I don't like that she hangs out with Cara, but she doesn't have to lie about it. What has happened to us? We were doing so good, we were happy. I honestly don't know how much longer I can deal with this. She has changed so much this pass few months and it's like we don't know how to communicate anymore. I have been trying for months to fly her to me and make everything right but she claims she has a lot to do. But she can't be busy every second of the day, can she? ''Do you want me to call her? I'll turn on the speaker'' Tess said and I nodded. I took a couple seconds before she answered, and Tess hushed me so Lucy wouldn't hear I was here.
''Tess'' she yelled
''Hey babe, what are you doing?''
''Just getting ready, I'm going out tonight''
''Oh again, how often are you going out these days?'' Tess laughed to take off the serious tone of her question
''Why are you asking?'' Lucy sounded annoyed
''No reason, I just think that it's not that healthy to drink so much..''
''Well you do you hun, and I'll do me'' did she just say that? Tess looked as shocked as I felt, that was just rude to say
''Uh, of course. Uhm, have you spoken to Harry lately?''
''No'' that's all she had to say? A simple no?
''How come? He misses you''
''Mh-hm''
''Are you listening to me, Lucy?''
''Sorry what did you say?''
''Harry misses you''
''Oh, okay'' why is she acting so cold?
''Okay? Do you even care? Why aren't you flying out here? What's going on?''
''I don't have time'' who is this girl and what has she done to my girlfriend?
''Okay I'm gonna give it straight to you, Lucy. Because this bullshit thing you're up to, ignoring Harry and shit, it's going to ruin your relationship. Do you get it? Your relationship is barely hanging on a thread. It takes two you know. If you don't try a little harder there will not be any more Halucy, do you get it?'' how could Tess even describe my feelings without me even telling them to her? But it scared me to hear it out loud.
''Yeah whatever I gotta go'' she hung up.

Have you ever felt your heart brake? I haven't but I'm pretty sure I just heard a crack, and I sure as hell felt it. How could she be so ignorant? I honestly don't know where it went all wrong for us. ''Are you okay, Haz?'' Louis walked in, ''yeah, I just need to be alone for a bit'' I headed to my bunk bed. So much for your own space. But I really didn't want to cry in front of everyone. I closed the curtain that divided our sleeping spaces from the rest of the bus and just cuddled up by myself feeling the tears fall. I can't believe I'm here crying over a girl, I promised I would never do that. And here I am doing it anyway, not really knowing what is going on in my relationship. Maybe she's just not in love with me anymore? Maybe that's why she doesn't want to visit. I just need to know, because if she's not in love with me anymore I need to move on. I quickly pulled up my phone and pressed dial on her number. Please answer me, please, please, please.

''Hello?''
''Hi'' I said and noticed my voice very much revealed that I had been crying
''What's wrong?'' of course she heard it too
''Nothing'' I mumbled, not really sure of what I was supposed to say
''I can hear you're crying. Tell me'' she said a little softer
''I'm just thinking about us, we're not doing so well'' I let out a sniffle
''I know'' she sighed
''I just..I guess I need to know if it's because you're not in love with me anymore. Because uhm you don't want to come visit me, and uhm you barely talk to me anymore''' my voice sounded hysteric, god Harry control yourself
''No, that's not it at all. I love you, always will. It has nothing to do with you, it's me. I'm the one who should do better. I'm sorry, I really am'' she sniffled, making me cry even more.
''I just wish you were here right now, I miss you too much'' you could barely hear me behind my tears
''I miss you too, so so much. It's like I don't know who I am without you''
''Just be you, you're exactly the same person as you were before me, my best friend''
''Uh-huh, Harry?
''Yeah?''
''I love you''
''I love you too''

Notes

This chapter sucks, sorry. I honestly don't even want to upload it but I'm doing it because the story gets better..
So tomorrow I'm starting school again after a two week autumn break, so I won't be updating as often as I've been. It's my last year so I have a lot of things to do in school, hope you understand!

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